I can’t hide how sad I am anymore

[Prøphet]

Pussy ass post ik but fuck man. I couldn’t even talk to my family properly today because I was so choked up holding back tears. It’s not fair that my vision is so fucking bad I can’t even see anything in the evening, tripping over shit and stumbling around. It’s not fair I need to wait 3 more fucking months until I can even talk to a surgeon about fixing my strabismus. Sometimes I think all of these burdens are just too heavy for me to handle. Meanwhile other 18 year olds are going off and starting their lives, here I am fucking stuck living the same day over and over and over again, cant drive because I can barely see shit, cant even make any friends because my strabismus and off putting ND demeanor scares the fuck outta everyone, Im a liability to any normie and nothing else, I’m just fucking rotting literally because I was born defective.

And I wish I could tell this all to somebody but I can’t. I just have to watch everyone around me live their lives and reach milestones while I’m waking up in the evening just barely passing my classes and spending the rest of my time jerking off or working out. Some days I feel like I was put on this Earth to suffer a cruel joke and today was one of those days. And the part that stings the most is I’m expected to accept all of this like it doesn’t matter. It does fucking matter, my only life is in shambles. And some people would rather think that this is my own choice rather than the universe. Maybe because the alternative scares them.

 

[Prøphet]

Some days I feel like a professional victim and other days I realize I was victimized by a freak accident in the luck machine. Maybe if I was a warrior I could deal with this clusterfuck properly, but that’s not what I am. I’m an anxious overthinker stuck in a body that didn’t work from day 1. And it’s hell on Earth for me, and I’m tired of this cycle of despair and false hope. I only put in the effort of waking up, eating, sleeping, and shitting, expecting one day things will change, my own personal religion.

 

[hye732]

at least split up your paragraph into two

 

[tf.scythe]

Pussy ass post ik but fuck man. I couldn’t even talk to my family properly today because I was so choked up holding back tears. It’s not fair that my vision is so fucking bad I can’t even see anything in the evening, tripping over shit and stumbling around. It’s not fair I need to wait 3 more fucking months until I can even talk to a surgeon about fixing my strabismus. Sometimes I think all of these burdens are just too heavy for me to handle. Meanwhile other 18 year olds are going off and starting their lives, here I am fucking stuck living the same day over and over and over again, cant drive because I can barely see shit, cant even make any friends because my strabismus and off putting demeanor scares the fuck outta everyone, Im a liability to any normie and nothing else, I’m just fucking rotting literally because I was born defective.

And I wish I could tell this all to somebody but I can’t. I just have to watch everyone around me live their lives and reach milestones while I’m waking up in the evening just barely passing my classes and spending the rest of my time jerking off or working out. Some days I feel like I was put on this Earth to suffer a cruel joke and today was one of those days. And the part that stings the most is I’m expected to accept all of this like it doesn’t matter. It does fucking matter, my only life is in shambles. And some people would rather think that this is my own choice rather than the universe. Maybe because the alternative scares them.

dnr i hope whatever ur going through gets worse

 

[Prøphet]

dnr i hope whatever ur going through gets worse

Level 1 ragebait

 

[tf.scythe]

Level 1 ragebait

no i mean it

 

[zygosmasher]

id be your friend bhai

 

[User28823]

meanwhile chad

 

[Sceptical]

dnr i hope whatever ur going through gets worse

fuck off

 

[160cmcurry]

shit man

im sorry to hear that

 

[160cmcurry]

@TiktokUser
you’re so mean!!!

 

[Outlander]

Brutal. Unfortunately if it hasn't already improved by 18 your odds don't get better over time. I had no social or romantic opportunities at your age and still don't now either

 

[Prøphet]

Brutal. Unfortunately if it hasn't already improved by 18 your odds don't get better over time. I had no social or romantic opportunities at your age and still don't now either

How old are you

 

[Prøphet]

Brutal. Unfortunately if it hasn't already improved by 18 your odds don't get better over time. I had no social or romantic opportunities at your age and still don't now either

I’m so tired of waiting for things to get better but I know they never will. I’m backed into such a corner by my genetics that I can’t even start wageslaving for the rest of my surgeries until I get my first surgery. I can’t bear to live in the state I am, either I fix myself or this is it this is how the rest of my life is going to feel. A stagnant toxic black mess. I feel myself hitting a new low every week getting more bitter and sad about the way things are.

