mogdog
ginger ale and no cortisol
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i don't really make an effort to go outside or even attempt to maintain contacts with other people, even ones i would consider to be my "friends". somehow now and then i will still get text messages from high school or friends from uni who want to go out and hang out, telling me it's been a minute since i've seen them, wanna catch up, etc. but i haven't even opened the messages because the thought of even going outside fills me with such dread. i've spent all summer chudding out at home, going to the gym, and going to work. that's it nothing more
i go to a local gym in my area, and it's become such a habit for me now to go in the mornings or before noon because at this time the gym is mostly filled with old people and not people who would know me from high school. god forbid someone recognizes me at the gym the idea genuinely makes me wanna puke. i remember one time i saw someone i used to know working at the desk at my gym, and i literally turned around and went home instead of hitting my workout jfl

when i go out on walks i do so only at night, when it's dark out and sticking only to non busy roads, because i don't even want to be seen walking around in my own neighbourhood where someone driving by could judge me. genuinely wtf is wrong w me. thank god i have brothers or my social life would be even more non existent than it already is
i go to a local gym in my area, and it's become such a habit for me now to go in the mornings or before noon because at this time the gym is mostly filled with old people and not people who would know me from high school. god forbid someone recognizes me at the gym the idea genuinely makes me wanna puke. i remember one time i saw someone i used to know working at the desk at my gym, and i literally turned around and went home instead of hitting my workout jfl
when i go out on walks i do so only at night, when it's dark out and sticking only to non busy roads, because i don't even want to be seen walking around in my own neighbourhood where someone driving by could judge me. genuinely wtf is wrong w me. thank god i have brothers or my social life would be even more non existent than it already is