I can’t believe how bluepilled I used to be

[Prøphet]

Jfl when I think back on how delusional and ignorant I was, when I was around 14 or 15 I started to become introspective and esoteric as a way to cope with the relentless looks discrimination I faced every single day in school for my subhuman face and body, I used to think about how I don’t care about anyone else’s perception of me, I would tell myself constantly that it doesn’t matter what others think it only matters what I think etc etc, I thought I figured it all out, now at 18 I know that I was just known as a fucking weirdo because of how I looked, it really was that simple

 

[Prøphet]

I would even tell myself that it’s good that people judge me and “place me into a box” of their preconceived notions because then I would know who to avoid, JFLLL It hurts remembering how I used to think, I was blissfully ignorant of how important it is to be accepted or at least tolerated by society

 

[Claymoreboy0118]

I miss how I used to see things honestly...

 

[Prøphet]

And the funniest part is I never realized that I am also a lookist, I judge people based on how they look too, everyone is a lookist, even the sub2 Indian is a lookist, it’s not even a choice it’s just humans nature

 

[Prøphet]

Tldr we live in a fallen angel world and the solution isn’t to bury your head in the sand and jerk yourself off with toxic forced positivity, the solution is to play the game and win, only then will you have a good life

 

[Prøphet]

I miss how I used to see things honestly...

I miss how my mindset used to make me feel better, but the self soothing is poisonous, if you stay that way you will never be seen as someone respectable and the years will slip through your fingers like the wind, you will just be alone, at least now I know what needs to be done for my success

 

[nel9d]

Jfl when I think back on how delusional and ignorant I was, when I was around 14 or 15 I started to become introspective and esoteric as a way to cope with the relentless looks discrimination I faced every single day in school for my subhuman face and body, I used to think about how I don’t care about anyone else’s perception of me, I would tell myself constantly that it doesn’t matter what others think it only matters what I think etc etc, I thought I figured it all out, now at 18 I know that I was just known as a fucking weirdo because of how I looked, it really was that simple

Blue but happy

 

[Prøphet]

I blame a big part of this in my parents being bluepilled too, I was fed bold faced lies by people who didn’t have to go through a tenth of what I did

 

[Prøphet]

Blue but happy

Have you heard of the happiness machine theory?

 

[nel9d]

Have you heard of the happiness machine theory?

No elaborate please

 

[Prøphet]

No elaborate please

It’s like the matrix, would you isolate yourself and plug yourself into a machine that’s happy and peaceful, or would you rather achieve happiness in the real world outside of your mind instead of just sniffing roses in your head all day

 

[nel9d]

It’s like the matrix, would you isolate yourself and plug yourself into a machine that’s happy and peaceful, or would you rather achieve happiness in the real world outside of your mind instead of just sniffing roses in your head all day

Yeah j would

 

[Prøphet]

Something else that’s funny is I would physically recoil whenever I saw pictures of me or looked in the mirror, but I was so deep into the cope I just convinced myself to ignore it. That feeling is now my greatest fuel that propels me to make charge changes I need

 

[59H390]

I was just known as a fucking weirdo because of how I looked, it really was that simple

Are u saying it’s impossible to be Nt and ugly? I woudl def agree that you can be cooked when it comes to finding love or being most popular kid in school or whatever but if ur considered a weirdo by everyone theres def other factors to that imo

 

[Prøphet]

Yeah j would

What about when you grow old and the topic of your life comes up? Would you be fine realizing finally then that you deprived yourself of so many unique experiences and opportunities and stayed comfortable in denial instead?

 

[nel9d]

What about when you grow old and the topic of your life comes up? Would you be fine realizing finally then that you deprived yourself of so many unique experiences and opportunities and stayed comfortable in denial instead?

Uhh yeah id be fine since i made the choice of coming into my comfort zone

 

[Prøphet]

Are u saying it’s impossible to be Nt and ugly? I woudl def agree that you can be cooked when it comes to finding love or being most popular kid in school or whatever but if ur considered a weirdo by everyone theres def other factors to that imo

I was extraordinarily ugly, having shit ratios and an eye deformity, still am, but I was pretty normal in elementary school. As people became crueler and more judgemental of my looks around middle school I had a series of bad experiences that made me weirder and weirder and it js got out of control

 

[59H390]

I was just known as a fucking weirdo because of how I looked, it really was that simple

Are u saying it’s impossible to be Nt and ugly? I woudl def agree that you can be cooked when it comes to finding love or being most popular kid in school or whatever but if ur considered a weirdo by everyone theres def other factors to that imo

I was extraordinarily ugly, having shit ratios and an eye deformity, still am, but I was pretty normal in elementary school. As people became crueler and more judgemental of my looks around middle school I had a series of bad experiences that made me weirder and weirder and it js got out of control

yeah thats fucking facts, being bullied for looks at such a. Young age can permanently make u weird due to being distanced from everyone

 

[Prøphet]

Uhh yeah id be fine since i made the choice of coming into my comfort zone

Then I’m happy for you, I just know I wouldn’t be able to handle that

 

[Prøphet]

Are u saying it’s impossible to be Nt and ugly? I woudl def agree that you can be cooked when it comes to finding love or being most popular kid in school or whatever but if ur considered a weirdo by everyone theres def other factors to that imo

yeah thats fucking facts, being bullied for looks at such a. Young age can permanently make u weird due to being distanced from everyone

