I feel empty on cycle at 14

[ILDVCE]

So idk why but just recently i started having this feeling that nothing matters and that its okay if i die today im still actively living a better life day by day but im just nothing like its either i stare at a wall and laugh hysterically after pinning or just nothing like a smile and a yeah yeah ive lost all drive to study this year for my exam my mom is gonna hate me and say im a disappointment or whatever and i just have no clear perspective on what im gonna do the only thing that excites me like a true i def want to do this is just eating sugar and hopping on tren and just walking around like a faggot smoking cigarettes this will probably fade in the morning and come back again today later in the day but yeah just just kind of lost maybe its the lack of love or something something bs maybe its because i have furthered away from god and that was the only thing that kept me full with no worries and happy whatever i do with my life idrk im gonna stay with my parents more till school starts ive been out all night and day all summer yeah thanks just needed to get this off my chest

 

[shouldiusehgh]

wtf are u running

 

[ducksoover]

gear at 14????

 

[ILDVCE]

wtf are u running

Most mid shit too 100 test and sum proviron

 

[ILDVCE]

gear at 14????

Yup

 

[PSLgodBlackPerson]

a lil artificial dramaticism so some placebo and something is up with what ur running. When I was on cycle at 14 it kind of worked like a minor anti-depressant but this is just me tho.

 

[shouldiusehgh]

Most mid shit too 100 test and sum proviron

you should prob hop on an ai and maybe take ssris idk man this is weird case

 

[ILDVCE]

a lil artificial dramaticism so some placebo and something is up with what ur running. When I was on cycle at 14 it kind of worked like a minor anti-depressant but this is just me tho.

Yeah thats what it was in the first days i might just need to sleep a full night and yk return to a normal life

 

[5789tool]

So idk why but just recently i started having this feeling that nothing matters and that its okay if i die today im still actively living a better life day by day but im just nothing like its either i stare at a wall and laugh hysterically after pinning or just nothing like a smile and a yeah yeah ive lost all drive to study this year for my exam my mom is gonna hate me and say im a disappointment or whatever and i just have no clear perspective on what im gonna do the only thing that excites me like a true i def want to do this is just eating sugar and hopping on tren and just walking around like a faggot smoking cigarettes this will probably fade in the morning and come back again today later in the day but yeah just just kind of lost maybe its the lack of love or something something bs maybe its because i have furthered away from god and that was the only thing that kept me full with no worries and happy whatever i do with my life idrk im gonna stay with my parents more till school starts ive been out all night and day all summer yeah thanks just needed to get this off my chest

Bro, it may also be because you're 14. Take it from an unc who has a lot of years on you and remember what it was like at your age. The tren may not be helping, so definitely consult a professional on that, but aside with that, when you enter puberty, the hormonal changes your body goes through will often make you depressed and think there's no light at the end of the tunnel, but you got to push through. It will get better. You mentioned you feel further away from God. I am a Christian as well, and from my lifetime of faith, there are peaks and valleys and you feel like God is not there. But that's what faith is all about. Read Hebrews 11 the whole chapter in your Bible right now. You'll get through this, brother, I promise you. God bless, and let me know if you need anything.

 

[ILDVCE]

you should prob hop on an ai and maybe take ssris idk man this is weird case

man i mean i split the dose 2 times weekly which works for less aromatisation i might get an ai though and uh yeah ig no ssris though not gay

 

[shouldiusehgh]

man i mean i split the dose 2 times weekly which works for less aromatisation i might get an ai though and uh yeah ig no ssris though not gay

get an ai now, ur e2 is probably very high and ur gonna fuse ur plates
also rep me

 

[ILDVCE]

Bro, it may also be because you're 14. Take it from an unc who has a lot of years on you and remember what it was like at your age. The tren may not be helping, so definitely consult a professional on that, but aside with that, when you enter puberty, the hormonal changes your body goes through will often make you depressed and think there's no light at the end of the tunnel, but you got to push through. It will get better. You mentioned you feel further away from God. I am a Christian as well, and from my lifetime of faith, there are peaks and valleys and you feel like God is not there. But that's what faith is all about. Read Hebrews 11 the whole chapter in your Bible right now. You'll get through this, brother, I promise you. God bless, and let me know if you need anything.

Thanks a lot man its nice to find “roiding” christians and just people who might understand me really thanks a lot gonna go read it also im not on tren rn i want to but i dont want to be that braindead well wait a little bit of time and also if i had a way to describe it its just waiting for christ to take me any day really

 

[dnrjesters]

So idk why but just recently i started having this feeling that nothing matters and that its okay if i die today im still actively living a better life day by day but im just nothing like its either i stare at a wall and laugh hysterically after pinning or just nothing like a smile and a yeah yeah ive lost all drive to study this year for my exam my mom is gonna hate me and say im a disappointment or whatever and i just have no clear perspective on what im gonna do the only thing that excites me like a true i def want to do this is just eating sugar and hopping on tren and just walking around like a faggot smoking cigarettes this will probably fade in the morning and come back again today later in the day but yeah just just kind of lost maybe its the lack of love or something something bs maybe its because i have furthered away from god and that was the only thing that kept me full with no worries and happy whatever i do with my life idrk im gonna stay with my parents more till school starts ive been out all night and day all summer yeah thanks just needed to get this off my chest

wtf

 

