
iblamemyself!
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ik this is cringe but idc anymore
i don’t have anyone to tell this to, no friends, family or anyone who cares about me so i’ll just rot it out here
i cried tonight. first time in years. it just hit me all at once.
the girl i liked for a year basically replaced me overnight.
she used to talk to me all the time, tell me everything, act like i mattered.
then some high status dude came in and suddenly i’m invisible.
and it hurts way more than i thought it would.
bc i was there when she hated herself, when no one else cared.
and i actually thought maybe she saw me. maybe i wasn’t just a filler.
guess i was wrong again.
i’ve been tracking everything for months.
every calorie, every workout, my sleep, my skin, my jaw, my posture.
doing everything right.
and still it’s never enough.
meanwhile people born with perfect faces just exist and get everything handed to them.
sometimes i think i’m not even doing this for attraction anymore.
looksmaxing just feels like survival.
like if i stop improving i’ll collapse completely.
and i’m tired man.
i just wanted someone to care, that’s all.
ik this post is useless.
nobody cares.
i’ll wake up tomorrow, fix my face, train, eat clean, and keep pretending i’m fine.
same routine.
nothing changes.
I just wanted to let this out because I'm tired to talk with myself and chatgpt. No real people ever cared for me as much as I did for them
i don’t have anyone to tell this to, no friends, family or anyone who cares about me so i’ll just rot it out here
i cried tonight. first time in years. it just hit me all at once.
the girl i liked for a year basically replaced me overnight.
she used to talk to me all the time, tell me everything, act like i mattered.
then some high status dude came in and suddenly i’m invisible.
and it hurts way more than i thought it would.
bc i was there when she hated herself, when no one else cared.
and i actually thought maybe she saw me. maybe i wasn’t just a filler.
guess i was wrong again.
i’ve been tracking everything for months.
every calorie, every workout, my sleep, my skin, my jaw, my posture.
doing everything right.
and still it’s never enough.
meanwhile people born with perfect faces just exist and get everything handed to them.
sometimes i think i’m not even doing this for attraction anymore.
looksmaxing just feels like survival.
like if i stop improving i’ll collapse completely.
and i’m tired man.
i just wanted someone to care, that’s all.
ik this post is useless.
nobody cares.
i’ll wake up tomorrow, fix my face, train, eat clean, and keep pretending i’m fine.
same routine.
nothing changes.
I just wanted to let this out because I'm tired to talk with myself and chatgpt. No real people ever cared for me as much as I did for them