i dont feel worthy of love

[swt]

not because of my looks but because im so cold and distant, i cant be any better because my mind beats me up daily

ive been ignoring her quite constantly for the past 4 months, where i barely respond to her thru the day, i only feel really present when she comes over

ive been distant because although i have love, i dont feel worthy of it. it's not even necessarily romantically either, yesterday on the phone my mom told me she loved me and she was proud of me and i was literally fighting myself not to cry, she said she knows im gonna make her very proud in the future and that i have a good character and man i was almost bawling my eyes, because i realized she doesnt actually know me at all despite being my mother, im terrible, and im aware im terrible, so being so misunderstood is somewhat of a relief, but i feel bad that people are being deceived by me like this

 

[swt]

sry

 

[SensitiveYoungMan]

 

[luca_.]

Nigga is complaining that he’s loved. On a serious note I get what you mean, you shouldn’t force yourself to love anyone tho