I feel utterly disgusted with myself

[Rothschild]

I'm sitting in bed at 1:57 am on a school night. I just jerked off twice with a vape next to me.

This will probably get ignored and this isn't post but clarity talking I've been past that point.

I feel like a genuinely deplorable human being like if shit

My face is disgusting, my body is disgusting, I don't know what to do with my life.

I don't know what I wanna do when I grow up either I end up homeless or just off myself.

I wish I could just be like a kid again all innocent and happy, miss those times.

Idek why I'm here venting about myself I'm a pile of shit

My own family doesn't even like me, I was always in my brother's shadow I can't even hold up a proper conversation with them, my dad thinks I'm a disappointment, and my mom...I do feel bad for her it feels like she's the only one that somewhat thinks I have potential in life but even that I'm starting to see it's going away. Im a horrible son.

My friends, if you can even call them that, you know it's funny thinking back to elementary I thought I had so many friends how naive I was fuck me. When you get older you really realize how many people actually care about you and that number is probably 0, I don't have friends, I don't have a social life, I don't play sports, I'm shit at school, I take drugs, I'm shit at school, I'm a real fuck up.

The real world is really fucking scary after high school fuck I don't wanna leave I'm gonna be graduating in a year and a half.

Idk what to do with my life honestly I wish there was a heaven and even hell so atleast I know where I'm going in the afterlife but once you get old enough you realize all that shit is futile to think about.

Lmao even online I can't make friends online I'm truly alone.

I doubt anyone is gonna read this or if they do maybe get a couple replies which would be nice to see.

This isn't manifesto or anything retarded like that if u ever think of suicide or try to kill yourself you might be below 70 IQ.

I hope this doesn't come across as me being suicidal cause I'm not suicide is a genuine joke to me.

Good night y'all I'll see u guys tmrw or something idfk

 

[Rothschild]

Dnr nigger kys

 

[Rothschild]

I'm gonna wake up tmrw and look at this and realize how retarded I sound

 

[larpcel]

I hope things improve for you but me saying that does nothing and I can’t do anything sorry

 

[alurmo]

no ones reading ts boyo

 

[Wuzzdio]

Dnr nigger kys

 

[Rothschild]

no ones reading ts boyo

Yeah ik

Anyways w speed

 

[Rothschild]

Jfl

 

[Rothschild]

I hope things improve for you but me saying that does nothing and I can’t do anything sorry

My life's pretty great tbh I'm lucky to be at where I am

 

[larpcel]

My life's pretty great tbh I'm lucky to be at where I am

That’s good but why are u upset then because it could be better?

 

[Rothschild]

That’s good but why are u upset then because it could be better?

Because it doesn't get better

 

[pslturi]

brutal shit we are pretty much in the same boat.

difference is that you still have school meaning you’ll be able to graduate and maybe get a job to live a life.

i don’t have that and i am completely FUCKED in life nigga i am 17 and have done nothing to help my mom with bills or anything i feel like a little bitch most of the time so i understand how you feel

none of what i said will matter but you have it better than me bro. so please go ahead and succeed in something

i’m wising you the best and if you need anyone to talk to dm me here or add my discord it’s “iheartbrunettes”

 

[Rothschild]

brutal shit we are pretty much in the same boat.

difference is that you still have school meaning you’ll be able to graduate and maybe get a job to live a life.

i don’t have that and i am completely FUCKED in life nigga i am 17 and have done nothing to help my mom with bills or anything i feel like a little bitch most of the time so i understand how you feel

none of what i said will matter but you have it better than me bro. so please go ahead and succeed in something

i’m wising you the best and if you need anyone to talk to dm me here or add my discord it’s “iheartbrunettes”

Yeah that sucks bro ur still 17 only a year older then me so we both still have time atp if jr able to try and work a minimum wage job or be able to get a degree you should be able to find a job and a good one at that or try out w new skill and make profit from that

 

[Light_Kira]

DNR not a single molecule boyy

 

[Rothschild]

DNR not a single molecule boyy

Ok

 

[Prøphet]

 

[TrueOgreGymcel]

I read some of it. All I can say is, strap in boy it's going to get worse.

