I don’t want to socialize (what happens when you lose a decade of your formative years)

[laaltin]

I genuinely don’t want to socialise irl. The problem is I still get the FOMO. I don’t have the energy or endurance to maintain social relationships, I just want to live my life by my routine and don’t want to make any compromises. Still, I feel like I should be socializing at the back of my head. I’m too old to be figuring this shit out now tbh, where did my late teens and early 20s go.. This is what happens when you are constantly changing countries. I didn’t get a chance to develop normally. You lose a decade of your formative years for nothing, this is what you get. A maladjusted adult who will suffer throughout the rest of his life.