I can’t take it anymore

[Deleted member 30411]

I’m so tired of my life that I don’t have the energy to write a book of my miserable hell of a life

1. My life is pain, I’m not where i need to be come take what u need from me pls someone me free my life is hell been abused my narcissistic psychopath of a “father” for 18 years wasn’t enough God hates the living crap out of my life so much he nerfed everything
2. 
   at this point I don’t see point not worshiping Satan ik im gonna go to hell anyways everyday it the same Shit nothing new I’m hooked on perc 30s it’s the only thing stoping me from roping hopefully I’ll oD soon I don’t want no sympathy or pity party I could care less nobody knows the sufferings I go through every second of my life it is wat it is

Everyday I’m losing more control everything I loved is gone, im lying to myself and others about how I feel I just wana take 20 percs and never wake up living in uk wasn’t enough being a recessed black manlet wasn’t enough, being abused by ur moms psycho narc husband for 18 years in every possible way and being humiliated by him wasn’t enough, being bullied at school wasn’t enough im done my life hasn’t got better for 10 years it’s only getting worse i wish everyone the best but I’m ending my life tonight and I won’t be back because my pain it’s eating me as I type this everyone has better life opportunities that I never grapsed

I never knew I would say this but this is where it ends side God hates me so much if HELL is where I’m destined so be it I give up i don’t care what happens anymore nobody cars everyone is fake

 

[Deleted member 30411]

@thereallegend @5.5psl @flippasav @Chadelite @Staceymaxxing @Abhorrence
@TRUE_CEL
@sp3ll
@HimmyButler

 

[Vermilioncore]

Another one bites the dust. @Makhachev you think this will be a strong pack to smoke or weak af

 

[Deleted member 30411]

Another one bites the dust. @Makhachev you think this will be a strong pack to smoke or weak af

I don’t care anymore just kill me already my so called narc psycho abuser “dad” kicked me out of the house since I turned 18 I have no where to go in uk im currently in a internet cafe pls don’t be sad for pity me I’m just better of Dead…

 

[Splinter901]

didn't read

 

[Abhorrence]

im fucked up bad rn as well

 

[Deleted member 30411]

didn't read

Don’t need to I got 10 min of internet left in the cafe before it closes and I have no where to get but the river imagine being born to worst parent abusing and humiliating ur whole life just to turn 18 and getting kicked with nothing ye this is my demise

 

[Abhorrence]

real recognize real

 

[Abhorrence]

Don’t need to I got 10 min of internet left in the cafe before it closes and I have no where to get but the river imagine being born to worst parent abusing and humiliating ur whole life just to turn 18 and getting kicked with nothing ye this is my demise

stay strong broski

 

[Deleted member 30411]

If anyone has better opportunities than I did I advise u to take care of it and not waste all opportunity like me and i deserve every bad shit coming to me as for y’all I wish y’all nothing but the best make ur dreams are reality as for me this is where it ends I love y’all

999

 

[Splinter901]

U were born in the uk not in a slum in niggeria, get a job asap and rent whatever you can find, learn on the side something that will pay better.

 

[Deleted member 30411]

im fucked up bad rn as well

I wish u nothing but the best bro 999

 

[Deleted member 30411]

U were born in the uk not in a slum in niggeria, get a job asap and rent whatever you can find, learn on the side something that will pay better.

lol like u think haven’t done all of that I’m a drop out no job is hiring me + got into gang solds drugs now I have debts to pay and I have no Ps either I’m done so I’m going out my terms

 

[Deleted member 30411]

I get bullied and abused everywhere which doesn’t affect me but being broke and can’t have a living effects me in every way I can’t have surgeries for looksmaxxing Allah hates me so much I’m jealous of those whose life isn’t trash like mine, my siblings of 5 don’t care about me never help me out disowned me even tho they are rich and have money they are self entitled narcs only come when they needs something meanwhile my brother who I loved and cared for me is arrested and convicted of false accusation of robbery since 2015 he still in the pent and my best friend who u lived and cared for me died 19 march 2022 everyone I love and care for me is either in dead or in jail

 

[Deleted member 30411]

Just wana say my glad tiding I’m going to better place I wish everyone in this forum even though they may not like me a positive and happy successful life

