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The cry that I've gotten for almost an hour (non-stop) is impressive.
I hadn't cried in MONTHS and I feel quite liberated and at ease with myself.
It's been a lot of things... Since this afternoon playing the Wii on a CRT TV and remembering my childhood exactly as it was, with my father by my side.
Remembering that at that time I was happy and now I am not. That the world is in absolute decline.
I discovered "Frutiger Aero" style and saw how everything has evolved for the worse in graphic design, in society, in music, in cinema, in art in general...
Remembering my deceased grandmother and that I have four pending subjects at the university, added to the fact that I am aimlessly and cannot find my vital destiny.
Watching how my parents are getting older and I can't do nothing i. See that if one day they die I will find myself alone, practically alone, in this world. I don't know if all this is real, if it is a dystopia or if we are a hologram.
But it is true that the world is getting worse every day. I made myself a Spotify playlist with the following Aphex Twin tracks (in order):
-IZ-US
-Xtal
- Flim
-Alberto Balsalm
-#3
-aisatsana [102]
-April 14th
And while I was remembering all these events I dropped tears. I feel like I'm hitting rock bottom and I'm considering going to a specialist, but I don't have balls. They are a cluster of things that are screwing me inside.
I hadn't cried in MONTHS and I feel quite liberated and at ease with myself.
It's been a lot of things... Since this afternoon playing the Wii on a CRT TV and remembering my childhood exactly as it was, with my father by my side.
Remembering that at that time I was happy and now I am not. That the world is in absolute decline.
I discovered "Frutiger Aero" style and saw how everything has evolved for the worse in graphic design, in society, in music, in cinema, in art in general...
Remembering my deceased grandmother and that I have four pending subjects at the university, added to the fact that I am aimlessly and cannot find my vital destiny.
Watching how my parents are getting older and I can't do nothing i. See that if one day they die I will find myself alone, practically alone, in this world. I don't know if all this is real, if it is a dystopia or if we are a hologram.
But it is true that the world is getting worse every day. I made myself a Spotify playlist with the following Aphex Twin tracks (in order):
-IZ-US
-Xtal
- Flim
-Alberto Balsalm
-#3
-aisatsana [102]
-April 14th
And while I was remembering all these events I dropped tears. I feel like I'm hitting rock bottom and I'm considering going to a specialist, but I don't have balls. They are a cluster of things that are screwing me inside.
