I don’t know how to take the pain anymore

Prøphet

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I’m really serious I think Ive run out of ways to cope with how horrible my life is

Now I just see things how they really are and it burns and it never stops burning every realization of how over it is hits me like a fresh hot iron sizzling against my skin

My retinas are a total loss, cant see shit unless it’s up close, strabismus worse than ever, more ND than ever, hairlines still going, I’m still subhuman, my family is torn apart, Im in hell literally I don’t know how my life could get any worse than this torture
 
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i get those goosebumps everytime i need the heimlich
 
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you need to delude yourself you are a NT HTN and start acting like one

why live this life of misery when you can become a care-free retard
 
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you need to delude yourself you are a NT HTN and start acting like one

why live this life of misery when you can become a care-free retard
It’s not even the looks that kills me

I was just coping on this site for so long that it’s only my looks or even only my mental health, but the truth is those aren’t the things that crush me because those things can be fixed

I can easily get a bimax or take pharmacology or whatever, easy as shit

No, the truth is I can’t take the pain that I’m going blind over the years just because I was born with defective retinas, I can’t take the fact that the world I can see gets a little smaller and smaller every single year, that I can’t drive, that I’m already facing my mortality at 18, I can’t take that I’m a liability who will always trip or run into some shit, I can’t take that I’m suffering so badly just because of something determined instantly at my conception, I don’t think there’s any help possible for some miserable piece of shit like me who managed to roll the wrong dice 100 times in a row when it comes to my DNA, all I can wonder is why
 
I’m really serious I think Ive run out of ways to cope with how horrible my life is

Now I just see things how they really are and it burns and it never stops burning every realization of how over it is hits me like a fresh hot iron sizzling against my skin

My retinas are a total loss, cant see shit unless it’s up close, strabismus worse than ever, more ND than ever, hairlines still going, I’m still subhuman, my family is torn apart, Im in hell literally I don’t know how my life could get any worse than this torture
Stop writing these poems on .org and get a job 😂
 
I’m really serious I think Ive run out of ways to cope with how horrible my life is

Now I just see things how they really are and it burns and it never stops burning every realization of how over it is hits me like a fresh hot iron sizzling against my skin

My retinas are a total loss, cant see shit unless it’s up close, strabismus worse than ever, more ND than ever, hairlines still going, I’m still subhuman, my family is torn apart, Im in hell literally I don’t know how my life could get any worse than this torture
rope or pain bro choose it
 
Your reitnas? At 18? Tf are you doin to your eyes?
 

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