i don't like going outside

[160cmcurry]

i really don't, i have this idea that i'll maybe get surgeries and maybe 'ascend' (im joking, no ascension with this shit genetic garbage base, just delusional wishful thinking), that i'll maybe start talking to people, like actually socialize and befriend people. but deep down i know it's all fantasy. i tell myself “maybe one day” just to make existing a bit more tolerable. like maybe if i change enough externally people will start treating me like i’m human. i already have my genio and rhino surgeons planned out here in ny even though there isn't really much i can do with my height, yeah i refuse to get limb lengthen, over to over lmao, and full laser face and body hair too. i hate my subhuman side profile, it's genuinely disgusting to look at. every time i catch a glimpse of it, even by accident, i just get disgusted. day ruined the moment i see it or just my subhuman face

 

[160cmcurry]

will probably deactivate my account once i get my surgeries, just want a shot at a normal life maybe. never wanted to look like a model of any sort, just wanna at least fix a few things i hate about myself. my job will probably keep me busy but then again i'll probably find a way to just lurk during work hours like i did in warehouse

 

[kviijjj]

Cause it hurts