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I'm deleting my account after this thread, since I've realised that I don't need to looksmaxx, but to get mental help. I want people to approach me as friends, since I have issues with holding conversations, with starting conversations and with understanding social norms.
Looksmaxxing won't give me that, but a lot of people give me negative feedback (girls calling me ugly behind my back, people laughing at me, complaining about my "shit personality"—even though the people who do that don't talk to me. They just see me having troubles with socialising and not being interested in talking to me).
I try to not be obsessed over this, but my interactions with these kind of people just make me anxious and I can't get them out of my mind. I want people to respect me with my autism because I respect them. I only want to be happy.
Now, I'm kind of developing body dysphoria (becoming genderfluid) in an environment filled with homophobia. I'm leaving the forums because this place just make me obsess over the negative interactions, and I will never improve. I want to end it all before I begin to hurt the ones who surround me.
I need to learn about holding conversations, about stop obsessing over the negative feedback I receive from girls, about developing a confidence, etc. My goal is to live a normal life.
Looksmaxxing won't give me that, but a lot of people give me negative feedback (girls calling me ugly behind my back, people laughing at me, complaining about my "shit personality"—even though the people who do that don't talk to me. They just see me having troubles with socialising and not being interested in talking to me).
I try to not be obsessed over this, but my interactions with these kind of people just make me anxious and I can't get them out of my mind. I want people to respect me with my autism because I respect them. I only want to be happy.
Now, I'm kind of developing body dysphoria (becoming genderfluid) in an environment filled with homophobia. I'm leaving the forums because this place just make me obsess over the negative interactions, and I will never improve. I want to end it all before I begin to hurt the ones who surround me.
I need to learn about holding conversations, about stop obsessing over the negative feedback I receive from girls, about developing a confidence, etc. My goal is to live a normal life.
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