i dont think i'll live until 18/yo

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I am a total loser chink born to Europe and I have no chance at competing here, I have never touched a female in my life and the only ineractions with women were them laughing at me or then asking for a pencil or something. Everyone around me have their beloved girlfriends and due to this I have been left all alone. I have an abandoned feeling. If I ever had to talk to someone or ask for help I wouldn't have anyone to talk to. Anyone I could trust I mean. If I were to tell my mom I was suicidal she would probably get mad at me and call me ungrateful or sum shit. Now don't get me wrong. I have been to some parties lately and I have kinda ascended from my old self a few months back. I have got a few snaps but everytime I ask for one I just freeze. I've been isolated for so long I forgot all my social skills. Then when I shoot my shot to these girls they halfswipe me and ignore me totally, or block me. And I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Maybe I'm just not enough, I'm still not good looking enough. Even for a LTB. I'm going to post this now already so that if I one day kill myself I just want to have my, well, ''last'' message but I'm going to still post stuff because I'm going to have my last try at ascending. Like another chance kind of. If I succeed I hope one day my mental health will be better and I might live through 18 and have a happy life for once. I love my parents and I hope they love me too, I love the nice people at school, and I love this country too, this city is my favorite ever and sometimes if I'm lonely I just literally go for walks and look around me and listen to some nice tunes. I hope I won't have to join my uncle in death at least yet. That's all
 
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I am a total loser chink born to Europe and I have no chance at competing here, I have never touched a female in my life and the only ineractions with women were them laughing at me or then asking for a pencil or something. Everyone around me have their beloved girlfriends and due to this I have been left all alone. I have an abandoned feeling. If I ever had to talk to someone or ask for help I wouldn't have anyone to talk to. Anyone I could trust I mean. If I were to tell my mom I was suicidal she would probably get mad at me and call me ungrateful or sum shit. Now don't get me wrong. I have been to some parties lately and I have kinda ascended from my old self a few months back. I have got a few snaps but everytime I ask for one I just freeze. I've been isolated for so long I forgot all my social skills. Then when I shoot my shot to these girls they halfswipe me and ignore me totally, or block me. And I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Maybe I'm just not enough, I'm still not good looking enough. Even for a LTB. I'm going to post this now already so that if I one day kill myself I just want to have my, well, ''last'' message but I'm going to still post stuff because I'm going to have my last try at ascending. Like another chance kind of. If I succeed I hope one day my mental health will be better and I might live through 18 and have a happy life for once. I love my parents and I hope they love me too, I love the nice people at school, and I love this country too, this city is my favorite ever and sometimes if I'm lonely I just literally go for walks and look around me and listen to some nice tunes. I hope I won't have to join my uncle in death at least yet. That's all
I am 18 and never had a gf too, allgood nigga I am chilling :ogre:
 
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I am 18 and never had a gf too, allgood nigga I am chilling :ogre:
I know that I could make it till 18, I just can't stand the lonely feeling and just the image of myself being a fucking incel weirdo. I can't stand seeing myself in the mirror or photos I fucking hate me.
 
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Nigga same thing here, subhuman recessive genes and being ethnic nerfed me, everyday I fucking think about how I’ll never have the average interaction with a girl that everyone else gets, no matter what I do, I don’t even think there’s ways to cope anymore I literally dream abt this shit when sleeping lmao
 
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I know that I could make it till 18, I just can't stand the lonely feeling and just the image of myself being a fucking incel weirdo. I can't stand seeing myself in the mirror or photos I fucking hate me.
Nigga I am a weirdo too so what then?

Like u really think an LTR with some teenage foid will change anything? It is not that I ever tried tbh I never really gave a fuck abt allat, u will waste ur time and energy on some useless shit. Like u won't suddenly become happy when a girl loves u I can tell u that, it won't bring u any satisfaction, most people here are too delusional, I had girls that had crush on me and stalked me or smth, it is just stupid foids that "love" u bcs of their hormones that's it. It won't make u happy trust me, instead just find smth u like to do and stop stressing abt unimportant things
 
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Nigga I am a weirdo too so what then?

