i failed my childhood by being single

[hax]

in 1 year, i turn 18, at 18, i'm getting kicked out the house to work my ass of with my grandparents, there will be no meeting new people.

it's making me overly sad when i see young couples and realize i could've spent my whole childhood and school days with someone i loved.
would've probably ended up healthier, wouldn't have hyperfocused on looks, would've been better in school and maybe therefore have a better chance to join uni.

just imagine going to school knowing you and your lover are together, going to the same uni after, living in the same dorm and working the same jobs.

instead i failed my whole "pre-life" and i'm now cursed to spend my time working minimum wage jobs alone with my shitty family while saving up for surgery to fill the hole that couldn't be patched, all while browsing social media and throwing airballs around.

 

[spiker]

just imagine going to school knowing you and your lover are together, going to the same uni after, living in the same dorm and working the same jobs.

then you wake up

 

[SomaliSub5]

you should find happiness and purpose in yourself not in someone else

 

[hax]

you should find happiness and purpose in yourself not in someone else

i can't find pleasure in my own reflection and i crave love more than ever, there is no other point to my life

 

[hax]

then you wake up

then i realize it's 1AM and i have to wake up at 6AM to go to school while i'm boo-hoo-posting on org watching romance in the background

 

[HundredManSlayer]

you should find happiness and purpose in yourself not in someone else

love is the most important part of your life

 

[2ndAscension]

Are you getting kicked out just for turning 18?

 

[Anamnesis]

Me too but i just turned 17

it would be nice if i had a gf when i was 14
the worst thing is i could have it but i didnt have a good family conextion amd i was very insecure

 

[Dingo]

i can't find pleasure in my own reflection and i crave love more than ever, there is no other point to my life

It’s just never enough is it

 

[hax]

Are you getting kicked out just for turning 18?

my parents realised i had no potential and now just want me to live somewhere else

 

[hax]

Me too but i just turned 17

it would be nice if i had a gf when i was 14
the worst thing is i could have it but i didnt have a good family conextion amd i was very insecure

turned 17 in january yeah, it just hit me like a brick

It’s just never enough is it

wym “never enough.”
i have nothing to begin with.