I feel dirty

[puppyboy264]

this is gonna be one of the most genuine posts i have ever written
because i genuinely don't know who i can share this with

if you want more context for this thread please view the one about me being scared to lose my virginity!


you probably get the rough point of this post from the last two sentences

for some background information
i have been going out and watching movies/hanging out with this one girl for like a week or two, Ive been enjoying it, she was super touchy and stuff which i liked but i didn't really realize if she liked me

she basically straight up told me a couple of nights ago and today she was supposed to come to my house

that was all and dandy, i thought we would watch a movie together or just hang out and watch tiktoks in bed, i even baked brownies and got drinks and snacks ):

she came over and at first it was a bit awkward and we were just talking and stuff and then we were watching tiktoks in bed and then everything went south

im not gonna go into explicit detail into what happened, but we went pretty far, i kinda stopped her at some point though
but it still went pretty far
in the moment i was really enjoying it and i was also really nervous
(ewe fun fact i was so nervous i could baerly get hard now she thinks my dih is small TwT #growernotashower)
okay back to the story
we were doing this for about an hour or two
after she was done i told her that she probably knocked off like 10 points of my rice purity, because she knew i was inexperienced.
she said i didn't knock any off hers
then she started doing the thing infront of me
i felt so dirty and disgusting in that moment
i literally wish it never happened

plus the fact that im leaving in two weeks im just fling to her TwT

I don't really know why i feel this way, while we were doing stuff i realized that she really wanted it so i kinda put my wants aside and followed her more
because i wanted to make her happy ewe

I genuinely don't know how i feel right now
then that feeling kicked in and i started sobbing a bit
my fear of intimacy overtook me
she thought i was sobbing cuz i got jealous
which like yeah kinda but also like i genuinely felt so dirty

i cant shut her down cuz i dont wanna make her feel bad
for reference she has told me her body count is 1.5 so its not that much but still

i want my first time to be with someone i know a bit better
cuz we have only been talking romantically for a couple of weeks (known her for a year or two)

it also just felt to easy
she told me she enjoyed it but idk if i did ewe

also she left crazy marks all over me which my friend saw a bit ago cuz he came to drop something off
but idrm that i kinda liked it

i am genuinely so confused on what i should think about this
but ig at the end of the day we are just friends as she said



also mini update about my ex:
i haven't stalked her at all recently so im kinda getting over it
but when me and new girl were doing stuff i caught myself thinking about her a couple of times so idrk


so i really dont know how to feel
should i feel good about myself? should i feel sad? disgusting? idk
i feel like my innocence was a bit stripped away
:/


sorry if todays post isn't as exciting as usual, if theres not as much emojis and stuff T-T
i just really feel like crying and idk what to do im so lost


thank you guys for reading and have a nice day

 

[puppyboy264]

crazy how everyone on org calls me gay but i get more play than most people here : P

 

[Nakolas]

 

[Starborn]

crazy how everyone on org calls me gay but i get more play than most people here : P

gay

 

[LowTierBateman]

Feel this dnr u faggot

 

[Joeseminate]

*uWu* just take a shower *uWu*

 

[puppyboy264]

Feel this dnr u faggot

ig bro

 

[puppyboy264]

*uWu* just take a shower *uWu*

dude genuinely what the fuck

 

[puppyboy264]

it your gonna reply with a dnr or stupid joke just know i really do not care

any genuine replies and advice will be nice though

 

[Panchitosbroncs]

this is gonna be one of the most genuine posts i have ever written
because i genuinely don't know who i can share this with

if you want more context for this thread please view the one about me being scared to lose my virginity!


