i cant take it anymore....

[Deleted member 43067]

all you guys say is that "its over"
But i really wish that its over, my life that is... this psychological horror im going through ...

its ok to make mistakes.. but to make them over and over again until they consume your own soul, to look at yourself in the mirror and see the light fading away...

i was meant to be great...
look at me now.. i dont want to wake up anymore, the only hopes or aspirations that i have is that one day I'll go to sleep to never open eyes again.

and you know whats the saddest part..
is that if all this build up of self hatred explodes i will hurt many people before i off myself, and after im lifeless they will call me mentally ill and crazy, and maybe they will be right, but i know that i was once sane and i was once happy and excited about the next day...

ive given up on myself and my life.
i wish i never even existed in the first place.

 

[Kroker]

Dude isn’t pfp you? I don’t see you have problems with foids if any idk

 

[Deleted member 43067]

Dude isn’t pfp you? I don’t see you have problems with foids if any idk

its not about foids... i never had problems with them.
its about me, losing myself to addictions and vices...
its all. my fault

 

[Deleted member 43067]

brutal that this thread gets not many replies.

perhaps if i post a video of me going ER you guys will like it

 

[lexo]

Can you tell more about what the problem is that youre facing?

 

[Deleted member 43067]

Can you tell more about what the problem is?

endless struggle that go on repeat.

perhaps its all the tiring wage slaving ive been doing for two years.

or that the porn addition that i just cant beat.

i just keep letting myself down.
and honestly if anyone i knew let me down i would never give them another chance.
i cant trust myself anymore but im stuck with it, im stuck with myself and i want it to die.

 

[WhyNotMe??]

Easy on yourself my guy, your beautiful self does not deserve all this hate to itself, its all just time and it will pass, it will make you stronger and handle the pain that may come in the future, dont kill yourself its not worth it, give your life a little time and it will be the same and better

 

[daunas]

you don't want to experience that nothingness after death, heaven or hell isn't a real thing, might aswell keep it pushing

 

[Zeuxx]

Accept Hitler into you heart and you will feel happy again.

 

[Deleted member 43067]

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Accept Hitler into you heart and you will feel happy again.

i might be depressed but ive always been based.
hitler has always been a hero to me...

 

[lexo]

endless struggle that go on repeat.

perhaps its all the tiring wage slaving ive been doing for two years.

or that the porn addition that i just cant beat.

i just keep letting myself down.
and honestly if anyone i knew let me down i would never give them another chance.
i cant trust myself anymore but im stuck with it, im stuck with myself and i want it to die.

I know that its hard to quit bad habits but if you really want it to stop you have to do less and less and after a period of time the habit will stop. In this case if you watch it everyday, watch it once in 2 days and after a a few weeks once 1 3 days and so on. Also you have to do something else that you like when you get the urge to watch it so your mind doesnt get stuck with it for example listening to music. This works for every bad habit btw it just takes time. I really hope the best for you.