I feel like Narcissus because I grew up ugly

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I have a deep seated intuition that if I was even mildly attractive I would become obsessed with myself

It’s because I grew up starved for any validation or acknowledgment whatsoever. The worst forms of lookism I’ve experienced have come not from hatred, but from indifference and ignorance. So now I’m going down this crazy rabbit hole where I feel I will never be happy with myself or love myself at all unless I become worthy. And when that happens I will fall in love with my face because that’s what I’ve been set up to do from the start. If my surgery plan works out I will love my face more than I could possibly love anyone else. And I think nothing can erase that future.

Deep down I know most of you feel the same (I mean true cells and anyone with bottom of the barrel genetics, not anyone above ltn ). The only thing standing between you and narcissism is opportunity. It’s just unrealized but for many of you it’s in there because of what you went through.

 

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Water

 

[Dip3shx]

high iq reflection/philosophical thread and i agree to a certain extent, but that doesn't mean you can't be compassionate towards your fellow human beings and understand that if you do ascend and happen to meet someone who is ugly or was in the same spot you were in before you ascended that you cant give them compassion and be nice towards them and help them out...

 

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What made me think about this is I got super debloated today for some reason and have been losing some fat too and I took some frauded flashlight selfies and felt this strong feeling. Even with my eyes still misaligned all fucked up I felt a love for myself that I’ve never felt before. despite the fact I’m still ltn it was a 10x improvement over being sub4

 

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high iq reflection/philosophical thread and i agree to a certain extent, but that doesn't mean you can't be compassionate towards your fellow human beings and understand that if you do ascend and happen to meet someone who is ugly or was in the same spot you were in before you ascended that you cant give them compassion and be nice towards them and help them out...

100%, I’ve always been someone who feels compassionate towards others. I used to feel too compassionate for too many people actually and that made lookism and judgement sting even harder growing up. I still love friends, family, and genuinely good people ofc. But now that I feel so much craving and hunger to compensate and make up for the ugliness I’ve lived through, I realize that if I ascend it will change not only my face, but the type of person I am. Not out of character, but out of circumstance. I don’t think I would ever become truly spiteful or hateful because I also grew up around too much of that and am sick of it. But I would probably put myself first more than someone who had a healthier development to be completely honest.

And if there’s one type of people I feel sympathy for it’s the genetic losers, because I know what it’s like to be one, and that will never leave me probably

Holy yap, ramblings of a sub5 Jfl but it’s interesting to think about how intimately your face and your situation growing up shapes who you are

 

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Also, does all of this mean ugly people are actually worse people than good looking people? Is our intuition and built in lookism actually correct? Because ugly people are far more desperate to take opportunities that make up for the gap in their low status and class, while attractive people are more Kantian by design because they just reciprocate what they’ve experienced.