you probably get the rough point of this post from the last two sentences

for some background information
i have been going out and watching movies/hanging out with this one girl for like a week or two, Ive been enjoying it, she was super touchy and stuff which i liked but i didn't really realize if she liked me

she basically straight up told me a couple of nights ago and today she was supposed to come to my house

that was all and dandy, i thought we would watch a movie together or just hang out and watch tiktoks in bed, i even baked brownies and got drinks and snacks ):

she came over and at first it was a bit awkward and we were just talking and stuff and then we were watching tiktoks in bed and then everything went south

im not gonna go into explicit detail into what happened, but we went pretty far, i kinda stopped her at some point though
but it still went pretty far
in the moment i was really enjoying it and i was also really nervous
(ewe fun fact i was so nervous i could baerly get hard now she thinks my dih is small TwT #growernotashower)
okay back to the story
we were doing this for about an hour or two
after she was done i told her that she probably knocked off like 10 points of my rice purity, because she knew i was inexperienced.
she said i didn't knock any off hers
then she started doing the thing infront of me
i felt so dirty and disgusting in that moment
i literally wish it never happened

plus the fact that im leaving in two weeks im just fling to her TwT

I don't really know why i feel this way, while we were doing stuff i realized that she really wanted it so i kinda put my wants aside and followed her more
because i wanted to make her happy ewe

I genuinely don't know how i feel right now
then that feeling kicked in and i started sobbing a bit
my fear of intimacy overtook me
she thought i was sobbing cuz i got jealous
which like yeah kinda but also like i genuinely felt so dirty

i cant shut her down cuz i dont wanna make her feel bad
for reference she has told me her body count is 1.5 so its not that much but still

i want my first time to be with someone i know a bit better
cuz we have only been talking romantically for a couple of weeks (known her for a year or two)

it also just felt to easy
she told me she enjoyed it but idk if i did ewe

also she left crazy marks all over me which my friend saw a bit ago cuz he came to drop something off
but idrm that i kinda liked it

i am genuinely so confused on what i should think about this
but ig at the end of the day we are just friends as she said



also mini update about my ex:
i haven't stalked her at all recently so im kinda getting over it
but when me and new girl were doing stuff i caught myself thinking about her a couple of times so idrk


so i really dont know how to feel
should i feel good about myself? should i feel sad? disgusting? idk
i feel like my innocence was a bit stripped away
:/


sorry if todays post isn't as exciting as usual, if theres not as much emojis and stuff T-T
i just really feel like crying and idk what to do im so lost


thank you guys for reading and have a nice day

I've never experienced this, so I can't help.

 

[puppyboy264]

I've never experienced this, so I can't help.

its okay
thanks for listening

 

[LowTierBateman]

dude genuinely what the fuck

Nigga got sent dagestan 2-3 years

 

[rj_0616]

crazy how everyone on org calls me gay but i get more play than most people here : P

fakelce

 

[Old Büll]

Grown man using the word genuinely

 

[prolarper]

Dnr

 

[puppyboy264]

Grown man using the word genuinely

???
what

 

[TheGreatDetective]

her body count is 1.5

How does someone have a body count of one and a half did she fuck a midget

 

[D69mo]

this is gonna be one of the most genuine posts i have ever written
because i genuinely don't know who i can share this with

if you want more context for this thread please view the one about me being scared to lose my virginity!


you probably get the rough point of this post from the last two sentences

for some background information
i have been going out and watching movies/hanging out with this one girl for like a week or two, Ive been enjoying it, she was super touchy and stuff which i liked but i didn't really realize if she liked me

she basically straight up told me a couple of nights ago and today she was supposed to come to my house

that was all and dandy, i thought we would watch a movie together or just hang out and watch tiktoks in bed, i even baked brownies and got drinks and snacks ):

she came over and at first it was a bit awkward and we were just talking and stuff and then we were watching tiktoks in bed and then everything went south

im not gonna go into explicit detail into what happened, but we went pretty far, i kinda stopped her at some point though
but it still went pretty far
in the moment i was really enjoying it and i was also really nervous
(ewe fun fact i was so nervous i could baerly get hard now she thinks my dih is small TwT #growernotashower)
okay back to the story
we were doing this for about an hour or two
after she was done i told her that she probably knocked off like 10 points of my rice purity, because she knew i was inexperienced.
she said i didn't knock any off hers
then she started doing the thing infront of me
i felt so dirty and disgusting in that moment
i literally wish it never happened

plus the fact that im leaving in two weeks im just fling to her TwT

I don't really know why i feel this way, while we were doing stuff i realized that she really wanted it so i kinda put my wants aside and followed her more
because i wanted to make her happy ewe