[ILDVCE]

get an ai now, ur e2 is probably very high and ur gonna fuse ur plates
also rep me

Rep demon chill man its been a week it hasn’t even saturated fully cause im on test e i have zero sides of high e2 everyone thinks they know better then everyone i will buy an ai though for when it does saturate

 

[ILDVCE]

?

wtf

 

[Grievous]

crashed e2 maybe

 

[5789tool]

Thanks a lot man its nice to find “roiding” christians and just people who might understand me really thanks a lot gonna go read it also im not on tren rn i want to but i dont want to be that braindead well wait a little bit of time and also if i had a way to describe it its just waiting for christ to take me any day really

I hear you, man. There are some days still that I'm like, "What's the meaning of going on?" and felt it would be better not to wake up in the morning. But it is not God who is giving you those thoughts. Since you are a Christian, I assume you believe there is a satan. He is the one that's whispering those thoughts in your mind. You have to rebuke them as best as you can. Pray, get in the Word. If you are severely depressed as well, please don't hesitate to tell someone who cares about you if you need professional help. If you are seriously considering doing something crazy, please please know it is not God's Will and you will hurt a lot of people who care about you if you do that crazy thing. Not to sound corny, but you should watch a film called "It's a Wonderful Life". It's a very old film, so don't be turned off by that, but I think it will give you a new outlook on life. Praying for you, brother. Keep in touch.

 

[ILDVCE]

I hear you, man. There are some days still that I'm like, "What's the meaning of going on?" and felt it would be better not to wake up in the morning. But it is not God who is giving you those thoughts. Since you are a Christian, I assume you believe there is a satan. He is the one that's whispering those thoughts in your mind. You have to rebuke them as best as you can. Pray, get in the Word. If you are severely depressed as well, please don't hesitate to tell someone who cares about you if you need professional help. If you are seriously considering doing something crazy, please please know it is not God's Will and you will hurt a lot of people who care about you if you do that crazy thing. Not to sound corny, but you should watch a film called "It's a Wonderful Life". It's a very old film, so don't be turned off by that, but I think it will give you a new outlook on life. Praying for you, brother. Keep in touch.

Thanks man ill look into it no worries but i have not been depressed or sad i have no reason to be sad and its just mildness not sadness if you know what i mean im not depressed or anything im just like in a state of mildness

 

[ILDVCE]

crashed e2 maybe

I just bought anastrozole right this second

 

[Grievous]

I just bought anastrozole right this second

bro what u weren't even on an AI
AI lowers ur e2

Up the test to 300 and see how u feel

 

[5789tool]

Thanks man ill look into it no worries but i have not been depressed or sad i have no reason to be sad and its just mildness not sadness if you know what i mean im not depressed or anything im just like in a state of mildness

I hear you, bro. Even though I don't know you, I care about anybody who may be hurting. God bless.

 

[childishkillah]

Most mid shit too 100 test and sum proviron

Hop on MK at least nigga
For the anhedonia use 9-me-bc, L-Tyrosine and GB-115

 

[ILDVCE]

bro what u weren't even on an AI
AI lowers ur e2

Up the test to 300 and see how u feel

Yes i wasnt fucking trt dose and split in to two ill see if i do because of acne and stop treating me like a fucking kid ofc i know what it does or else i wouldn’t have hopped on

 

[ILDVCE]

Hop on MK at least nigga
For the anhedonia use 9-me-bc, L-Tyrosine and GB-115

Bloat of doom bro i got school cant let the sensitive young woman see me like that

 

[ILDVCE]

Hop on MK at least nigga
For the anhedonia use 9-me-bc, L-Tyrosine and GB-115

And im gonna add var soon then tren count it as sh

 

[childishkillah]

Bloat of doom bro i got school cant let the sensitive young woman see me like that

HCZT

And im gonna add var soon then tren count it as sh

Stupid you are just using the androgen pathway

 

[ILDVCE]

HCZT

Stupid you are just using the androgen pathway

Cant bother enough to buy diuretics and what pathways would you say to use?

 

[childishkillah]

Cant bother enough to buy diuretics and what pathways would you say to use?

GH/IGF-1 (you should get it RIGHT NOW) and FGFR3

 

[ILDVCE]

GH/IGF-1 (you should get it RIGHT NOW) and FGFR3

Don’t have the money and cannot hold peps bc no fridge and theres no way you just told me to get a fgfr3 inhib i hope god brings you in front of me during judgement day

 

[psycho.]

check to see if ur cycle got laced nigga, there is no way ur laughing hysterically right after pinning

 

[vagrant]

get an ai now, ur e2 is probably very high and ur gonna fuse ur plates
also rep me

tell him to nuke his e2