 

[SoundnVision]

I read some of it. All I can say is, strap in boy it's going to get worse.

It will also get worse the longer you fap

 

[Levelspawn]

I'm sitting in bed at 1:57 am on a school night. I just jerked off twice with a vape next to me.

This will probably get ignored and this isn't post but clarity talking I've been past that point.

I feel like a genuinely deplorable human being like if shit

My face is disgusting, my body is disgusting, I don't know what to do with my life.

I don't know what I wanna do when I grow up either I end up homeless or just off myself.

I wish I could just be like a kid again all innocent and happy, miss those times.

Idek why I'm here venting about myself I'm a pile of shit

My own family doesn't even like me, I was always in my brother's shadow I can't even hold up a proper conversation with them, my dad thinks I'm a disappointment, and my mom...I do feel bad for her it feels like she's the only one that somewhat thinks I have potential in life but even that I'm starting to see it's going away. Im a horrible son.

My friends, if you can even call them that, you know it's funny thinking back to elementary I thought I had so many friends how naive I was fuck me. When you get older you really realize how many people actually care about you and that number is probably 0, I don't have friends, I don't have a social life, I don't play sports, I'm shit at school, I take drugs, I'm shit at school, I'm a real fuck up.

The real world is really fucking scary after high school fuck I don't wanna leave I'm gonna be graduating in a year and a half.

Idk what to do with my life honestly I wish there was a heaven and even hell so atleast I know where I'm going in the afterlife but once you get old enough you realize all that shit is futile to think about.

Lmao even online I can't make friends online I'm truly alone.

I doubt anyone is gonna read this or if they do maybe get a couple replies which would be nice to see.

This isn't manifesto or anything retarded like that if u ever think of suicide or try to kill yourself you might be below 70 IQ.

I hope this doesn't come across as me being suicidal cause I'm not suicide is a genuine joke to me.

Good night y'all I'll see u guys tmrw or something idfk

I bet it sucks

 

[Rothschild]

I bet it sucks

yeah it does

 

[beimero]

I don't know what I wanna do when I grow up either I end up homeless or just off myself.
This isn't manifesto or anything retarded like that if u ever think of suicide or try to kill yourself you might be below 70 IQ.

 

[thugmaxx]

try getting off this site, limiting your screen time and hitting the gym more often, drop the vapes and find a stable job and build some discipline in your life

 

[Rothschild]

try getting off this site, limiting your screen time and hitting the gym more often, drop the vapes and find a stable job and build some discipline in your life

ive been locked in on the gym for almost 3 years and i look like shit

i did apply 5 times in the summer and i didnt hear back from 4 of them and the one i did hear back from i was rejected

also i barely go on this site anymore i just go here to ldar for maybe max 20 - 30 minutes and also if i need to look for valuable info

 

[Deleted member 76870]

I wish I could just be like a kid again all innocent and happy, miss those times.

You will miss these times too

 

[thugmaxx]

ive been locked in on the gym for almost 3 years and i look like shit

i did apply 5 times in the summer and i didnt hear back from 4 of them and the one i did hear back from i was rejected

also i barely go on this site anymore i just go here to ldar for maybe max 20 - 30 minutes and also if i need to look for valuable info

if you’ve been locked in for 3 years and look like shit you prob have body dysmorphia or you just eat terrible, try eating cleaner and staying lean, for the jobs if u can’t find one right now make something out of the free time u have (spend time w family, go on walks, try to find God if your religious) keep yourself busy to stop yourself from beating ur shit, get into a hobby you used to enjoy a lot, don’t overcomplicate things to enjoy life

 

[Rothschild]

if you’ve been locked in for 3 years and look like shit you prob have body dysmorphia or you just eat terrible, try eating cleaner and staying lean, for the jobs if u can’t find one right now make something out of the free time u have (spend time w family, go on walks, try to find God if your religious) keep yourself busy to stop yourself from beating ur shit, get into a hobby you used to enjoy a lot, don’t overcomplicate things to enjoy life

