i cant even ntmax with drugs anymore

[bananabrick]

so at my sober house for new years they had this sober clubbing event at the usual meeting place, i agreed to go with a couple housemates but not before shooting up 3 points of meth (in hindsight i should have waited a couple of hours cause i was already coming down by the time we got in). i thought i was prepared and would have no problem acting nt. anyway i get there and everyone is dancing having a great time and i cant even move a muscle i feel so socially awkward despite my sexual experiences id never felt so out of place, at this point i realized im probably mildly autistic from being emotionally starved for most of my life and walked back in the rain for an hour with one of my house mates so at least not alone. complete humiliatiion except this one girl did approach me but i let the convo die and i saw her later with this manlet chadriguez.