I dont know anymore

[ihateevb]

I cant do all this shit anymore i bump between being aware of myself and loosing myself. I think so much it sometimes is too much to realy seap into my brain. Othertimes i am so umaware of my actions and how the world sees me that i jester around infront of people to get just a slight drop of dopamine so i can turn off my brain and giggle around and push the thought of how sad this world is to the side of dating.

Sometimes i have periods that cause me to think like a nihilist and i just want to hurt people.I am a danger to myself and people that live me thats why i never truly will be happy.

I cant talk to people because i see how unaware they are, almost like babies who are not concious.

Its truly over. It never started, not for me.

 

[Anthony111554]

I've given up honestly. I'm 5'5 and autistic so it obviously never began, I was a huge retard to think I'd ascend last spring

 

[ihateevb]

I've given up honestly. I'm 5'5 and autistic so it obviously never began, I was a huge retard to think I'd ascend last spring

The purpose of ascending is to raise the quality of life but evem that doesent matter because i trap myslef

 

[ihateevb]

I cant do all this shit anymore i bump between being aware of myself and loosing myself. I think so much it sometimes is too much to realy seap into my brain. Othertimes i am so umaware of my actions and how the world sees me that i jester around infront of people to get just a slight drop of dopamine so i can turn off my brain and giggle around and push the thought of how sad this world is to the side of dating.

Sometimes i have periods that cause me to think like a nihilist and i just want to hurt people.I am a danger to myself and people that live me thats why i never truly will be happy.

I cant talk to people because i see how unaware they are, almost like babies who are not concious.

Its truly over. It never started, not for me.

Im bumping this shit

 

[mohito]

Being different can be both a blessing and a curse. It’s important to get used to it and adapt. You can still be yourself while wearing a mask to empathize with others, even if you don’t really get them

 

[ihateevb]

Being different can be both a blessing and a curse. It’s important to get used to it and adapt. You can still be yourself while wearing a mask to empathize with others, even if you don’t really get them

Its not that i not get them, i despise them, i despise society, the governement i despise 99% of people i despise myself and you and him and her

 

[mohito]

Its not that i not get them, i despise them, i despise society, the governement i despise 99% of people i despise myself and you and him and her

Sometimes not understanding others can be translated into hate. It’s okay to have the fire in you (it’s even necessary) but you should be able to master it, my bro

 

[ihateevb]

Sometimes not understanding others can be translated into hate. It’s okay to have the fire in you (it’s even necessary) but you should be able to master it, my bro

I dont think there is anything to master anymore, nothing to achieve, life is just a painfull process that is rewarding low iq low inhib people

 

[ihateevb]

I've given up honestly. I'm 5'5 and autistic so it obviously never began, I was a huge retard to think I'd ascend last spring

Hey but you were happy right, to try to ascend, you had your sanity and a plan

 

[mohito]

I dont think there is anything to master anymore, nothing to achieve, life is just a painfull process that is rewarding low iq low inhib people

Inhibition is a chemical state that can be fixed with correct routines and medications. Don't let this shit define you, my man. Life is painful correct but it rewards strength and vigor, not low level bug people