I can’t keep doing this

[nobodylovesme]

Over. I just want some kind of connection in my life. It’s so boring, nothing to share, nothing to touch. I’ve amounted to nothing. There’s nothing interesting, nothing that motivates me. It’s insane. I’m in a golden path position toward a good career, but I can’t do anything. I’m just frozen.

It’s so hard. I don’t know, I seriously don’t know if I can do this much longer. At least my family still loves me, but everything else feels unbearable. Isolation has ruined me.

If I could just go back, if I could’ve made even one friend at uni, I think I’d have had the motivation. Something to look forward to. But no. I only went to three lectures this whole year. I don’t even know why. I despise everything I’m studying. It all feels pointless, just a bunch of meaningless cognitive puzzles. Nothing I actually care about.

This whole experience has been disgusting. I’ve done nothing in my life that’s worth sharing. Truly embarrassing.

 

[amin666bidelt]

try making freinds online I just met a dude that I knew online yesterday we talked bcz we both like yeat he's older than me by 4y but he's really cool I knew him a year and half now it was really fun and I really recommend making freinds online if u couldn't do it irl

 

[davidlaidisme67]

At least my family still loves me

Wish I could relate. I’m in the exact same predicament except my family tolerates me they don’t love me