999

 

[The Grinch]

Didn’t read

 

[Deleted member 30411]

And for everyone who have loving healthy normal non narcissistic psychopath cherish them it everything is a privilege not everyone has good loving parents

 

[Deleted member 30411]

Peace positivity and prosperity to all serious in achieving ur dreams u can do whatever tf u put ur mind to never give up I never had this opportunity yall have bless up 999

 

[Deleted member 28904]

I’m so tired of my life that I don’t have the energy to write a book of my miserable hell of a life

1. My life is pain, I’m not where i need to be come take what u need from me pls someone me free my life is hell been abused my narcissistic psychopath of a “father” for 18 years wasn’t enough God hates the living crap out of my life so much he nerfed everything
2. 
   at this point I don’t see point not worshiping Satan ik im gonna go to hell anyways everyday it the same Shit nothing new I’m hooked on perc 30s it’s the only thing stoping me from roping hopefully I’ll oD soon I don’t want no sympathy or pity party I could care less nobody knows the sufferings I go through every second of my life it is wat it is

Everyday I’m losing more control everything I loved is gone, im lying to myself and others about how I feel I just wana take 20 percs and never wake up living in uk wasn’t enough being a recessed black manlet wasn’t enough, being abused by ur moms psycho narc husband for 18 years in every possible way and being humiliated by him wasn’t enough, being bullied at school wasn’t enough im done my life hasn’t got better for 10 years it’s only getting worse i wish everyone the best but I’m ending my life tonight and I won’t be back because my pain it’s eating me as I type this everyone has better life opportunities that I never grapsed

I never knew I would say this but this is where it ends side God hates me so much if HELL is where I’m destined so be it I give up i don’t care what happens anymore nobody cars everyone is fake

Ctrl c + Ctrl v

 

[Deleted member 28904]

I will read in a bit

 

[Deleted member 19174]

No tag no care pussy

 

[Deleted member 30411]

No tag no care pussy

I have extreme depression which means I can’t remember shit i was tagging people from my message

 

[ascension]

I know what it feels like to get abused at home and then have a tough time at school too. It totally fucked my mind up

 

[Deleted member 30411]

I know what it feels like to get abused at home and then have a tough time at school too. It totally fucked my mind up

Bro I would give u a hug if I could no human should suffer such thing like us

 

[ascension]

Bro I would give u a hug if I could no human should suffer such thing like us

Take care of yourself man. You seem to be in a bad place rn. Just know that with time you will start to feel better, thats what happened to me.

 

[Deleted member 30411]

Take care of yourself man. You seem to be in a bad place rn. Just know that with time you will start to feel better, thats what happened to me.

Ye man I’m chilling in the bench it’s 2:48am rn

 

[emeraldglass]

Bro, life is an struggle but you determine if you persevere or not. Allah tests you and you need to be patient. Even if the test takes 20 years and even if it looks like others are blessed more believe me they don’t. It always seems like others live better than we do but it is merely an illusion.

 

[flippasav]

It’s only the start your new here

 

[Chadelite]

I’m so tired of my life that I don’t have the energy to write a book of my miserable hell of a life

1. My life is pain, I’m not where i need to be come take what u need from me pls someone me free my life is hell been abused my narcissistic psychopath of a “father” for 18 years wasn’t enough God hates the living crap out of my life so much he nerfed everything
2. 
   at this point I don’t see point not worshiping Satan ik im gonna go to hell anyways everyday it the same Shit nothing new I’m hooked on perc 30s it’s the only thing stoping me from roping hopefully I’ll oD soon I don’t want no sympathy or pity party I could care less nobody knows the sufferings I go through every second of my life it is wat it is

Everyday I’m losing more control everything I loved is gone, im lying to myself and others about how I feel I just wana take 20 percs and never wake up living in uk wasn’t enough being a recessed black manlet wasn’t enough, being abused by ur moms psycho narc husband for 18 years in every possible way and being humiliated by him wasn’t enough, being bullied at school wasn’t enough im done my life hasn’t got better for 10 years it’s only getting worse i wish everyone the best but I’m ending my life tonight and I won’t be back because my pain it’s eating me as I type this everyone has better life opportunities that I never grapsed

