luuk
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I’m attractive enough to get laid and get female attention now, I had a good set of genetics that I just didn’t take advantage of for too long
Now I don’t delude myself that I’m ever going to be a chad but it wouldn’t make that much of a difference anyways, I’ve lost all interest in looksmaxxing
My issues have always been mental, the more I ponder it the more I realise that I am, and have always been, profoundly ill, and I was destined to never be happy in this kind of society. Its structural, not just some childhood trauma or something that I could work through, its just how I was born. Older parents, high mutational load, defective wiring
I’m not even sure where I’ll go from here. I’m not suicidal but I don’t really have any hope or burning dreams any more. The things I want to achieve are out of my scope. I’m in the kind of situation where I should want to do crazy and radical things but I have no willpower left, just tiredness
I could just keep busy and then die eventually but I don’t want to die like this
This isn’t the place to find sympathy or actionable advice but its not like I have anywhere else

Now I don’t delude myself that I’m ever going to be a chad but it wouldn’t make that much of a difference anyways, I’ve lost all interest in looksmaxxing
My issues have always been mental, the more I ponder it the more I realise that I am, and have always been, profoundly ill, and I was destined to never be happy in this kind of society. Its structural, not just some childhood trauma or something that I could work through, its just how I was born. Older parents, high mutational load, defective wiring
I’m not even sure where I’ll go from here. I’m not suicidal but I don’t really have any hope or burning dreams any more. The things I want to achieve are out of my scope. I’m in the kind of situation where I should want to do crazy and radical things but I have no willpower left, just tiredness
I could just keep busy and then die eventually but I don’t want to die like this
This isn’t the place to find sympathy or actionable advice but its not like I have anywhere else
