I feel jealous when I see a ethnic with a white gf

[averagenormie]

I am not a white worshipper or self hating but I'd be lying if I said there isn't a sting like a quiet punch to the gut when I see a Latino or Asian subhuman walking hand in hand with a white woman.

It's not an uncommon site to see a asian nerdcel with a decent looking white mtb or sometimes even HTB in Seattle.
It contradicts the silent doctrine I grew up with, the one that filled in my head by this forum and echoed in manosphere everywhere that White women are reserved for the top shelf and if you're not in that league don't even dream.

So when I see this dynamic unexpected, out of algorithm it sparks a strange inner collision. It's not resentment, but a confusion. Like a scientist watching an experiment defy the laws they thought were absolute.

Part of me feels a silent hope in it that maybe the world isn't as rigid as I thought. Another part battles the old rotter narrative unwilling to let go of its bitter comfort and blissful rules. Are LTRs this random? Is it rebellion? Or was the blackpill always wrong?

dude you're just a simp putting white women on a pedestal