Not impossible but once you get to a certain level of ugliness you’re more likely to act nd than nt because of how your interactions in life have gone

Yea exactly it’s like a self fulfilling prophecy, you literally become what society thinks you are, that’s why bp is so important

 

[59H390]

Not impossible but once you get to a certain level of ugliness you’re more likely to act nd than nt because of how your interactions in life have gone

Yea exactly it’s like a self fulfilling prophecy, you literally become what society thinks you are, that’s why bp is so important

Very true , for what it’s worth I’m always willing to talk about shi if u need to man

 

[Prøphet]

Very true , for what it’s worth I’m always willing to talk about shi if u need to man

Preciate it bro same here

 

[Mitläufer]

I would even tell myself that it’s good that people judge me and “place me into a box” of their preconceived notions because then I would know who to avoid, JFLLL It hurts remembering how I used to think, I was blissfully ignorant of how important it is to be accepted or at least tolerated by society

Atleast you know now

 

[Prøphet]

Atleast you know now

Best and worst thing to happen to me, anything is better than being delusional against your will

 

[unstable]

Best and worst thing to happen to me, anything is better than being delusional against your will

even i have slight eye deformity foids once asked me if i am "cross eyed slur"
life as a ugly man with ambitions is hell

 

[Prøphet]

even i have slight eye deformity foids once asked me if i am "cross eyed slur"
life as a ugly man with ambitions is hell

Dude I have the same thing except mine isn’t slight

 

[Prøphet]

even i have slight eye deformity foids once asked me if i am "cross eyed slur"
life as a ugly man with ambitions is hell

Kids used to ask me where I’m looking

 

[PeakIncels]

it's okay, it was bound to happen regardless, what matters now, is that you acknowledge the problem, looks are only 20% of you, the rest of your identity is how well you can communicate, connect, and share with others, don't be superficial, i know you are smarter than this.

you wasn't a weirdo because of your looks, you was a weirdo, because you were the only one that couldn't socialize, tell me, did you have a genuine relationship or friendship in highschool?

 

[unstable]

Dude I have the same thing except mine isn’t slight

but i have several other deformities too

 

[Prøphet]

it's okay, it was bound to happen regardless, what matters now, is that you acknowledge the problem, looks are only 20% of you, the rest of your identity is how well you can communicate, connect, and share with others, don't be superficial, i know you are smarter than this.

you wasn't a weirdo because of your looks, you was a weirdo, because you were the only one that couldn't socialize, tell me, did you have a genuine relationship or friendship in highschool?

Sounds like cope ngl, looks are 50% at least, and superficiality is a biological instinct for survival, there’s no species on earth that isn’t superficial

I had 2 genuine friendships, all of the rest were fake, no girl has ever shown interest in me because I’m a 3/10 truecell

 

[Prøphet]

but i have several other deformities too

Same I have short face syndrome and the frame of a 15 year old girl

 

[PeakIncels]

Sounds like cope ngl, looks are 50% at least, and superficiality is a biological instinct for survival, there’s no species on earth that isn’t superficial

I had 2 genuine friendships, all of the rest were fake, no girl has ever shown interest in me because I’m a 3/10 truecell

eventually, you might realize it isn't a cope by yourself, by just looking at events in real life that are bound to make you realize, still, I'm sorry to hear your highschool experience being so bad, i understand

 

[Deleted member 85787]

Just kill your selfpast theory

 

[Prøphet]

eventually, you might realize it isn't a cope by yourself, by just looking at events in real life that are bound to make you realize, still, I'm sorry to hear your highschool experience being so bad, i understand

Well we’ll see, everything I do rn is with the goal to ascend, it’s the only thing that gives me a sliver of hope for my future. How was your life in hs bhai

 

[unstable]

Same I have short face syndrome and the frame of a 15 year old girl

how do you find out if you have it? like is it due to unequal proportions because i think i have it

 

[Prøphet]

how do you find out if you have it? like is it due to unequal proportions because i think i have it

If your chin is hella short compared to your philtrum, your lower third is shorter than your midface, you descend whenever you bite down, or everyone tells you that you have a “baby face”

 

[PeakIncels]

Well we’ll see, everything I do rn is with the goal to ascend, it’s the only thing that gives me a sliver of hope for my future. How was your life in hs bhai

id say absolutely terrible if i managed to attend a full year without having more than 30 absences

unfortunately I've had many mental problems that forced me to not be present at school a lot

most of the school year i was in an ed treating facility, or inp at hospitals, buy yea, it wasn't so good tbh, it was very very painful and i got excluded a lot

i never made it weight that much though, I've had bigger problems to deal, then

 

[Prøphet]

id say absolutely terrible if i managed to attend a full year without having more than 30 absences

unfortunately I've had many mental problems that forced me to not be present at school a lot

most of the school year i was in an ed treating facility, or inp at hospitals, buy yea, it wasn't so good tbh, it was very very painful and i got excluded a lot

i never made it weight that much though, I've had bigger problems to deal, then

Brutal I’m sorry to hear about that bro

Being a mental cell is the worst feeling ever hope you can find a way to overcome it all

 

[PeakIncels]

Brutal I’m sorry to hear about that bro

Being a mental cell is the worst feeling ever hope you can find a way to overcome it all

it's alright dw, ty for the kind words though, lyly

 

[unstable]

you descend whenever you bite down

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