I feel so insanely out of touch with people/society. It's insane.

[MoggerGaston]

Damn are roids included in that service?

no steroids

Most illegal drugs are tested at the testing service. You can also have research chemicals tested with us. There are also certain drugs that you cannot have tested, such as alcohol, weed or truffles. We also do not test steroids, medicines or smartshop products.

You CANNOT test these drugs at DIMS:
Hash and weed
Mushrooms and truffles
Alcohol
Drug raw materials
Medicines
Steroids
Some legal drugs* (smartshop products)
There are various reasons why these drugs cannot be tested. Sometimes we want to test a drug, but it is simply not possible with our methods. In other cases, we are not allowed to test the substance in question.

We do not test medicines
DIMS may only test drugs that are used recreationally, or substances that are used for the (pleasurable) effect. DIMS cannot test substances that are used for medical purposes, i.e. as (un)official medication.

We do not test steroids
DIMS also cannot accept steroids or other performance-enhancing substances such as pre-workout supplements.

Legal drugs: no ‘approved’ substances, but research chemicals
Some legal drugs, especially smart shop products, are not tested by DIMS. Smart shop products are legal substances that are often sold as food supplements and are (more or less) approved for consumption. DIMS does not test these substances. However, there are also substances that are sold ‘legally’ that DIMS does test: the so-called research chemicals. Research chemicals are substances for which no regulations exist yet: they are not approved for consumption, but it is not prohibited to sell them either. When these types of substances are used recreationally, DIMS does test them. You can recognize them by the fact that they are clearly sold as “Research Chemicals”, because if sellers offer them for consumption, they are in violation. Specific examples of research chemicals are 3-CMC, 2F-Ketamine, and 4-FMA. Examples of smartshop products include “Happy caps”, Kratom, or Kanna.

 

[lurking truecel]

Same

 

[MoggerGaston]

Just get a cat man.

im thinking of getting a dog cuz we have a guy allergic to cats in my student-dorm.

but we could get a dog in our student-dorm, 7 of us here, I think it could be cool.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Same

 

[MoggerGaston]

Im 21 and just like you, when I reach your age Id still be the same if I don’t die by then.

Im 19 and just like you

 

[Vincent Freeman]

good
people should be as far away from you as possible

 

[Mrinfinityx]

i never feel like I am part of anything.

I have worked at the tomato-factory for 3 years, yet have made 0 friends there, people you meet outside of work or even interact with in a meaningful way at work.
I am not anti-social in that I do make small-talk with people, I don't hide, I greet people, etc. But it all just remains this shallow bullshit and I feel like I am an outsider here.

Kinda similar how i felt in high-school where I was bullied, or at home where I was abused.

fuck this life man. Humans aren't supposed to feel this out of place, we are tribal animals.

Low trust pill and IQ pill

 

[fabi_magyr.incel]

Humans aren't supposed to feel this out of place, we are tribal animals.

i mean kinda true
fuck anatolian farmers for creating this society

 

[MoggerGaston]

real nigga, people just treat you as a ghost usually they dont invite you anywhere or smth. Brutal cuz other normie like you probably just say hi to someone and is partying with other people rn

I know at this place I work there are group-apps where people meet together for trips every now and then (not often), but NOBODY in this place has ever cared to include me or get me invited.
Like I know that there is a new trip being planned soon and people speak about it openly at my work, cuz it's a thing that -most- people are part of. Yet somehow these motherfuckers don't invite me or care to involve me just fucking lol.

I think if I would ask and show that I really want to be therew too, they would invite me and not mind that I come, so honestly i could easily force myself in. Cuz I am not on bad terms with anyone and most treat me as 'a chill guy'. But it feels so forced to me, like I am not really part of the social-circle or something.

I think it more or less showcases how 'estranged' I am from even my own workplace environment that people don't care if I come along or not, I just exist here, like a ghost. I don't mean anything to anyone.
And such if I make a deal out of not being invited, they would invite me, cuz then not inviting me becomes 'an issue' that nobody even cares about dealing with jfl, more so than leaving me out at that point. But it's not cuz anyone cares about me.

I am a fucking ghost.

