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Sage
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It's like I'm two people in the same body. Sometimes, I feel the same like I did when I was 10, same hobbies like Yugioh, pokemon, Kingom Hearts etc. but every time I see my oneitis all that shit goes away and i realize that im a 24 yo guy.
And this constant struggle has screwed me. I just cant be one person, i always have to shift back and forth between two self destructive behaviors. I cant even fucking describe myself, most of the time im just kept in my shell internally struggling.
I fucking hate this shit, either by a slave to an imaginary girl or a slave to some imaginary cartoons/anime. I forget about oneitis for a few months, go back to anime/vidya, see oneitis pics, and i abolish all that shit and obsess again over her. Im also smarter when I think about girls for some reason.
And this constant struggle has screwed me. I just cant be one person, i always have to shift back and forth between two self destructive behaviors. I cant even fucking describe myself, most of the time im just kept in my shell internally struggling.
I fucking hate this shit, either by a slave to an imaginary girl or a slave to some imaginary cartoons/anime. I forget about oneitis for a few months, go back to anime/vidya, see oneitis pics, and i abolish all that shit and obsess again over her. Im also smarter when I think about girls for some reason.