I genuinely don't know how i feel right now
then that feeling kicked in and i started sobbing a bit
my fear of intimacy overtook me
she thought i was sobbing cuz i got jealous
which like yeah kinda but also like i genuinely felt so dirty

i cant shut her down cuz i dont wanna make her feel bad
for reference she has told me her body count is 1.5 so its not that much but still

i want my first time to be with someone i know a bit better
cuz we have only been talking romantically for a couple of weeks (known her for a year or two)

it also just felt to easy
she told me she enjoyed it but idk if i did ewe

also she left crazy marks all over me which my friend saw a bit ago cuz he came to drop something off
but idrm that i kinda liked it

i am genuinely so confused on what i should think about this
but ig at the end of the day we are just friends as she said



also mini update about my ex:
i haven't stalked her at all recently so im kinda getting over it
but when me and new girl were doing stuff i caught myself thinking about her a couple of times so idrk


so i really dont know how to feel
should i feel good about myself? should i feel sad? disgusting? idk
i feel like my innocence was a bit stripped away
:/


sorry if todays post isn't as exciting as usual, if theres not as much emojis and stuff T-T
i just really feel like crying and idk what to do im so lost


thank you guys for reading and have a nice day

Dnr fag

 

[puppyboy264]

How does someone have a body count of one and a half did she fuck a midget

no fucking clue tbh she didn't elaborate

 

[puppyboy264]

Dnr fag

post about being w a girl btw

 

[D69mo]

post about being w a girl btw

Women are not real people I hope you understand that one day

 

[cryptt]

Dnr did she peg u

 

[mistyjfl]

this is gonna be one of the most genuine posts i have ever written
because i genuinely don't know who i can share this with

if you want more context for this thread please view the one about me being scared to lose my virginity!


you probably get the rough point of this post from the last two sentences

for some background information
i have been going out and watching movies/hanging out with this one girl for like a week or two, Ive been enjoying it, she was super touchy and stuff which i liked but i didn't really realize if she liked me

she basically straight up told me a couple of nights ago and today she was supposed to come to my house

that was all and dandy, i thought we would watch a movie together or just hang out and watch tiktoks in bed, i even baked brownies and got drinks and snacks ):

she came over and at first it was a bit awkward and we were just talking and stuff and then we were watching tiktoks in bed and then everything went south

im not gonna go into explicit detail into what happened, but we went pretty far, i kinda stopped her at some point though
but it still went pretty far
in the moment i was really enjoying it and i was also really nervous
(ewe fun fact i was so nervous i could baerly get hard now she thinks my dih is small TwT #growernotashower)
okay back to the story
we were doing this for about an hour or two
after she was done i told her that she probably knocked off like 10 points of my rice purity, because she knew i was inexperienced.
she said i didn't knock any off hers
then she started doing the thing infront of me
i felt so dirty and disgusting in that moment
i literally wish it never happened

plus the fact that im leaving in two weeks im just fling to her TwT

I don't really know why i feel this way, while we were doing stuff i realized that she really wanted it so i kinda put my wants aside and followed her more
because i wanted to make her happy ewe

