I don’t know what to say anymore

[Deleted member 30411]

Third week and life is still painful ain’t shit changed I have no words to describe or emphasis how much misery

I feel I’m now taking care of my grandma she’s in bad condition she’s kindest soul u will ever meet

but now she has Extreme dementia alongside her previous asthma so I’m fearful and in panick attack 24/7 what if something might happened to her if anything happens to her I’m fucked since everyone is trusting me to take care of her

I wish nothing but the best she barely eats food nor sleep complaining about her headache daily if she dies I have under my care it’s fucking over for my life

my heart is hurting and is on 204bpm i Neely sleep to take care of her bare in mind I love to take care of her it’s just that she doesn’t care about her life as she cares about her others

 

[EnglandBadman]

Third week and life is still painful ain’t shit changed I have no words to describe or emphasis how much misery

I feel I’m now taking care of my grandma she’s in bad condition she’s kindest soul u will ever meet

but now she has Extreme dementia alongside her previous asthma so I’m fearful and in panick attack 24/7 what if something might happened to her if anything happens to her I’m fucked since everyone is trusting me to take care of her

I wish nothing but the best she barely eats food nor sleep complaining about her headache daily if she dies I have under my care it’s fucking over for my life

my heart is hurting and is on 204bpm i Neely sleep to take care of her bare in mind I love to take care of her it’s just that she doesn’t care about her life as she cares about her others

Wish you the best stay strong. After its all done youll be a stronger man. Why is it over if she dies under your care? Death is natural and at least she lived to old age.

 

[robtical]

why you posting this on forum where ppl have no sympathy

 

[BloodClot]

Brutal agepill, dementia sucks. Hope everything goes well man.

 

[Deleted member 30461]

why you posting this on forum where ppl have no sympathy

True should've gone to Tiktok PSL community
They would have told his grandma to "ropemaxx"

 

[Deleted member 30411]

why you posting this on forum where ppl have no sympathy

Wish you the best stay strong. After its all done youll be a stronger man. Why is it over if she dies under your care? Death is natural and at least she lived to old age.

Brutal agepill, dementia sucks. Hope everything goes well man.

Idk bro feeling suicidal lately this is the only place where I can freely express how I feel to strangers weather u relate or not

cuz I mostly likely will end my life it’s just a matter of when not how not looking for any sympathy just opening up

 

[BloodClot]

this is the only place where I can freely express how I feel to strangers weather u relate or not cuz I mostly likely will end my life it’s just a matter of when not how

Don’t rope, your grandma wouldn’t want that for you

 

[Deleted member 30411]

Don’t rope, your grandma wouldn’t want that for you

Anything bad happens to her i will cant take my love one’s going before me

 

[robtical]

Idk bro feeling suicidal lately this is the only place where I can freely express how I feel to strangers weather u relate or not

cuz I mostly likely will end my life it’s just a matter of when not how not looking for any sympathy just opening up

do it. 72 virgins waiting for you

 

[Deleted member 30411]

do it. 72 virgins waiting for you

I know my life was gonna end at 18 anyways

I’m feeling tempted to do heroine honestly at this point fucking hate my existence nobody know how I have been child abused and now losing only people I love

 

[robtical]

I know my life was gonna end at 18 anyways

I’m feeling tempted to do heroine honestly at this point fucking hate my existence nobody know how I have been child abused and now losing only people I love

Guess what? I dont want to know too.

 

[Deleted member 30411]

I just hope no one goes through what I’m going through cuz I don’t wish that on anyone hope it ends with me tho I know my freedom is when I’m 6ft deep

 

[Deleted member 30411]

Guess what? I dont want to know too.

truth is no one knows what I’m going through as I put on a fake smile but I can freely express here how I feel before I depart my journey

 

[JovenCansao]

Still remember when I was taking care of my grandmother, now shes just a sweet memory.

Parents and grandparents are the only people to really love you, so it's brutal to lose them.

 

[Deleted member 30411]

Still remember when I was taking care of my grandmother, now shes just a sweet memory.

Parents and grandparents are the only people to really love you, so it's brutal to lose them.

Lost my pet who I had my whole life can’t lost my grandma ill OD soon as it’s my destiny

 

[Deleted member 30411]

I’m honestly jealous of those who sucide I wish I had a percentage of their balls to eff my self