I cant even bust a nut because of how subhuman i am

[IHATEINDIANS]

Whenever i try to jerk off it starts good but like halfway through the video i just remember how subhuman I am and how i will never feel this irl. Then i try to keep going but my mind just keeps reminding me of how disgusting and repulsive i am and that she would never fuck me let alone talk to me so i get soft and i just give up. The few times I do manage to I just feel like shit after ward. So brutal