I genuinely don't know how i feel right now
then that feeling kicked in and i started sobbing a bit
my fear of intimacy overtook me
she thought i was sobbing cuz i got jealous
which like yeah kinda but also like i genuinely felt so dirty

i cant shut her down cuz i dont wanna make her feel bad
for reference she has told me her body count is 1.5 so its not that much but still

i want my first time to be with someone i know a bit better
cuz we have only been talking romantically for a couple of weeks (known her for a year or two)

it also just felt to easy
she told me she enjoyed it but idk if i did ewe

also she left crazy marks all over me which my friend saw a bit ago cuz he came to drop something off
but idrm that i kinda liked it

i am genuinely so confused on what i should think about this
but ig at the end of the day we are just friends as she said



also mini update about my ex:
i haven't stalked her at all recently so im kinda getting over it
but when me and new girl were doing stuff i caught myself thinking about her a couple of times so idrk


so i really dont know how to feel
should i feel good about myself? should i feel sad? disgusting? idk
i feel like my innocence was a bit stripped away
:/


sorry if todays post isn't as exciting as usual, if theres not as much emojis and stuff T-T
i just really feel like crying and idk what to do im so lost


thank you guys for reading and have a nice day

no one reading this

 

[mistyjfl]

Dnr did she peg u

 

[6’7whitechad]

this is gonna be one of the most genuine posts i have ever written
because i genuinely don't know who i can share this with

if you want more context for this thread please view the one about me being scared to lose my virginity!


you probably get the rough point of this post from the last two sentences

for some background information
i have been going out and watching movies/hanging out with this one girl for like a week or two, Ive been enjoying it, she was super touchy and stuff which i liked but i didn't really realize if she liked me

she basically straight up told me a couple of nights ago and today she was supposed to come to my house

that was all and dandy, i thought we would watch a movie together or just hang out and watch tiktoks in bed, i even baked brownies and got drinks and snacks ):

she came over and at first it was a bit awkward and we were just talking and stuff and then we were watching tiktoks in bed and then everything went south

im not gonna go into explicit detail into what happened, but we went pretty far, i kinda stopped her at some point though
but it still went pretty far
in the moment i was really enjoying it and i was also really nervous
(ewe fun fact i was so nervous i could baerly get hard now she thinks my dih is small TwT #growernotashower)
okay back to the story
we were doing this for about an hour or two
after she was done i told her that she probably knocked off like 10 points of my rice purity, because she knew i was inexperienced.
she said i didn't knock any off hers
then she started doing the thing infront of me
i felt so dirty and disgusting in that moment
i literally wish it never happened

plus the fact that im leaving in two weeks im just fling to her TwT

I don't really know why i feel this way, while we were doing stuff i realized that she really wanted it so i kinda put my wants aside and followed her more
because i wanted to make her happy ewe

I genuinely don't know how i feel right now
then that feeling kicked in and i started sobbing a bit
my fear of intimacy overtook me
she thought i was sobbing cuz i got jealous
which like yeah kinda but also like i genuinely felt so dirty

i cant shut her down cuz i dont wanna make her feel bad
for reference she has told me her body count is 1.5 so its not that much but still

i want my first time to be with someone i know a bit better
cuz we have only been talking romantically for a couple of weeks (known her for a year or two)

it also just felt to easy
she told me she enjoyed it but idk if i did ewe

also she left crazy marks all over me which my friend saw a bit ago cuz he came to drop something off
but idrm that i kinda liked it

i am genuinely so confused on what i should think about this
but ig at the end of the day we are just friends as she said



also mini update about my ex:
i haven't stalked her at all recently so im kinda getting over it
but when me and new girl were doing stuff i caught myself thinking about her a couple of times so idrk


so i really dont know how to feel
should i feel good about myself? should i feel sad? disgusting? idk
i feel like my innocence was a bit stripped away
:/


sorry if todays post isn't as exciting as usual, if theres not as much emojis and stuff T-T
i just really feel like crying and idk what to do im so lost


thank you guys for reading and have a nice day

Dnr fag

 

[blinkers]

did u get fucked? or did u fuck

and if you did was it a girl or guy

 

[puppyboy264]

Women are not real people I hope you understand that one day

ig bro

 

[puppyboy264]

did u get fucked? or did u fuck

and if you did was it a girl or guy

was a girl

read the post???

