I dont know if its autism or BBD/OCD

[Nation]

Of course Im just ugly and it wouldnt happen if I was Chad.

But...
In all these years I always spent hours looking at me in the bathroom.

- I have problems with hair and I used to get my eyebrows done to look more low trust and end with ultra tiny eyebrows that looked comical
- i had problems with my hair in order to look better, I tried everything but my hair are nappy and it always looked weird at best.
- I have an OCD about the need of cutting my hair everyday to feel better with myself with grade 2.
I thought cutting my hair to 0 made me look more masculine but I just looked like a cancer patient.
- I used dermaroller after tanning beds and I end like I burned my face
- i used to go to work with the hair I cutted on my forehead and people asked me question
- I cut some lenght out my eyelashes because they were too long
- when I was in high school I cut a bald hotel in my head because I fucked up with my electric razor, it happened recently thanks to my adhd
-i used to get a line up of my hairline but it looked totally unnatural and people thought I had a wig
- i used to wear baggy clothes to look bigger
- I used to wear shoe lifts so high that my foot was out of the shoe ( like 4 layers + high top shoe )
- I edited some pics on photoshop where my jaw,chin and eye area looked totally different and uncanny and I posted many times on Instagram, I removed that pic and posted another time with different morphs.
- I used to walk with my arms pressed on my lat to make it bigger
- I put some instagram pics to fraud eyes and it was too obvious I was squinting...it looked weird at best
- I went to.work with almond oil on my face to make my face more hydrated
- I had gel on my hair and they looked weird because my hair quality + too much gel
- I used to bonesmash and people asked me why I had these brush on my face, same happened with dermaroller and retin A
- I had a tattoo on my forearms that im actually removing to make me look more low inhibition

 

[St.TikTokcel]

Of course Im just ugly and it wouldnt happen if I was Chad.

But...
In all these years I always spent hours looking at me in the bathroom.

- I have problems with hair and I used to get my eyebrows done to look more low trust and end with ultra tiny eyebrows that looked comical
- i had problems with my hair in order to look better, I tried everything but my hair are nappy and it always looked weird at best.
- I have an OCD about the need of cutting my hair everyday to feel better with myself with grade 2.
I thought cutting my hair to 0 made me look more masculine but I just looked like a cancer patient.
- I used dermaroller after tanning beds and I end like I burned my face
- i used to go to work with the hair I cutted on my forehead and people asked me question
- I cut some lenght out my eyelashes because they were too long
- when I was in high school I cut a bald hotel in my head because I fucked up with my electric razor, it happened recently thanks to my adhd
-i used to get a line up of my hairline but it looked totally unnatural and people thought I had a wig
- i used to wear baggy clothes to look bigger
- I used to wear shoe lifts so high that my foot was out of the shoe ( like 4 layers + high top shoe )
- I edited some pics on photoshop where my jaw,chin and eye area looked totally different and uncanny and I posted many times on Instagram, I removed that pic and posted another time with different morphs.
- I used to walk with my arms pressed on my lat to make it bigger
- I put some instagram pics to fraud eyes and it was too obvious I was squinting...it looked weird at best
- I went to.work with almond oil on my face to make my face more hydrated
- I had gel on my hair and they looked weird because my hair quality + too much gel
- I used to bonesmash and people asked me why I had these brush on my face, same happened with dermaroller and retin A
- I had a tattoo on my forearms that im actually removing to make me look more low inhibition

You know how they saying goes: no pics, no care