 

[Coping Truecel]

Pussy ass post ik but fuck man. I couldn’t even talk to my family properly today because I was so choked up holding back tears. It’s not fair that my vision is so fucking bad I can’t even see anything in the evening, tripping over shit and stumbling around. It’s not fair I need to wait 3 more fucking months until I can even talk to a surgeon about fixing my strabismus. Sometimes I think all of these burdens are just too heavy for me to handle. Meanwhile other 18 year olds are going off and starting their lives, here I am fucking stuck living the same day over and over and over again, cant drive because I can barely see shit, cant even make any friends because my strabismus and off putting ND demeanor scares the fuck outta everyone, Im a liability to any normie and nothing else, I’m just fucking rotting literally because I was born defective.

And I wish I could tell this all to somebody but I can’t. I just have to watch everyone around me live their lives and reach milestones while I’m waking up in the evening just barely passing my classes and spending the rest of my time jerking off or working out. Some days I feel like I was put on this Earth to suffer a cruel joke and today was one of those days. And the part that stings the most is I’m expected to accept all of this like it doesn’t matter. It does fucking matter, my only life is in shambles. And some people would rather think that this is my own choice rather than the universe. Maybe because the alternative scares them.

I'm sorry brah I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to

 

[Outlander]

How old are you

Early 20s

 

[Outlander]

I’m so tired of waiting for things to get better but I know they never will. I’m backed into such a corner by my genetics that I can’t even start wageslaving for the rest of my surgeries until I get my first surgery. I can’t bear to live in the state I am, either I fix myself or this is it this is how the rest of my life is going to feel. A stagnant toxic black mess. I feel myself hitting a new low every week getting more bitter and sad about the way things are.

Hope things somehow get better for you.

 

[gosbo]

Pussy ass post ik but fuck man. I couldn’t even talk to my family properly today because I was so choked up holding back tears. It’s not fair that my vision is so fucking bad I can’t even see anything in the evening, tripping over shit and stumbling around. It’s not fair I need to wait 3 more fucking months until I can even talk to a surgeon about fixing my strabismus. Sometimes I think all of these burdens are just too heavy for me to handle. Meanwhile other 18 year olds are going off and starting their lives, here I am fucking stuck living the same day over and over and over again, cant drive because I can barely see shit, cant even make any friends because my strabismus and off putting ND demeanor scares the fuck outta everyone, Im a liability to any normie and nothing else, I’m just fucking rotting literally because I was born defective.

And I wish I could tell this all to somebody but I can’t. I just have to watch everyone around me live their lives and reach milestones while I’m waking up in the evening just barely passing my classes and spending the rest of my time jerking off or working out. Some days I feel like I was put on this Earth to suffer a cruel joke and today was one of those days. And the part that stings the most is I’m expected to accept all of this like it doesn’t matter. It does fucking matter, my only life is in shambles. And some people would rather think that this is my own choice rather than the universe. Maybe because the alternative scares them.

I care for you man, if you ever want someone just to talk to you can hmu, add me on discord and we can chat bro, I care for you bro, god bless you man

 

[enriquecuador]

what is wrong with ur eyes?

 

[Prøphet]

what is wrong with ur eyes?

Pathologic myopia, strabismus, monocular vision. Even the most intense annd strongest lenses only get me to 20/60 vision. Every day I ask God why me.

 

[Prøphet]

I care for you man, if you ever want someone just to talk to you can hmu, add me on discord and we can chat bro, I care for you bro, god bless you man

I appreciate it bro, Ty, but if I’m being honest idk if anyone can or should waste their energy trying to fix this. When I write I feel like I’m screaming into a pit hoping to hear an echo. It’s selfish and gratifying for me.

 

[gosbo]

I appreciate it bro, Ty, but if I’m being honest idk if anyone can or should waste their energy trying to fix this. When I write I feel like I’m screaming into a pit hoping to hear an echo. It’s selfish and gratifying for me.

Man I feel for you, I really hope surgery goes well for you man, the offer still stands, you're more than welcome to speak to me, we can play video games and all if you're down

 

[AcromiaI]

dnr i hope whatever ur going through gets worse

Evil person, satan has a special place just for you my friend