 

[D69mo]

ig bro

you have such a disney outlook on women snap out of it

 

[andy321]

this is gonna be one of the most genuine posts i have ever written
because i genuinely don't know who i can share this with

if you want more context for this thread please view the one about me being scared to lose my virginity!


you probably get the rough point of this post from the last two sentences

for some background information
i have been going out and watching movies/hanging out with this one girl for like a week or two, Ive been enjoying it, she was super touchy and stuff which i liked but i didn't really realize if she liked me

she basically straight up told me a couple of nights ago and today she was supposed to come to my house

that was all and dandy, i thought we would watch a movie together or just hang out and watch tiktoks in bed, i even baked brownies and got drinks and snacks ):

she came over and at first it was a bit awkward and we were just talking and stuff and then we were watching tiktoks in bed and then everything went south

im not gonna go into explicit detail into what happened, but we went pretty far, i kinda stopped her at some point though
but it still went pretty far
in the moment i was really enjoying it and i was also really nervous
(ewe fun fact i was so nervous i could baerly get hard now she thinks my dih is small TwT #growernotashower)
okay back to the story
we were doing this for about an hour or two
after she was done i told her that she probably knocked off like 10 points of my rice purity, because she knew i was inexperienced.
she said i didn't knock any off hers
then she started doing the thing infront of me
i felt so dirty and disgusting in that moment
i literally wish it never happened

plus the fact that im leaving in two weeks im just fling to her TwT

I don't really know why i feel this way, while we were doing stuff i realized that she really wanted it so i kinda put my wants aside and followed her more
because i wanted to make her happy ewe

I genuinely don't know how i feel right now
then that feeling kicked in and i started sobbing a bit
my fear of intimacy overtook me
she thought i was sobbing cuz i got jealous
which like yeah kinda but also like i genuinely felt so dirty

i cant shut her down cuz i dont wanna make her feel bad
for reference she has told me her body count is 1.5 so its not that much but still

i want my first time to be with someone i know a bit better
cuz we have only been talking romantically for a couple of weeks (known her for a year or two)

it also just felt to easy
she told me she enjoyed it but idk if i did ewe

also she left crazy marks all over me which my friend saw a bit ago cuz he came to drop something off
but idrm that i kinda liked it

i am genuinely so confused on what i should think about this
but ig at the end of the day we are just friends as she said



also mini update about my ex:
i haven't stalked her at all recently so im kinda getting over it
but when me and new girl were doing stuff i caught myself thinking about her a couple of times so idrk


so i really dont know how to feel
should i feel good about myself? should i feel sad? disgusting? idk
i feel like my innocence was a bit stripped away
:/


sorry if todays post isn't as exciting as usual, if theres not as much emojis and stuff T-T
i just really feel like crying and idk what to do im so lost


thank you guys for reading and have a nice day

I am just doing hypothesis, but if Shedontluv-U was here he would say " DNR we don't care show us some skin you twink”

 

[puppyboy264]

you have such a disney outlook on women snap out of it

i clearly dont???
i was just involved with one and im crine over it

 

[puppyboy264]

I am just doing hypothesis, but if Shedontluv-U was here he would say " DNR we don't care show us some skin you twink”

pls js read the post and reply honestly
no need to be a dick

 

[D69mo]

i clearly dont???
i was just involved with one and im crine over it

No women would love you for who you truly are no women would truly love you its literally just biology its in their nature to sleep with attractive guys to trick her body into thinking shes breeding with a developed higher tier human

 

[DarkAscender]

post about being w a girl btw

Being alone with a girl and refusing to fuck her is gayer than being gay man

 

[hello kitty]

for some background information
i have been going out and watching movies/hanging out with this one girl for like a week or two, Ive been enjoying it, she was super touchy and stuff w

this is gonna be one of the most genuine posts i have ever written
because i genuinely don't know who i can share this with

if you want more context for this thread please view the one about me being scared to lose my virginity!