 

[Better Call Rope]

I know at this place I work there are group-apps where people meet together for trips every now and then (not often), but NOBODY in this place has ever cared to include me or get me invited.
Like I know that there is a new trip being planned soon and people speak about it openly at my work, cuz it's a thing that -most- people are part of. Yet somehow these motherfuckers don't invite me or care to involve me just fucking lol.

I think if I would ask and show that I really want to be therew too, they would invite me and not mind that I come, so honestly i could easily force myself in. Cuz I am not on bad terms with anyone and most treat me as 'a chill guy'. But it feels so forced to me, like I am not really part of the social-circle or something.

I think it more or less showcases how 'estranged' I am from even my own workplace environment that people don't care if I come along or not, I just exist here, like a ghost. I don't mean anything to anyone.
And such if I make a deal out of not being invited, they would invite me, cuz then not inviting me becomes 'an issue' that nobody even cares about dealing with jfl, more so than leaving me out at that point. But it's not cuz anyone cares about me.

I am a fucking ghost.

Lmao i wonder what is in their minds. Like ppl see you everyday, say hi to you and they will never talk deeper to you or invite you to other places. This is most interesting part.

At this point just make hangouts with ppl from forum and jestermaxx irl, should be good

 

[MoggerGaston]

Low trust pill and IQ pill

completely true.
I can get vibes with individual people when I really do my best to connect with that person, so there is that.

but I always feel when -i am just myself like anyone else- then there's 0 vibe, no connection. So it doesn't really feel authentic if you know what I mean.

Socializing becomes effort in this situation, instead of it flowing authentically and feeling good, it becomes this forced thing I have to go out of my way to get, which I dislike.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Lmao i wonder what is in their minds. Like ppl see you everyday, say hi to you and they will never talk deeper to you or invite you to other places. This is most interesting part.

At this point just make hangouts with ppl from forum and jestermaxx irl, should be good

They just see me as some sort of NPC I suppose. They are nice/kind, smile to me, greet me, make small-talk, and I do the same to them, but you don't mean anything to them. It's like this NPC interaction gesturing shit. And that can go on for months/years untill someone moves away, finds a different job, gets ill. And then the interaction stops and nobody cares, as if it never even existed. It's basically like you ghost eachother in such situation jfl.

It's honestly so fucking cagefuel because it has me wondering say I would literally just refuse to smile or greet them from now on, onwards. just ignore them lmao.
Like, nothing really changes. Instead your interaction with them becomes somewhat 'weird/awkward' I suppose, instead of now being this 'normal NPC-flow of things.'
but really, it has no meaning, any of it. This NPC-interaction is just the easiest way of going about it all but the conclusion is that you don't mean anything to anyone and they dont mean anything to you.

Fuck this shit society man. Why is it like this. I hate it.

 

[fabi_magyr.incel]

I know at this place I work there are group-apps where people meet together for trips every now and then (not often), but NOBODY in this place has ever cared to include me or get me invited.
Like I know that there is a new trip being planned soon and people speak about it openly at my work, cuz it's a thing that -most- people are part of. Yet somehow these motherfuckers don't invite me or care to involve me just fucking lol.

I think if I would ask and show that I really want to be therew too, they would invite me and not mind that I come, so honestly i could easily force myself in. Cuz I am not on bad terms with anyone and most treat me as 'a chill guy'. But it feels so forced to me, like I am not really part of the social-circle or something.

I think it more or less showcases how 'estranged' I am from even my own workplace environment that people don't care if I come along or not, I just exist here, like a ghost. I don't mean anything to anyone.
And such if I make a deal out of not being invited, they would invite me, cuz then not inviting me becomes 'an issue' that nobody even cares about dealing with jfl, more so than leaving me out at that point. But it's not cuz anyone cares about me.

I am a fucking ghost.

Well im included in many stuff but im emotionally disattached. I have to fake emotions, normally im just a rock.

 

[MoggerGaston]

They just see me as some sort of NPC I suppose. They are nice/kind, smile to me, greet me, make small-talk, and I do the same to them, but you don't mean anything to them. It's like this NPC interaction gesturing shit. And that can go on for months/years untill someone moves away, finds a different job, gets ill. And then the interaction stops and nobody cares, as if it never even existed. It's basically like you ghost eachother in such situation jfl.

