I do not like homosexuals, BUT sometimes I feel like a feminine cat when I get comfortable, is this normal?

[Ronnie the Rotter]

Sometimes when I get comfortable I arch my back and shit, and do these weird ass poses, then I lowk snap back to reality and realise that the poses I'm doing are lowk gay, the same thing happens to me when I'm eating icecream popsicles or bananas (basically anything shaped like a cock), same for my posture

How do I fix this, do I embrace this 'homosexual' way of living or do I goto therapy