you probably get the rough point of this post from the last two sentences

for some background information
i have been going out and watching movies/hanging out with this one girl for like a week or two, Ive been enjoying it, she was super touchy and stuff which i liked but i didn't really realize if she liked me

she basically straight up told me a couple of nights ago and today she was supposed to come to my house

that was all and dandy, i thought we would watch a movie together or just hang out and watch tiktoks in bed, i even baked brownies and got drinks and snacks ):

she came over and at first it was a bit awkward and we were just talking and stuff and then we were watching tiktoks in bed and then everything went south

im not gonna go into explicit detail into what happened, but we went pretty far, i kinda stopped her at some point though
but it still went pretty far
in the moment i was really enjoying it and i was also really nervous
(ewe fun fact i was so nervous i could baerly get hard now she thinks my dih is small TwT #growernotashower)
okay back to the story
we were doing this for about an hour or two
after she was done i told her that she probably knocked off like 10 points of my rice purity, because she knew i was inexperienced.
she said i didn't knock any off hers
then she started doing the thing infront of me
i felt so dirty and disgusting in that moment
i literally wish it never happened

plus the fact that im leaving in two weeks im just fling to her TwT

I don't really know why i feel this way, while we were doing stuff i realized that she really wanted it so i kinda put my wants aside and followed her more
because i wanted to make her happy ewe

I genuinely don't know how i feel right now
then that feeling kicked in and i started sobbing a bit
my fear of intimacy overtook me
she thought i was sobbing cuz i got jealous
which like yeah kinda but also like i genuinely felt so dirty

i cant shut her down cuz i dont wanna make her feel bad
for reference she has told me her body count is 1.5 so its not that much but still

i want my first time to be with someone i know a bit better
cuz we have only been talking romantically for a couple of weeks (known her for a year or two)

it also just felt to easy
she told me she enjoyed it but idk if i did ewe

also she left crazy marks all over me which my friend saw a bit ago cuz he came to drop something off
but idrm that i kinda liked it

i am genuinely so confused on what i should think about this
but ig at the end of the day we are just friends as she said



also mini update about my ex:
i haven't stalked her at all recently so im kinda getting over it
but when me and new girl were doing stuff i caught myself thinking about her a couple of times so idrk


so i really dont know how to feel
should i feel good about myself? should i feel sad? disgusting? idk
i feel like my innocence was a bit stripped away
:/


sorry if todays post isn't as exciting as usual, if theres not as much emojis and stuff T-T
i just really feel like crying and idk what to do im so lost


thank you guys for reading and have a nice day

lil bro i will answer you very genuinly. ive been there multiple times. (check my anal sex thread)

you probably moved faster than you was comfortable with, you probably wanted to take things slower.

there is a lot going on. emotional crash + confusion about consent + inexperience + guilt spiral and bla bla bla

i will start by saying YOU ARE NOT WEIRD AND YOU ARE NOT GAY, young sensitive man.

by what you are saying i dont think anything abusive happened.

you are not bad bro neither ruined. you are just learning where your boundaries actually are. what you felt was probably your mind telling you to take things slowly bc you didnt had full control over your boundaries.

again remember that nothing abusive happened, you are not bad and you should not feel disgusted about yourself.
some stuff happened and be glad that happend bc it only made you realize how important your own plasure boudaries, communication, love, affection, intention, passion and care, and a lot of other things should be considered in those situations.

its probably not the first time you will feel this. you might feel this exact feeling another time. so remember to slow down and takes it your own pace. you are not weird or gay if you tell a bitch to slow tf down or to not touch your butthole when you are on missionary (it happened to me i had to slap that hoe)

you probably had so much going on in your brain. you were probably thinking about her own plasure more than your own. you probably felt judged bc you judge yourself a lot.

