I feel dirty

[puppyboy264]

You must have some charming ass personality and 6’4

i am 6'2 but i am genuinely like the ugliest person youl ever meet

 

[puppyboy264]

i’m sorry this happened to you, as a virgin i would never sleep with anyone who is experienced, my girlfriend was a virgin before me and so was i.

we didn't go all the way cuz i stopped her even though it hurt my soul and felt like i was disappointing her

 

[D69mo]

i am 6'2 but i am genuinely like the ugliest person youl ever meet

I find that hard to believe

 

[puppyboy264]

I find that hard to believe

i swear on everything
like geniune full recessed sub3
u can find a pic of me in one of my old threads

 

[notamonLTNsub5]

we didn't go all the way cuz i stopped her even though it hurt my soul and felt like i was disappointing her

i would feel the same way, i couldn’t imagine my first time being with someone i didn’t love.

 

[puppyboy264]

i would feel the same way, i couldn’t imagine my first time being with someone i didn’t love.

yeah its wierd

i feel like she knew nothing about what i wanted and needed it just felt out of place

and aftercare was even worse

 

[fantamaxxer]

crazy how everyone on org calls me gay but i get more play than most people here : P

your name is literally puppyboy what did you expect

 

[fraudislaw]

i’ve been in the exact same position and i simply said NO to sex because i have SELF CONTROL AND TESTOSTERONE to reject a woman’s advances
like simply suck my dick and gtfo my sight bitch
@MrMaxwell

 

[itsoverforUS🤣🤣🤣]

this is gonna be one of the most genuine posts i have ever written
because i genuinely don't know who i can share this with

if you want more context for this thread please view the one about me being scared to lose my virginity!


you probably get the rough point of this post from the last two sentences

for some background information
i have been going out and watching movies/hanging out with this one girl for like a week or two, Ive been enjoying it, she was super touchy and stuff which i liked but i didn't really realize if she liked me

she basically straight up told me a couple of nights ago and today she was supposed to come to my house

that was all and dandy, i thought we would watch a movie together or just hang out and watch tiktoks in bed, i even baked brownies and got drinks and snacks ):

she came over and at first it was a bit awkward and we were just talking and stuff and then we were watching tiktoks in bed and then everything went south

im not gonna go into explicit detail into what happened, but we went pretty far, i kinda stopped her at some point though
but it still went pretty far
in the moment i was really enjoying it and i was also really nervous
(ewe fun fact i was so nervous i could baerly get hard now she thinks my dih is small TwT #growernotashower)
okay back to the story
we were doing this for about an hour or two
after she was done i told her that she probably knocked off like 10 points of my rice purity, because she knew i was inexperienced.
she said i didn't knock any off hers
then she started doing the thing infront of me
i felt so dirty and disgusting in that moment
i literally wish it never happened

plus the fact that im leaving in two weeks im just fling to her TwT

I don't really know why i feel this way, while we were doing stuff i realized that she really wanted it so i kinda put my wants aside and followed her more
because i wanted to make her happy ewe

I genuinely don't know how i feel right now
then that feeling kicked in and i started sobbing a bit
my fear of intimacy overtook me
she thought i was sobbing cuz i got jealous
which like yeah kinda but also like i genuinely felt so dirty

i cant shut her down cuz i dont wanna make her feel bad
for reference she has told me her body count is 1.5 so its not that much but still

i want my first time to be with someone i know a bit better
cuz we have only been talking romantically for a couple of weeks (known her for a year or two)

it also just felt to easy
she told me she enjoyed it but idk if i did ewe

also she left crazy marks all over me which my friend saw a bit ago cuz he came to drop something off
but idrm that i kinda liked it

i am genuinely so confused on what i should think about this
but ig at the end of the day we are just friends as she said



also mini update about my ex:
i haven't stalked her at all recently so im kinda getting over it
but when me and new girl were doing stuff i caught myself thinking about her a couple of times so idrk


so i really dont know how to feel
should i feel good about myself? should i feel sad? disgusting? idk
i feel like my innocence was a bit stripped away
:/


sorry if todays post isn't as exciting as usual, if theres not as much emojis and stuff T-T
i just really feel like crying and idk what to do im so lost


thank you guys for reading and have a nice day

cunt what is a 1.5 body count

 

[DjNazi]

dnr fag

 

[DarkAscender]

???
i just don't wanna go that far with a girl i haven't known for that long

the amount i went w her was already alot more than i was comfortable with

low T ramblings

 

[DarkAscender]

i’ve been in the exact same position and i simply said NO to sex because i have SELF CONTROL AND TESTOSTERONE to reject a woman’s advances
like simply suck my dick and gtfo my sight bitch
@MrMaxwell

some of u are the proudest homosexuals

 

[jzo]

your a retard ewe

 

[dhusc]

this is gonna be one of the most genuine posts i have ever written
because i genuinely don't know who i can share this with

if you want more context for this thread please view the one about me being scared to lose my virginity!


you probably get the rough point of this post from the last two sentences

for some background information
i have been going out and watching movies/hanging out with this one girl for like a week or two, Ive been enjoying it, she was super touchy and stuff which i liked but i didn't really realize if she liked me

she basically straight up told me a couple of nights ago and today she was supposed to come to my house

that was all and dandy, i thought we would watch a movie together or just hang out and watch tiktoks in bed, i even baked brownies and got drinks and snacks ):

she came over and at first it was a bit awkward and we were just talking and stuff and then we were watching tiktoks in bed and then everything went south

im not gonna go into explicit detail into what happened, but we went pretty far, i kinda stopped her at some point though
but it still went pretty far
in the moment i was really enjoying it and i was also really nervous
(ewe fun fact i was so nervous i could baerly get hard now she thinks my dih is small TwT #growernotashower)
okay back to the story
we were doing this for about an hour or two
after she was done i told her that she probably knocked off like 10 points of my rice purity, because she knew i was inexperienced.
she said i didn't knock any off hers
then she started doing the thing infront of me
i felt so dirty and disgusting in that moment
i literally wish it never happened

plus the fact that im leaving in two weeks im just fling to her TwT

I don't really know why i feel this way, while we were doing stuff i realized that she really wanted it so i kinda put my wants aside and followed her more
because i wanted to make her happy ewe

I genuinely don't know how i feel right now
then that feeling kicked in and i started sobbing a bit
my fear of intimacy overtook me
she thought i was sobbing cuz i got jealous
which like yeah kinda but also like i genuinely felt so dirty

i cant shut her down cuz i dont wanna make her feel bad
for reference she has told me her body count is 1.5 so its not that much but still

i want my first time to be with someone i know a bit better
cuz we have only been talking romantically for a couple of weeks (known her for a year or two)

it also just felt to easy
she told me she enjoyed it but idk if i did ewe

also she left crazy marks all over me which my friend saw a bit ago cuz he came to drop something off
but idrm that i kinda liked it

i am genuinely so confused on what i should think about this
but ig at the end of the day we are just friends as she said



also mini update about my ex:
i haven't stalked her at all recently so im kinda getting over it
but when me and new girl were doing stuff i caught myself thinking about her a couple of times so idrk


so i really dont know how to feel
should i feel good about myself? should i feel sad? disgusting? idk
i feel like my innocence was a bit stripped away
:/


sorry if todays post isn't as exciting as usual, if theres not as much emojis and stuff T-T
i just really feel like crying and idk what to do im so lost


thank you guys for reading and have a nice day

FUCK YOU SOFTIE

 

[.𝐏𝐍𝐄𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐓.]

Ts lwk sad

The only thing that could cheer me up is some life time vip