I don't know why

[snowman20]

I see myself as a disgusting parasitic worm with so much hatred towards myself

 

[snowman20]

@BigBallsLarry @Sink @Dorogi

 

[snowman20]

I know it's not just body dysmorphia it's something different

I see myself as a disgusting parasitic worm with so much hatred towards myself

 

[Dorogi]

I see myself as a disgusting parasitic worm with so much hatred towards myself

what kind of hate? How you look? Your personality? actions?

 

[snowman20]

what kind of hate? How you look? Your personality? actions?

both looks and personality I hate how I look and I hate my personality and my voice maybe not my personality but I hate how I look

 

[Dorogi]

both looks and personality I hate how I look and I hate my personality and my voice maybe not my personality but I hate how I look

Than its probably body dysmorphia

 

[Dorogi]

Than its probably body dysmorphia

Well doesnt have to be dysmorphia. More like body realism if ur actually sub5

 

[snowman20]

like I look at myself as an inferior being that deserves all the bad things that might happen to me

what kind of hate? How you look? Your personality? actions?

 

[snowman20]

Well doesnt have to be dysmorphia. More like body realism if ur actually sub5

I'm mmtn as rated by org but I feel like a sub 5 sometimes and the other times I feel like a htn it's so confusing

 

[Dorogi]

I'm mmtn as rated by org but I feel like a sub 5 sometimes and the other times I feel like a htn it's so confusing

ussually its the people around you (or not around you) that cause those self image issues.
I had less problems with how i looked even when i was skinny because nobody mentioned it. When i started going to the gym everybody started pointing it out more and even my family did all the time (now i know it was kinda to "humble" me, was humbled enough tbh ig its a weird foid thing since im the only boy in the house) so i ended up feeling worse even though i was gaining muscle.

Personal experience maybe you relate maybe not

 

[BigBallsLarry]

I see myself as a disgusting parasitic worm with so much hatred towards myself

me too, i think I'm worthless, useless, disgusting and have no place in this world.

but then i realise, that nothing even truly matters does it? we're all going to die, some sooner than later, and we can choose when we do.

So untill then, just enjoy life as much as you can, and don't bother caring about stuff like this.

 

[snowman20]

ussually its the people around you (or not around you) that cause those self image issues.
I had less problems with how i looked even when i was skinny because nobody mentioned it. When i started going to the gym everybody started pointing it out more and even my family did all the time (now i know it was kinda to "humble" me, was humbled enough tbh ig its a weird foid thing since im the only boy in the house) so i ended up feeling worse even though i was gaining muscle.

Personal experience maybe you relate maybe not

I think the problem is me not others

 

[snowman20]

me too, i think I'm worthless, useless, disgusting and have no place in this world.

but then i realise, that nothing even truly matters does it? we're all going to die, some sooner than later, and we can choose when we do.

So untill then, just enjoy life as much as you can, and don't bother caring about stuff like this.

it's just so easy to say stop bothering about stuff when all u think about us stuff like this but I don't know I get into these really weird phases every once in a while like once a month or smth like that

 

[Dorogi]

I think the problem is me not others

probably something you will only be figure out through a lot of very lonely self reflection bhai

 

[snowman20]

probably something you will only be figure out through a lot of very lonely self reflection bhai

yeah exactly I should spend more time alone

 

[Sink]

both looks and personality I hate how I look and I hate my personality and my voice maybe not my personality but I hate how I look

I had been in that exact cycle for the longest time, i still get it but it's not as apparent or prominent as before. You can try getting help on it if you feel like, i'm in the process of getting help so i can't give you a complete rundown but try to do something about it since the longer you have it for, the worse it gets.

 

[snowman20]

I had been in that exact cycle for the longest time, i still get it but it's not as apparent or prominent as before. You can try getting help on it if you feel like, i'm in the process of getting help so i can't give you a complete rundown but try to do something about it since the longer you have it for, the worse it gets.

it got better now it's worse again but yeah I'll just try fixing it myself first

 

[Sink]

it got better now it's worse again but yeah I'll just try fixing it myself first

Don't get the wrong understanding, try to understand why it happens and then you can go to a psychiatrist or such, their job is to assist you on bettering yourself, not eliminate the issue themselves.