Like u really think an LTR with some teenage foid will change anything? It is not that I ever tried tbh I never really gave a fuck abt allat, u will waste ur time and energy on some useless shit. Like u won't suddenly become happy when a girl loves u I can tell u that, it won't bring u any satisfaction, most people here are too delusional, I had girls that had crush on me and stalked me or smth, it is just stupid foids that "love" u bcs of their hormones that's it. It won't make u happy trust me, instead just find smth u like to do and stop stressing abt unimportant things
dude it would be a dream to have girls crush on me. my dream is to have a partner for life who I can always trust, always talk to. laugh with, do stuff with, build a family together. How am I supposed to survive ALONE my whole life? I only have one friend that hardly ever sees me or messages me. I know that if I just don't care about anything and let life go I'll just be alone forever, and probably kill myself. sSo it's basially a 100% lose rate for me
 
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dude it would be a dream to have girls crush on me. my dream is to have a partner for life who I can always trust, always talk to. laugh with, do stuff with, build a family together. How am I supposed to survive ALONE my whole life? I only have one friend that hardly ever sees me or messages me. I know that if I just don't care about anything and let life go I'll just be alone forever, and probably kill myself. sSo it's basially a 100% lose rate for me
Nigga I am lonely too for most of my life, not that I care too much bcs I purposely isolate msf but generally speaking building a family is the lames shit ever.

My mother beated me and humiliated me all my childhood and I grew up like that, with memories of my own mom as the person who bullied me and damaged me the most. Family and allat shit is cope asf, I don't want to see women and to talk with them bcs they are all fucking annoying, not that they are evil but they just disturb my peace. Like nigga just find a friend group or smth u like to do and u will be good.

Trust me there are people in worse scenarios than u, and even if it happens that u don't get lucky with women u can always succeed in everything else. If u want an LTR that bad then it will come trust me, I've see 5'4 skinnyfat ethnic dudes have LTRs so allgood nigga :ogre:
 
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Nigga I am lonely too for most of my life, not that I care too much bcs I purposely isolate msf but generally speaking building a family is the lames shit ever.

My mother beated me and humiliated me all my childhood and I grew up like that, with memories of my own mom as the person who bullied me and damaged me the most. Family and allat shit is cope asf, I don't want to see women and to talk with them bcs they are all fucking annoying, not that they are evil but they just disturb my peace. Like nigga just find a friend group or smth u like to do and u will be good.

Trust me there are people in worse scenarios than u, and even if it happens that u don't get lucky with women u can always succeed in everything else. If u want an LTR that bad then it will come trust me, I've see 5'4 skinnyfat ethnic dudes have LTRs so allgood nigga :ogre:
alright I guess bro. Thanks for the advice and the motivation. I'm mirin you:love:
 
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Nobody cares, do what you want with your life, we are not going to cry with you about you not having a gf
 
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I am a total loser chink born to Europe and I have no chance at competing here, I have never touched a female in my life and the only ineractions with women were them laughing at me or then asking for a pencil or something. Everyone around me have their beloved girlfriends and due to this I have been left all alone. I have an abandoned feeling. If I ever had to talk to someone or ask for help I wouldn't have anyone to talk to. Anyone I could trust I mean. If I were to tell my mom I was suicidal she would probably get mad at me and call me ungrateful or sum shit. Now don't get me wrong. I have been to some parties lately and I have kinda ascended from my old self a few months back. I have got a few snaps but everytime I ask for one I just freeze. I've been isolated for so long I forgot all my social skills. Then when I shoot my shot to these girls they halfswipe me and ignore me totally, or block me. And I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Maybe I'm just not enough, I'm still not good looking enough. Even for a LTB. I'm going to post this now already so that if I one day kill myself I just want to have my, well, ''last'' message but I'm going to still post stuff because I'm going to have my last try at ascending. Like another chance kind of. If I succeed I hope one day my mental health will be better and I might live through 18 and have a happy life for once. I love my parents and I hope they love me too, I love the nice people at school, and I love this country too, this city is my favorite ever and sometimes if I'm lonely I just literally go for walks and look around me and listen to some nice tunes. I hope I won't have to join my uncle in death at least yet. That's all
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