listen. in sex there is no such thing as a bad thing. its just two people sharing intimacy and love and affection. even if its for 20 minutes and never met again.(thats what some people need and we should not judge them)

next time put some love in it. love the moment, love yourself and the person you are with. in sex there is no judgment or something bad or something weird (beside a few exeptions). be more free to open yourself and enjoy more the moment. its you and the other person sharing some time together, where there is only you and her and no one else.

you were in two diffreent places at the same time: physically you were there but not mentally. thats way the thoughts came after.
its normal, it happens. now you had your first experience. be glad.

let me tell you a secret. everyones first experience is so bad. and you will probably remember more your first kiss than your first time.

are you religious? do you have childhood trauma related to ts? what do you think abt yourself? do you mind sharing some more details on what happened?

you can talk to me if you want

 

[puppyboy264]

No women would love you for who you truly are no women would truly love you its literally just biology its in their nature to sleep with attractive guys to trick her body into thinking shes breeding with a developed higher tier human

i guess dude
but im sub5 and she really wanted to sleep w me so idk ^_^

 

[puppyboy264]

Being alone with a girl and refusing to fuck her is gayer than being gay man

???
i just don't wanna go that far with a girl i haven't known for that long

the amount i went w her was already alot more than i was comfortable with

 

[GeneticsIsEverythin]

Nigga smoke weed or sum shit next time you get “play”

also youre à massive pussy but I’m sure you know this

 

[D69mo]

i guess dude
but im sub5 and she really wanted to sleep w me so idk ^_^

Then you must not be sub5

 

[puppyboy264]

lil bro i will answer you very genuinly. ive been there multiple times. (check my anal sex thread)

you probably moved faster than you was comfortable with, you probably wanted to take things slower.

there is a lot going on. emotional crash + confusion about consent + inexperience + guilt spiral and bla bla bla

i will start by saying YOU ARE NOT WEIRD AND YOU ARE NOT GAY, young sensitive man.

by what you are saying i dont think anything abusive happened.

you are not bad bro neither ruined. you are just learning where your boundaries actually are. what you felt was probably your mind telling you to take things slowly bc you didnt had full control over your boundaries.

again remember that nothing abusive happened, you are not bad and you should not feel disgusted about yourself.
some stuff happened and be glad that happend bc it only made you realize how important your own plasure boudaries, communication, love, affection, intention, passion and care, and a lot of other things should be considered in those situations.

its probably not the first time you will feel this. you might feel this exact feeling another time. so remember to slow down and takes it your own pace. you are not weird or gay if you tell a bitch to slow tf down or to not touch your butthole when you are on missionary (it happened to me i had to slap that hoe)

you probably had so much going on in your brain. you were probably thinking about her own plasure more than your own. you probably felt judged bc you judge yourself a lot.

listen. in sex there is no such thing as a bad thing. its just two people sharing intimacy and love and affection. even if its for 20 minutes and never met again.(thats what some people need and we should not judge them)

next time put some love in it. love the moment, love yourself and the person you are with. in sex there is no judgment or something bad or something weird (beside a few exeptions). be more free to open yourself and enjoy more the moment. its you and the other person sharing some time together, where there is only you and her and no one else.

you were in two diffreent places at the same time: physically you were there but not mentally. thats way the thoughts came after.
its normal, it happens. now you had your first experience. be glad.

let me tell you a secret. everyones first experience is so bad. and you will probably remember more your first kiss than your first time.

are you religious? do you have childhood trauma related to ts? what do you think abt yourself? do you mind sharing some more details on what happened?

you can talk to me if you want

thank you so much for the kind and thoughtful response!!!

i do wanna adress somethings though
yeah its true that we went a bit to fast for my liking
but ij the moment i was so focused on pleasing her that i didn't even think about it


i think currently the thing that hurts me most is she doesn't seem to care as much as i do about what happened :/ but i guess its fine because to be honest i dont really care that much either ewe


but yes thank you very much for the kind words @-@

 

