i didn’t get any of the “firsts” and now everything else feels fake

[got.daim]

never had a first kiss when it actually mattered, never got nervous before seeing a girl, never had butterflies or any of that cringe teen stuff people pretend to hate but secretly loved, never got to sit next to a girl in class and feel that tension, never had anyone draw hearts on my notebook or wear my hoodie or cry when i didn’t text back, i missed all of that, the whole experience, and now i’m 28 and nothing feels real, everything now is just dates from apps, fake convos, people trauma-dumping on you by day 2, you hook up and never talk again or you date someone who’s still not over their ex, like where’s the soul in that, where’s the innocence, i didn’t want to start dating after everyone’s already jaded and halfway dead inside, i didn’t want to be someone’s “safe option” after they’ve been through all their chaos phase, i wanted to be someone’s first love, not their backup plan, not the guy who’s good on paper, not the one they settle for, and the worst part is i didn’t even do anything wrong, i just wasn’t good looking enough when it actually mattered, that’s it, no deep reason, just not tall enough or confident enough or whatever, and now i have to carry this dead space inside me like i skipped a whole chapter of life and no one even notices, it’s not something you can get back either, it’s not like missing a movie or a vacation, you can’t recreate teenage love at 28, it’s done, gone, and i hate when people say “it’s never too late” like bro it is, it literally is, you can’t relive being 16 with someone who’s already been through 8 relationships and a divorce, stop coping, it’s over, just let me vent without trying to fix it, this is just how it is for some of us

 

[Whiteboard7]

never had a first kiss when it actually mattered, never got nervous before seeing a girl, never had butterflies or any of that cringe teen stuff people pretend to hate but secretly loved, never got to sit next to a girl in class and feel that tension, never had anyone draw hearts on my notebook or wear my hoodie or cry when i didn’t text back, i missed all of that, the whole experience, and now i’m 28 and nothing feels real, everything now is just dates from apps, fake convos, people trauma-dumping on you by day 2, you hook up and never talk again or you date someone who’s still not over their ex, like where’s the soul in that, where’s the innocence, i didn’t want to start dating after everyone’s already jaded and halfway dead inside, i didn’t want to be someone’s “safe option” after they’ve been through all their chaos phase, i wanted to be someone’s first love, not their backup plan, not the guy who’s good on paper, not the one they settle for, and the worst part is i didn’t even do anything wrong, i just wasn’t good looking enough when it actually mattered, that’s it, no deep reason, just not tall enough or confident enough or whatever, and now i have to carry this dead space inside me like i skipped a whole chapter of life and no one even notices, it’s not something you can get back either, it’s not like missing a movie or a vacation, you can’t recreate teenage love at 28, it’s done, gone, and i hate when people say “it’s never too late” like bro it is, it literally is, you can’t relive being 16 with someone who’s already been through 8 relationships and a divorce, stop coping, it’s over, just let me vent without trying to fix it, this is just how it is for some of us

I understand when your saying it can never be fixed but can you salvage something at least for the future

 

[got.daim]

I understand when your saying it can never be fixed but can you salvage something at least for the future

it cant.

i was always the guy they trauma dumped on, never the one they liked

i was always the one girls talked to about their problems, about the guys they actually liked, about how they keep getting hurt and don’t know why, i’d sit there listening for hours thinking maybe one day they’ll see me differently but they never did, they’d cry to me over some dude who ghosted...

looksmax.org

 

[Chadeep]

Bro you sent 100k to an ewhore

 

[got.daim]

Bro you sent 100k to an ewhore

she was a virgin tho
worth it