I can't keep lying to myself, i am doomed and nothing will get better

[BlackFag]

WARNING: RETARDED NIGGER BITCHES AND MOANS ABOUT SHIT SOMETHING THAT WAS TO BE EXPECTED DNR IN ADVANCE
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I have no idea on why i was so confident on it working out
i kept lying to myself claiming that the rejection would not hurt, that i would get used to it very quickly
she's a girl who never liked me to begin with

and for a while i believed it, i truly felt free from this women
but i know that she would have never rejected me if i looked good
i know no one would have ever have rejected me

i keep having people call me MTN, Handsome, Cute etc
but none of them truly mean it
they know i'm deformed

they know i am worthless in the biological sense
i don't even know why i have a sex drive at this point
it will and has never been used.

i can't even remember a single good moment in my life
i didn't have a "happy childhood"
my pre teen years were simply the tasted of the hell that i live now
and my teenage years, the year anyone normal would remisice about, be happy about
i had nothing, i just became worse

i don't even have anyone to blame, but myself
and that hurts way more
knowing its all your fault
knowing you could have changed things
but didn't

I don't even have the heart to kill myself
i'm too much of a christcuck coward to do it
but an actual hell seems so much more honest
then this personnal hell
a hell that i can never be honest about
most will never understand or mock my suffering and other will see me as a "spoilt incel kid" complaining
because there is always worse
i live next to luxuries.
other live next to craters filled with the remnants of their families and homes.

in the end
i am cursed with a empty life of luxury
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END OF NIGGER BABBEL...

TLDR; DNR Nigger rope

 

[BlackFag]

 

[Chazza.cl]

when your at the bottom the only way is up

 

[BlackFag]

when your at the bottom the only way is up

i barely scratched the surface of the rabbit hole
i am genuinly alone
not a single person talks to me
unless they need something

 

[HundredManSlayer]

never stress

 

[BlackFag]

never stress

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i wish i was stressed
i've reached such a level of low cortisol
that all i feel is a absolute pit of empty despair

may goatis be proud of me

 

[Chazza.cl]

i barely scratched the surface of the rabbit hole
i am genuinly alone
not a single person talks to me
unless they need something

you'll be all good bro dw

 

[sick kunt31]

I will be the next CLavicular