[Beavis]

lowest t org post ive read

 

[puppyboy264]

Then you must not be sub5

have you seen me
ewe
sub5 is generous, im subhuman/sub3 T-T

 

[negativ_canthalshit]

this is gonna be one of the most genuine posts i have ever written
because i genuinely don't know who i can share this with

if you want more context for this thread please view the one about me being scared to lose my virginity!


you probably get the rough point of this post from the last two sentences

for some background information
i have been going out and watching movies/hanging out with this one girl for like a week or two, Ive been enjoying it, she was super touchy and stuff which i liked but i didn't really realize if she liked me

she basically straight up told me a couple of nights ago and today she was supposed to come to my house

that was all and dandy, i thought we would watch a movie together or just hang out and watch tiktoks in bed, i even baked brownies and got drinks and snacks ):

she came over and at first it was a bit awkward and we were just talking and stuff and then we were watching tiktoks in bed and then everything went south

im not gonna go into explicit detail into what happened, but we went pretty far, i kinda stopped her at some point though
but it still went pretty far
in the moment i was really enjoying it and i was also really nervous
(ewe fun fact i was so nervous i could baerly get hard now she thinks my dih is small TwT #growernotashower)
okay back to the story
we were doing this for about an hour or two
after she was done i told her that she probably knocked off like 10 points of my rice purity, because she knew i was inexperienced.
she said i didn't knock any off hers
then she started doing the thing infront of me
i felt so dirty and disgusting in that moment
i literally wish it never happened

plus the fact that im leaving in two weeks im just fling to her TwT

I don't really know why i feel this way, while we were doing stuff i realized that she really wanted it so i kinda put my wants aside and followed her more
because i wanted to make her happy ewe

I genuinely don't know how i feel right now
then that feeling kicked in and i started sobbing a bit
my fear of intimacy overtook me
she thought i was sobbing cuz i got jealous
which like yeah kinda but also like i genuinely felt so dirty

i cant shut her down cuz i dont wanna make her feel bad
for reference she has told me her body count is 1.5 so its not that much but still

i want my first time to be with someone i know a bit better
cuz we have only been talking romantically for a couple of weeks (known her for a year or two)

it also just felt to easy
she told me she enjoyed it but idk if i did ewe

also she left crazy marks all over me which my friend saw a bit ago cuz he came to drop something off
but idrm that i kinda liked it

i am genuinely so confused on what i should think about this
but ig at the end of the day we are just friends as she said



also mini update about my ex:
i haven't stalked her at all recently so im kinda getting over it
but when me and new girl were doing stuff i caught myself thinking about her a couple of times so idrk


so i really dont know how to feel
should i feel good about myself? should i feel sad? disgusting? idk
i feel like my innocence was a bit stripped away
:/


sorry if todays post isn't as exciting as usual, if theres not as much emojis and stuff T-T
i just really feel like crying and idk what to do im so lost


thank you guys for reading and have a nice day

What bro no

 

[puppyboy264]

lowest t org post ive read

god forbid i am a sensitive young man with complex emotions????

 

[puppyboy264]

What bro no

yeah im a fakecel now TwT
just slime me atp

 

[negativ_canthalshit]

have you seen me
ewe
sub5 is generous, im subhuman/sub3 T-T

Curls boost psl by like 4 points dw

 

[negativ_canthalshit]

yeah im a fakecel now TwT
just slime me atp

Why are you scared of slaying that's bad

 

[D69mo]

have you seen me
ewe
sub5 is generous, im subhuman/sub3 T-T

You must have some charming ass personality and 6’4

 

[puppyboy264]

Why are you scared of slaying that's bad

idk
i explained a lot better in another thread

 

[notamonLTNsub5]

i’m sorry this happened to you, as a virgin i would never sleep with anyone who is experienced, my girlfriend was a virgin before me and so was i.