I never knew I would say this but this is where it ends side God hates me so much if HELL is where I’m destined so be it I give up i don’t care what happens anymore nobody cars everyone is fake

Tbh id stop the drugs if i was you

 

[Staceymaxxing]

I’m so tired of my life that I don’t have the energy to write a book of my miserable hell of a life

1. My life is pain, I’m not where i need to be come take what u need from me pls someone me free my life is hell been abused my narcissistic psychopath of a “father” for 18 years wasn’t enough God hates the living crap out of my life so much he nerfed everything
2. 
   at this point I don’t see point not worshiping Satan ik im gonna go to hell anyways everyday it the same Shit nothing new I’m hooked on perc 30s it’s the only thing stoping me from roping hopefully I’ll oD soon I don’t want no sympathy or pity party I could care less nobody knows the sufferings I go through every second of my life it is wat it is

Everyday I’m losing more control everything I loved is gone, im lying to myself and others about how I feel I just wana take 20 percs and never wake up living in uk wasn’t enough being a recessed black manlet wasn’t enough, being abused by ur moms psycho narc husband for 18 years in every possible way and being humiliated by him wasn’t enough, being bullied at school wasn’t enough im done my life hasn’t got better for 10 years it’s only getting worse i wish everyone the best but I’m ending my life tonight and I won’t be back because my pain it’s eating me as I type this everyone has better life opportunities that I never grapsed

I never knew I would say this but this is where it ends side God hates me so much if HELL is where I’m destined so be it I give up i don’t care what happens anymore nobody cars everyone is fake

I don’t care anymore just kill me already my so called narc psycho abuser “dad” kicked me out of the house since I turned 18 I have no where to go in uk im currently in a internet cafe pls don’t be sad for pity me I’m just

If it helps, this was me exactly in 2018

I know the exact feeling

Googling how to rope and all,

It gets better, if you hold on and don't rope

Just makes you stronger, you're still very young

 

[Staceymaxxing]

Damn the fact that this brought me nostalgia

Such a dark dark time in my life
You'll laugh back at this when it gets better

 

[Deleted member 30411]

Tbh id stop the drugs if i was you

I have 3 years addiction and my tolerance only rises

 

[Chadelite]

I have 3 years addiction and my tolerance only rises

The sooner you stop the better, btw what was it you wanted to dm me about?

 

[Deleted member 30411]

If it helps, this was me exactly in 2018

I know the exact feeling

Googling how to rope and all,

It gets better, if you hold on and don't rope

Just makes you stronger, you're still very young

Hope it all works out

 

[Myth]

Apply for anything at uni during clearing, this will give you a ‘degree’ and a student loan, so guaranteed housing for 3 years pretty much, enough time to get you in your feet.

 

[Deleted member 30411]

Apply for anything at uni during clearing, this will give you a ‘degree’ and a student loan, so guaranteed housing for 3 years pretty much, enough time to get you in your feet.

I don’t have gcse I’m doing btac to go uni at 18

 

[Myth]

I don’t have gcse I’m doing btac to go uni at 18

Get to uni man, it will give you the time you need to sort shit out. Also college should off you housing if your kicked out look into it.

 

[Deleted member 30411]

Get to uni man, it will give you the time you need to sort shit out. Also college should off you housing if your kicked out look into it.

Ye bro deffo it’s my plan thx for bringing it up are u in university I wanna transfer to America for uni instead of uk

 

[Myth]

Ye bro deffo it’s my plan thx for bringing it up are u in university I wanna transfer to America for uni instead of uk

Nah man I’m not at uni, but if I was in your situation that is what I would do, I know people in similar situations to yours.

 

[Deleted member 30411]

Nah man I’m not at uni, but if I was in your situation that is what I would do, I know people in similar situations to yours.

Damn bro how they life going they at uni? Wish em the best this life ain’t ez

 

[Myth]

Damn bro how they life going they at uni? Wish em the best this life ain’t ez

The more outgoing NT ones enjoy uni, the less social seem to rott and get depressed.

 

[Deleted member 30411]

The more outgoing NT ones enjoy uni, the less social seem to rott and get depressed.

Legit

 

[Deleted member 29690]

honestly sorry youre fealing like that bro, praying that shit looks up for you my nigga