BillionsMustLove
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**Sorry for my horrible grammar, English is not my first language**
As the title suggests, I have been feeling constantly empty regardless of what I do, I want to become an endocrinologist so I currently study 6 hours a day, train MMA, powerlifting and calisthenics, do coding (specifically webdev), socialize with my friends at least once a week and even have a bimax scheduled but I feel empty 24/7, not that I want anything more or that I dont like what I do, it is actually quite the opposite, I actually like everything that I do and I wouldn't change anything in any aspect of my life but more so that I dont feel like I accomplish anything significant regarding things I like even though in a vacuum I objectively accomplish far more than the average person, it is just that the accomplishments never satisfy me long term. My life constantly feels like eating a plain, unseasoned chicken breast no matter what I do. I am diagnosed with OCD, anxiety, major depressive episode and ADHD and recently quit antidepressants after 3 months of use since they just made me feel more empty than I already felt and am now using just concerta and rexapin and it actually made me feel significantly better even though I am not sure if this is just the honeymoon phase of these drugs. I was wondering if there was anyone that went through things like this and that if they have overcome this feeling and if so, how?
As the title suggests, I have been feeling constantly empty regardless of what I do, I want to become an endocrinologist so I currently study 6 hours a day, train MMA, powerlifting and calisthenics, do coding (specifically webdev), socialize with my friends at least once a week and even have a bimax scheduled but I feel empty 24/7, not that I want anything more or that I dont like what I do, it is actually quite the opposite, I actually like everything that I do and I wouldn't change anything in any aspect of my life but more so that I dont feel like I accomplish anything significant regarding things I like even though in a vacuum I objectively accomplish far more than the average person, it is just that the accomplishments never satisfy me long term. My life constantly feels like eating a plain, unseasoned chicken breast no matter what I do. I am diagnosed with OCD, anxiety, major depressive episode and ADHD and recently quit antidepressants after 3 months of use since they just made me feel more empty than I already felt and am now using just concerta and rexapin and it actually made me feel significantly better even though I am not sure if this is just the honeymoon phase of these drugs. I was wondering if there was anyone that went through things like this and that if they have overcome this feeling and if so, how?
