I cant sleep because i feel ashamed

[Deleted member 178206]

I truly feel ashamed of myself, what kind of a child am i. I wish i was never born my actions are so pathetic and i have achieved nothing in life. My parents probably brought me into this world with lots of expectations probably just for me to be a pathetic worthless human being rotting on these forums and wasting my teenage, they are already as disappointed in me as they are, but if they discover my behavior and the way i exist i would just be frowned upon even more. Why couldnt i live a normal life just like any other people but was doomed to be a 5'8, aspie and ltn. I wish my dad didnt fuck my mother that day and delayed it so other sperm could reach the egg and i wouldnt even have to exist and endure this pathetic cruel unforgiving life. My life is a living hell unfortunately and i hate it. And i hate those people who dont let me live a normal life, i hate those people who excluded me from their surroundings that led me to be like this, if i was accepted into other people in school when i was 12 i wouldnt be on this forum to begin with. I hate it.

 

[Deleted member 178206]

Despite me trying to come to terms with reality i just cant and it saddens me.

 

[tyquese]

u are really going through it tn

 

[Nyrо]

What about Cutting yourself, you forgot about that alr ?

 

[Eskorbutin]

Be good to urself first bro

 

[Leo]

I truly feel ashamed of myself, what kind of a child am i. I wish i was never born my actions are so pathetic and i have achieved nothing in life. My parents probably brought me into this world with lots of expectations probably just for me to be a pathetic worthless human being rotting on these forums and wasting my teenage, they are already as disappointed in me as they are, but if they discover my behavior and the way i exist i would just be frowned upon even more. Why couldnt i live a normal life just like any other people but was doomed to be a 5'8, aspie and ltn. I wish my dad didnt fuck my mother that day and delayed it so other sperm could reach the egg and i wouldnt even have to exist and endure this pathetic cruel unforgiving life. My life is a living hell unfortunately and i hate it. And i hate those people who dont let me live a normal life, i hate those people who excluded me from their surroundings that led me to be like this, if i was accepted into other people in school when i was 12 i wouldnt be on this forum to begin with. I hate it.

Very brutal indeed, i think you speak for alot of people on this forum when you say that.

 

[Deleted member 178206]

What about Cutting yourself, you forgot about that alr ?

No i didnt forget abt it, and i will probably do it tmrw, my dad is w me in room rn i cant do it, this also contributes me to feel ashamed of myself

 

[Deleted member 178206]

Be good to urself first bro

In what way
And how does that even help my situation, every time i feel good about myself its just my inflated ego trying to shelter my pathetic true self from people. Yet i will keep on hating all of them, rightfully so, since they are the reason i am this way right now

 

[Sacrimoon]

What about Cutting yourself, you forgot about that alr ?

Great advice nigger

 

[perculezz]

damn bro
i hate this world we live in if we were born 100 in the past none of this would've happend
hope u get better

 

[Sacrimoon]

your parents seem like fucking idiots if they genuinely feel ashamed of you and don’t give the fact that you’re struggling a single thought.

Also wierd of them to shame you for self harming, any loving parent would get concerned at the sight of that, and not mad.

Sorry you had to be born into such a brutal world bro

 

[tomacōck]

No i didnt forget abt it, and i will probably do it tmrw, my dad is w me in room rn i cant do it, this also contributes me to feel ashamed of myself

Don't cut
It won't fix anything

 

[banku don]

take
melatonin to sleep within 5-10 mins
or
L-Theanine to reduce the anxiety

 

[Deleted member 104089]

Its not your fault its the world this world is unfair. Inherited bad traits that led to bad experiences to mental problems

 

[Deleted member 178206]

Its not your fault its the world this world is unfair. Inherited bad traits that led to bad experiences to mental problems

unfortunately

 

[mustfye]

take
melatonin to sleep within 5-10 mins
or
L-Theanine to reduce the anxiety

yeah great advice bro this nga hates himself and u tell him to take l-theanine

 

[Sichi The FreakShow]

im so sorry for u man, really sorry. sending my best <3