Me and my family don't talk

Most religions are kinda shit (eastern ones better imo)

 

[Rothschild]

You will miss these times too

Yeah probably you can never be happy with where you are

 

[Whirr22222]

I was at this point wiht alot of what u said 1 year ago we all gonna make it bro trust me

 

[Outlander]

brutal shit we are pretty much in the same boat.

difference is that you still have school meaning you’ll be able to graduate and maybe get a job to live a life.

i don’t have that and i am completely FUCKED in life nigga i am 17 and have done nothing to help my mom with bills or anything i feel like a little bitch most of the time so i understand how you feel

none of what i said will matter but you have it better than me bro. so please go ahead and succeed in something

i’m wising you the best and if you need anyone to talk to dm me here or add my discord it’s “iheartbrunettes”

You're still pretty young compared to many others here so things still have a good chance of turning around for you. Once you're a bunch of years past graduating high school and you haven't got a gf, no successful social life, and only are able to get shitty jobs, then you're pretty fucked. Much of my family isn't even alive anymore

 

[B0gdY]

I'm sitting in bed at 1:57 am on a school night. I just jerked off twice with a vape next to me.

This will probably get ignored and this isn't post but clarity talking I've been past that point.

I feel like a genuinely deplorable human being like if shit

My face is disgusting, my body is disgusting, I don't know what to do with my life.

I don't know what I wanna do when I grow up either I end up homeless or just off myself.

I wish I could just be like a kid again all innocent and happy, miss those times.

Idek why I'm here venting about myself I'm a pile of shit

My own family doesn't even like me, I was always in my brother's shadow I can't even hold up a proper conversation with them, my dad thinks I'm a disappointment, and my mom...I do feel bad for her it feels like she's the only one that somewhat thinks I have potential in life but even that I'm starting to see it's going away. Im a horrible son.

My friends, if you can even call them that, you know it's funny thinking back to elementary I thought I had so many friends how naive I was fuck me. When you get older you really realize how many people actually care about you and that number is probably 0, I don't have friends, I don't have a social life, I don't play sports, I'm shit at school, I take drugs, I'm shit at school, I'm a real fuck up.

The real world is really fucking scary after high school fuck I don't wanna leave I'm gonna be graduating in a year and a half.

Idk what to do with my life honestly I wish there was a heaven and even hell so atleast I know where I'm going in the afterlife but once you get old enough you realize all that shit is futile to think about.

Lmao even online I can't make friends online I'm truly alone.

I doubt anyone is gonna read this or if they do maybe get a couple replies which would be nice to see.

This isn't manifesto or anything retarded like that if u ever think of suicide or try to kill yourself you might be below 70 IQ.

I hope this doesn't come across as me being suicidal cause I'm not suicide is a genuine joke to me.

Good night y'all I'll see u guys tmrw or something idfk

If needed we can talk nigga , whats yo snap or tik tok

 

[ascendtocl122]

If needed we can talk nigga , whats yo snap or tik tok

yeah genuinely me too

 

[ascendtocl122]

things will work out bro. no point being scared of the future and letting it limit you. get off the vapes and stop worrying, start doing, (as stupid as it sounds). nothing is going to improve without YOU actively making changes in your life and that is completely in your control. things might be bad now but i believe in u bro and i bet everyone who isnt trolling is too

 

[annenisikeyim]

I'm sitting in bed at 1:57 am on a school night. I just jerked off twice with a vape next to me.

This will probably get ignored and this isn't post but clarity talking I've been past that point.

I feel like a genuinely deplorable human being like if shit

My face is disgusting, my body is disgusting, I don't know what to do with my life.

I don't know what I wanna do when I grow up either I end up homeless or just off myself.

I wish I could just be like a kid again all innocent and happy, miss those times.

Idek why I'm here venting about myself I'm a pile of shit

My own family doesn't even like me, I was always in my brother's shadow I can't even hold up a proper conversation with them, my dad thinks I'm a disappointment, and my mom...I do feel bad for her it feels like she's the only one that somewhat thinks I have potential in life but even that I'm starting to see it's going away. Im a horrible son.

