I don't remember anything

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Every day after going to bed and waking up I forget everything I did the previous day. I used to have this problem from late August to mid October but then I got sent into a mental hospital then afterwards it stopped happening. The same occurrence has been happening for some time now and it's fucking me up a lot. Today I woke up at 4 pm because my mom started screaming at me for going home early from school for no reason, I don't remember anything that happened earlier on during the day but when I checked my school app on my phone I just have a bunch of absences from every single day because apparently I keep going home from school early without even remembering anything about it.

What the fuck is wrong with me can someone help?

@Dorogi @Dsm @hauntohalic @Luca_. @BigBallsLarry

 

[Luca_.]

damn bhai, I had no clue your life was this bad do you mind me asking how you ended up in the hospital?

 

[Sink]

damn bhai, I had no clue your life was this bad do you mind me asking how you ended up in the hospital?

they sent me into the mental hospital so i wouldn't kill myself during some impulsive episode or smth i actually don't remember anymore

 

[hauntohalic]

Every day after going to bed and waking up I forget everything I did the previous day. I used to have this problem from late August to mid October but then I got sent into a mental hospital then afterwards it stopped happening. The same occurrence has been happening for some time now and it's fucking me up a lot. Today I woke up at 4 pm because my mom started screaming at me for going home early from school for no reason, I don't remember anything that happened earlier on during the day but when I checked my school app on my phone I just have a bunch of absences from every single day because apparently I keep going home from school early without even remembering anything about it.

What the fuck is wrong with me can someone help?

@Dorogi @Dsm @hauntohalic @Luca_. @BigBallsLarry

might be time to go to a doctor incase you have genuine brain damage

 

[Fridx]

You might have alzheimer man i hope you get better

 

[Luca_.]

they sent me into the mental hospital so i wouldn't kill myself during some impulsive episode or smth i actually don't remember anymore

I had no clue you have it this bad man I’m truly sorry. How are you now?

 

[Dorogi]

No idea man. Did you have it before you were started on ssris?

 

[Sink]

I had no clue you have it this bad man I’m truly sorry. How are you now?

i can't decypher my feelings at all anymore, i can't answer this

 

[Sink]

No idea man. Did you have it before you were started on ssris?

it started right before i got on them or so

 

[Luca_.]

i can't decypher my feelings at all anymore, i can't answer this

Let’s say I ask you if you’re happy or sad at this exact moment. Would you answer be ,,I don’t know”?

 

[Sink]

Let’s say I ask you if you’re happy or sad at this exact moment. Would you answer be ,,I don’t know”?

yes because i just can't tell, maybe numb is a good way to word it idk

 

[Luca_.]

yes because i just can't tell, maybe numb is a good way to word it idk

What’s something that you like doing?

 

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What’s something that you like doing?

doing stuff with friends, but i don't have any

 

[Luca_.]

doing stuff with friends, but i don't have any

Other than that? Something like drawing, making music etc

 

[GonorrhoeaGobbler]

 

[Sink]

Other than that? Something like drawing, making music etc

not any i could think of

 

[Luca_.]

not any i could think of

You should try stuff out. Find something that you truly enjoy doing (rotting excluded)

 

[Sink]

You should try stuff out. Find something that you truly enjoy doing (rotting excluded)

but how would that help me in my situation?

 

[Sink]

i was considering just going back to the mental hospital for a few weeks or sum idfk

 

[Dorogi]

it started right before i got on them or so

idk man, did you discuss it with ur doctors?

I dont know much about psychology and stuff and this is just a theory but if you discociate heavily i think you can also start experiencing memory loss since you werent really all "there" in the time of the memory gap. Personally had issues where i didnt remember when exactly something happened and if it was yesterday or weeks ago and i think in extremer cases you can forget completely that anything happened at all

 

[Luca_.]

but how would that help me in my situation?

You will turn your life from something neutral to something positive. Chase your dreams, and if you don’t have any, create them

 

[Sink]

idk man, did you discuss it with ur doctors?

I dont know much about psychology and stuff and this is just a theory but if you discociate heavily i think you can also start experiencing memory loss since you werent really all "there" in the time of the memory gap. Personally had issues where i didnt remember when exactly something happened and if it was yesterday or weeks ago and i think in extremer cases you can forget completely that anything happened at all

I don't remember if i did, but probably

 

[Sink]

You will turn your life from something neutral to something positive. Chase your dreams, and if you don’t have any, create them

i'm unable to ''enjoy'' things cuz prolly cuz i got diagnosed with depression, but i've been in denial on it because when i was in the hospital i would compare my behaviors to the other kids that had depression, and i realized i acted completely different compared to them, when they are down 24/7, i had more of an emotional rollercoaster ig?

 

[Dorogi]

idk man, did you discuss it with ur doctors?

I dont know much about psychology and stuff and this is just a theory but if you discociate heavily i think you can also start experiencing memory loss since you werent really all "there" in the time of the memory gap. Personally had issues where i didnt remember when exactly something happened and if it was yesterday or weeks ago and i think in extremer cases you can forget completely that anything happened at all

this is the only thing i can really think of because as far as i know you dont have schizo or a neurodegenerative disorder.

If it is discociation its not smth you should ignore. might bd ssri induced (idk exactly how they work) but ussually discociation is ur brain coping with being overwhelmed.

Has anything recently changed that caused you a lot of stress?

 

[Sink]

this is the only thing i can really think of because as far as i know you dont have schizo or a neurodegenerative disorder.

If it is discociation its not smth you should ignore. might bd ssri induced (idk exactly how they work) but ussually discociation is ur brain coping with being overwhelmed.

Has anything recently changed that caused you a lot of stress?

no, i've felt the same for the past 3 weeks

 

[Luca_.]

i'm unable to ''enjoy'' things cuz prolly cuz i got diagnosed with depression, but i've been in denial on it because when i was in the hospital i would compare my behaviors to the other kids that had depression, and i realized i acted completely different compared to them, when they are down 24/7, i had more of an emotional rollercoaster ig?

I get what you mean. I’m in a similar boat as you