I can't talk to women since I got blackpiller, it's getting serious at this point

[bukowski]

A girl asked me to hang out with her and some old friends. I have not seen her since long time ago and I really want to see her, despite she's a bit of a whore based on some rumors that have reached me.
The problem? I avoid all kinds of contact with girls, especially girls of my age, since I got blackpiller a few months ago. The only women I feel comfortable talking to are my sister and my mother. I'm going insane I think. JFL at me.
The few times I talked to girls these last months I always imagined them and their thoughts inside their minds, seeing my flaws and how ugly I am, my acne...etc I hope I am not the only one who feels like this.
I don't know if one day I will be able to forget all this and move on. I don't want to be 40 and still care for these things. The only solution for me is ascension or rope I think.
nobody gives a fuck I just wanted to vent.

 

[Limbo]

The knowledge will not go away I've held the same belief since I was a kid, nothings been able to shake it. The times I tried to get out of the "negative" blackpill mindset it only served to reinforce my gripes with social dynamics.

That's my truth, may or may not be useful for you.

 

[Deleted member 19174]

I think you're just autistic.

 

[bukowski]

I think you're just autistic.

well i was never a normal child. I remember when I was 8 I was reading books about second world war and watching documentaries while my classmates were playing together at the park. It also could be because I was an early bloomer. However I have similar hobbies to the rest of people, I like football, I have a small social circle...but yeah definitely autism is an option