My friends, if you can even call them that, you know it's funny thinking back to elementary I thought I had so many friends how naive I was fuck me. When you get older you really realize how many people actually care about you and that number is probably 0, I don't have friends, I don't have a social life, I don't play sports, I'm shit at school, I take drugs, I'm shit at school, I'm a real fuck up.

The real world is really fucking scary after high school fuck I don't wanna leave I'm gonna be graduating in a year and a half.

Idk what to do with my life honestly I wish there was a heaven and even hell so atleast I know where I'm going in the afterlife but once you get old enough you realize all that shit is futile to think about.

Lmao even online I can't make friends online I'm truly alone.

I doubt anyone is gonna read this or if they do maybe get a couple replies which would be nice to see.

This isn't manifesto or anything retarded like that if u ever think of suicide or try to kill yourself you might be below 70 IQ.

I hope this doesn't come across as me being suicidal cause I'm not suicide is a genuine joke to me.

Good night y'all I'll see u guys tmrw or something idfk

it gets better bro you wanna play some games?

 

[brotato78]

no ones reading ts boyo

i did

 

[Rothschild]

If needed we can talk nigga , whats yo snap or tik tok

nah its all g

my tiktok is just my name

 

[Rothschild]

I was at this point wiht alot of what u said 1 year ago we all gonna make it bro trust me

nigga whyd u get banned

 

[Rothschild]

it gets better bro you wanna play some games?

bro idk what games to play

also y u banned

 

[sigamsamson0830]

Rope

 

[McSkziofren]

I just jerked off twice

Do that with. A Stacy

 

[gymceltard]

Nothing wrong with jerking off bro

 

[morono]

I'm sitting in bed at 1:57 am on a school night. I just jerked off twice with a vape next to me.

This will probably get ignored and this isn't post but clarity talking I've been past that point.

I feel like a genuinely deplorable human being like if shit

My face is disgusting, my body is disgusting, I don't know what to do with my life.

I don't know what I wanna do when I grow up either I end up homeless or just off myself.

I wish I could just be like a kid again all innocent and happy, miss those times.

Idek why I'm here venting about myself I'm a pile of shit

My own family doesn't even like me, I was always in my brother's shadow I can't even hold up a proper conversation with them, my dad thinks I'm a disappointment, and my mom...I do feel bad for her it feels like she's the only one that somewhat thinks I have potential in life but even that I'm starting to see it's going away. Im a horrible son.

My friends, if you can even call them that, you know it's funny thinking back to elementary I thought I had so many friends how naive I was fuck me. When you get older you really realize how many people actually care about you and that number is probably 0, I don't have friends, I don't have a social life, I don't play sports, I'm shit at school, I take drugs, I'm shit at school, I'm a real fuck up.

The real world is really fucking scary after high school fuck I don't wanna leave I'm gonna be graduating in a year and a half.

Idk what to do with my life honestly I wish there was a heaven and even hell so atleast I know where I'm going in the afterlife but once you get old enough you realize all that shit is futile to think about.

Lmao even online I can't make friends online I'm truly alone.

I doubt anyone is gonna read this or if they do maybe get a couple replies which would be nice to see.

This isn't manifesto or anything retarded like that if u ever think of suicide or try to kill yourself you might be below 70 IQ.

I hope this doesn't come across as me being suicidal cause I'm not suicide is a genuine joke to me.

Good night y'all I'll see u guys tmrw or something idfk

nigga js lock in its either one day or day one

 

[belowavgheight]

I'm sitting in bed at 1:57 am on a school night. I just jerked off twice with a vape next to me.

This will probably get ignored and this isn't post but clarity talking I've been past that point.

I feel like a genuinely deplorable human being like if shit

My face is disgusting, my body is disgusting, I don't know what to do with my life.

I don't know what I wanna do when I grow up either I end up homeless or just off myself.

I wish I could just be like a kid again all innocent and happy, miss those times.

