I feel like people view me as stupid for being depressed

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My voice is quite monotone, I talk slow, move slowly, probably don't make as much eye contact as I should and my short term memory has been destroyed by social isolation and trauma damaging my brain.

As a good looking man with those traits people would immediately understand that this person is clearly depressed.

However as an ugly man people will assume that this is the person you are and always have been because you're an ugly loser in their eyes.

 

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[gonion wanter]

ik what ur talking about i experienced the same thing

also when people can tell i’m completely depressed they just go out of their way to abuse me even more; friends, family, girlfriends, coworkers, employees at businesses i frequent, random strangers, everyone in the world pretty much

 

[Deleted member 31457]

ik what ur talking about i experienced the same thing

also when people can tell i’m completely depressed they just go out of their way to abuse me even more; friends, family, girlfriends, coworkers, employees at businesses i frequent, random strangers, everyone in the world pretty much

It's always been that way. I remember being shown a blackpilling video in school when I was 11. Was this cartoon about a guy being bullied in school over and over again. Then one day he fights back and because of this gets in more trouble than the bully would've ever done and then the bully victim gets sent to anger management which leads to a negative spiral and he only gets worse and worse. The moral of the video was to tell a teacher instead of fighting back which is of course retarded. The bully victim fought back once and that was the entire way his character was viewed upon by other people. Someone who beats people up.


As I'm typing this I just realised this exact fucking thing happened to me. I beat up someone who was a part of a group that had been making fun of my appearance for literally years. The teacher thought I had anger issues for this when I should've and could've done way more.

Whereas this one time a guy punched me after I insulted him once. Our year had an entire section of our assembly of this teacher saying stuff like "who could've provoked this boy into doing this" (because the teachers didn't know who it was that got punched and who it was insulting him yet) the guy got punished for punching me but there was never any question about whether he had anger issues despite punching a person they didn't know after they were insulted a singular time.

Something else is that zero sympathy was shown towards me for being punched and I only just realised this now. Yet the person who punched was shown sympathy from the teachers.

And when I punched the person neither me or the person I punched had any sympathy shown to us because both of us were ugly lol

 

[gonion wanter]

It's always been that way. I remember being shown a blackpilling video in school when I was 11. Was this cartoon about a guy being bullied in school over and over again. Then one day he fights back and because of this gets in more trouble than the bully would've ever done and then the bully victim gets sent to anger management which leads to a negative spiral and he only gets worse and worse. The moral of the video was to tell a teacher instead of fighting back which is of course retarded. The bully victim fought back once and that was the entire way his character was viewed upon by other people. Someone who beats people up.


As I'm typing this I just realised this exact fucking thing happened to me. I beat up someone who was a part of a group that had been making fun of my appearance for literally years. The teacher thought I had anger issues for this when I should've and could've done way more.

Whereas this one time a guy punched me after I insulted him once. Our year had an entire section of our assembly of this teacher saying stuff like "who could've provoked this boy into doing this" (because the teachers didn't know who it was that got punched and who it was insulting him yet) the guy got punished for punching me but there was never any question about whether he had anger issues despite punching a person they didn't know after they were insulted a singular time.

Something else is that zero sympathy was shown towards me for being punched and I only just realised this now. Yet the person who punched was shown sympathy from the teachers.

And when I punched the person neither me or the person I punched had any sympathy shown to us because both of us were ugly lol

i’ve had similar things happen. every time i snapped and beat the shit out of a peer or relative who had been constantly abusing me for years, i was viewed as the monster and was the one who would get demonized and receive consequences, while the abusers would garner sympathy due to being viewed as victims and of course would receive no consequences beyond the ass kicking. even their other victims would demonize me for standing up against the abuse and proceed to give all their sympathy to the abusers.