It's honestly so fucking cagefuel because it has me wondering say I would literally just refuse to smile or greet them from now on, onwards. just ignore them lmao.
Like, nothing really changes. Instead your interaction with them becomes somewhat 'weird/awkward' I suppose, instead of now being this 'normal NPC-flow of things.'
but really, it has no meaning, any of it. This NPC-interaction is just the easiest way of going about it all but the conclusion is that you don't mean anything to anyone and they dont mean anything to you.

Fuck this shit society man. Why is it like this. I hate it.

Also sometimes I do show extra interest into people, ask deeper questions about their life, what they are doing, what they are up to and try to get more meaningfull, more personal. Which they do engage in, but then I find this effort isn't returned. Like they do engage to my questions, but then don't engage back and don't show meaningfull interest in return.

idk

its all fucked.??

maybe im just retarded though honestly in some way idk.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Well im included in many stuff but im emotionally disattached. I have to fake emotions, normally im just a rock.

yes, this is very relatable. How the interactions feel fake, detached.

its not supposed to be like this

 

[Better Call Rope]

They just see me as some sort of NPC I suppose. They are nice/kind, smile to me, greet me, make small-talk, and I do the same to them, but you don't mean anything to them. It's like this NPC interaction gesturing shit. And that can go on for months/years untill someone moves away, finds a different job, gets ill. And then the interaction stop and nobody cares. It's basically like you ghost eachother in such situation jfl.

It's honestly so fucking cagefuel because it has me wondering say I would literally just refuse to smile or greet them from now on, onwards. just ignore them lmao.
Like, nothing really changes. Instead your interaction with them becomes somewhat 'weird/awkward' I suppose, instead of now being this 'normal NPC-flow of things.'
but really, it has no meaning, any of it. This NPC-interaction is just the easiest way of going about it all but the conclusion is that you don't mean anything anyone and they dont mean anything to you.

Fuck this shit society man. Why is it like this. I hate it.

Lmao there has to be reason why they invited other normie like you that acted at the beginning same as you, just said hi etc.
If not everyone from u goofyy ass work is low iq cell someone must think something about and when they hangout that person think or say why we didnt invited that guy, he is in the same job as we.

It partly happend to me when some group of ppl invited me once to some event cuz one guy said thats maybe good idea to invite me but then i never got invited and one time one guy asked on the forum why i didnt got invited and someone just replied "i dont know", thaths all. But that guy and other ppl must have sm in back of their minds

LIFE PILL is brutal. I know what you feel even if you are prob much older than me. Some worse looking, lower iqs idiots prob have better lifes and do some goofy things, enjoy even if they are cursed they can enjoy life partly

 

[Mrinfinityx]

completely true.
I can get vibes with individual people when I really do my best to connect with that person, so there is that.

but I always feel when -i am just myself like anyone else- then there's 0 vibe, no connection. So it doesn't really feel authentic if you know what I mean.

Socializing becomes effort in this situation, instead of it flowing authentically and feeling good, it becomes this forced thing I have to go out of my way to get, which I dislike.

We are only shining at surface levels and at extremely deep levels but not at casual talking at all, which is composing the 80% of normie shit talking, like we could either be the best jestermaxx at times either the mysterious philosophical thinker, but there is not in between consistency cause our caliber is off and we end up always intense or invested too much in topics and in humor, so normies think of us that we tryhard or that we are riddles animals even if it is natural for us, we are just a threat to them cause they cant keep up with us and dont feel comfortable in their dominance at our sides

 

[Better Call Rope]

Czasami okazuję ludziom dodatkowe zainteresowanie, zadaję głębsze pytania o ich życie, o to, co robią, co robią i staram się być bardziej znaczący, bardziej osobisty. W co oni się angażują, ale potem okazuje się, że ten wysiłek nie jest odwzajemniany. Tak jak oni angażują się w moje pytania, ale potem nie angażują się w nie i nie okazują w zamian znaczącego zainteresowania.

nie wiem

wszystko jest popieprzone.??