Idek why I'm here venting about myself I'm a pile of shit

My own family doesn't even like me, I was always in my brother's shadow I can't even hold up a proper conversation with them, my dad thinks I'm a disappointment, and my mom...I do feel bad for her it feels like she's the only one that somewhat thinks I have potential in life but even that I'm starting to see it's going away. Im a horrible son.

My friends, if you can even call them that, you know it's funny thinking back to elementary I thought I had so many friends how naive I was fuck me. When you get older you really realize how many people actually care about you and that number is probably 0, I don't have friends, I don't have a social life, I don't play sports, I'm shit at school, I take drugs, I'm shit at school, I'm a real fuck up.

The real world is really fucking scary after high school fuck I don't wanna leave I'm gonna be graduating in a year and a half.

Idk what to do with my life honestly I wish there was a heaven and even hell so atleast I know where I'm going in the afterlife but once you get old enough you realize all that shit is futile to think about.

Lmao even online I can't make friends online I'm truly alone.

I doubt anyone is gonna read this or if they do maybe get a couple replies which would be nice to see.

This isn't manifesto or anything retarded like that if u ever think of suicide or try to kill yourself you might be below 70 IQ.

I hope this doesn't come across as me being suicidal cause I'm not suicide is a genuine joke to me.

Good night y'all I'll see u guys tmrw or something idfk

military always there. i used to be like that it took a lot of different hard drugs and thinking to get past it but it’s not a forever thing.

 

[Rothschild]

military always there. i used to be like that it took a lot of different hard drugs and thinking to get past it but it’s not a forever thing.

military is like my last option

 

[Rothschild]

Do that with. A Stacy

all the pornstars i jerk off too are stacy

 

[belowavgheight]

military is like my last option

well it should be fs. but a way to make decent money without being good at anything and theres a chance u die and get put out of ur misery lmao

 

[Rothschild]

well it should be fs. but a way to make decent money without being good at anything and theres a chance u die and get put out of ur misery lmao

yeah maybe lmfao

 

[Deleted member 282725]

I'm sitting in bed at 1:57 am on a school night. I just jerked off twice with a vape next to me.

This will probably get ignored and this isn't post but clarity talking I've been past that point.

I feel like a genuinely deplorable human being like if shit

My face is disgusting, my body is disgusting, I don't know what to do with my life.

I don't know what I wanna do when I grow up either I end up homeless or just off myself.

I wish I could just be like a kid again all innocent and happy, miss those times.

Idek why I'm here venting about myself I'm a pile of shit

My own family doesn't even like me, I was always in my brother's shadow I can't even hold up a proper conversation with them, my dad thinks I'm a disappointment, and my mom...I do feel bad for her it feels like she's the only one that somewhat thinks I have potential in life but even that I'm starting to see it's going away. Im a horrible son.

My friends, if you can even call them that, you know it's funny thinking back to elementary I thought I had so many friends how naive I was fuck me. When you get older you really realize how many people actually care about you and that number is probably 0, I don't have friends, I don't have a social life, I don't play sports, I'm shit at school, I take drugs, I'm shit at school, I'm a real fuck up.

The real world is really fucking scary after high school fuck I don't wanna leave I'm gonna be graduating in a year and a half.

Idk what to do with my life honestly I wish there was a heaven and even hell so atleast I know where I'm going in the afterlife but once you get old enough you realize all that shit is futile to think about.

Lmao even online I can't make friends online I'm truly alone.

I doubt anyone is gonna read this or if they do maybe get a couple replies which would be nice to see.

This isn't manifesto or anything retarded like that if u ever think of suicide or try to kill yourself you might be below 70 IQ.

I hope this doesn't come across as me being suicidal cause I'm not suicide is a genuine joke to me.

Good night y'all I'll see u guys tmrw or something idfk

Relatable this year gonna be OUR year tho trust

 

[Northmoid]

no ones reading ts boyo

I read this shi bro

 

[Northmoid]

military always there. i used to be like that it took a lot of different hard drugs and thinking to get past it but it’s not a forever thing.

Yeah so you can go die for Israel or some rich cunt

 

[belowavgheight]

Yeah so you can go die for Israel or some rich cunt

yup all glory to the united states of israel