Może po prostu jestem upośledzony, ale szczerze mówiąc, w jakimś sensie nie wiem.

It's normal for us niggas. They just don't care, but I don't know man, it's weird, maybe they act like they don't see that your activity could fit into what they do or want to do.

 

[fabi_magyr.incel]

yes, this is very relatable. How the interactions feel fake, detached.

its not supposed to be like this

Sometimes im not realizing who i am
I think i have some serious problems like i have alzheimers

 

[MoggerGaston]

Lmao there has to be reason why they invited other normie like you that acted at the beginning same as you, just said hi etc.
If not everyone from u goofyy ass work is low iq cell someone must think something about and when they hangout that person think or say why we didnt invited that guy, he is in the same job as we.

It partly happend to me when some group of ppl invited me once to some event cuz one guy said thats maybe good idea to invite me but then i never got invited and one time one guy asked on the forum why i didnt got invited and someone just replied "i dont know", thaths all. But that guy and other ppl must have sm in back of their minds

LIFE PILL is brutal. I know what you feel even if you are prob much older than me. Some worse looking, lower iqs idiots prob have better lifes and do some goofy things, enjoy even if they are cursed they can enjoy life partly

yeah you are right

my vibe is just -off- in some way and I think its cuz I look low-trust mostly so I am -normally- perceived untrustworthy, unreliable, etc. so people are less keen to invite me when some oofy doofie LTN is seen as a 'safe pick' or something.

 

[MoggerGaston]

We are only shining at surface levels and at extremely deep levels but not at casual talking at all, which is composing the 80% of normie shit talking, like we could either be the best jestermaxx at times either the mysterious philosophical thinker, but there is not in between consistency cause our caliber is off and we end up always intense or invested too much in topics and in humor, so normies think of us that we tryhard or that we are riddles animals even if it is natural for us, we are just a threat to them cause they cant keep up with us and dont feel comfortable in their dominance at our sides

You explain it perfectly. We are either deep or maxxed out on surface-level. The part in between doesn't exist, doesn't feel relevant.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Sometimes im not realizing who i am
I think i have some serious problems like i have alzheimers

what I experience is that I talk, I act, I do things, I go to places, etc. but there is not an emotional part that goes along with it.

Its like you are a robot. I laugh, I smile, but I don't feel happy. I do this, I do that, but I don't feel a rush, no anxiety, no anticipation.

The emotional component, which I did have in childhood, is now gone. I feel like a robot.

 

[Better Call Rope]

yeah you are right

my vibe is just -off- in some way and I think its cuz I look low-trust mostly so I am -normally- perceived untrustworthy, unreliable, etc. so people are less keen to invite me when some oofy doofie LTN is seen as a 'safe pick' or something.

Life Pill is brutal if you are under HTN because it just give you extra rope fuell. Like if you are not really happy with your looks you can just jestermaxx irl with your bro or smth like that.
Hope everything is gonna change for me when ima go to uni, move to another city and ascend to htn

 

[Mrinfinityx]

You explain it perfectly. We are either deep or maxxed out on surface-level. The part in between doesn't exist, doesn't feel relevant.

Imagine normies thinking we are unaware/oblivious about the present moment but they d rope instantly if they got the chance to experience during an hour our hypervigilant, over analytical, detached, dematerialized, lunatic and overflowing self making bound with the universe and eternity at every moment while discerning the invisible lines of the societal matrix and constructs around us

 

[MoggerGaston]

good
people should be as far away from you as possible

Just so that you can have me for yourself huh

 

[Elias144]

Lobotomymaxx bro. All jokes aside, I relate to your experience. It's tough, but I think we just have to accept it. You really aren't alone even though it feels like it. There are people out there like you- this forum is proof. I've actually found a few of them in real life and knowing them brings me a lot of comfort. It feels like I've finally met some of my own "people". Sometimes it really does seem like I'm living as a different species the way I feel alienated in normal interactions. I think all we can do is try to meet some of our own people, find solace in those relationships, and then try to fake our way through normie society as much as possible to get what we need out of it.

 

[McSkziofren]

The werld for deeply (absolutely brootal)