I feel utterly disgusted with myself

[Sayori]

I'm sitting in bed at 1:57 am on a school night. I just jerked off twice with a vape next to me.

This will probably get ignored and this isn't post but clarity talking I've been past that point.

I feel like a genuinely deplorable human being like if shit

My face is disgusting, my body is disgusting, I don't know what to do with my life.

I don't know what I wanna do when I grow up either I end up homeless or just off myself.

I wish I could just be like a kid again all innocent and happy, miss those times.

Idek why I'm here venting about myself I'm a pile of shit

My own family doesn't even like me, I was always in my brother's shadow I can't even hold up a proper conversation with them, my dad thinks I'm a disappointment, and my mom...I do feel bad for her it feels like she's the only one that somewhat thinks I have potential in life but even that I'm starting to see it's going away. Im a horrible son.

My friends, if you can even call them that, you know it's funny thinking back to elementary I thought I had so many friends how naive I was fuck me. When you get older you really realize how many people actually care about you and that number is probably 0, I don't have friends, I don't have a social life, I don't play sports, I'm shit at school, I take drugs, I'm shit at school, I'm a real fuck up.

The real world is really fucking scary after high school fuck I don't wanna leave I'm gonna be graduating in a year and a half.

Idk what to do with my life honestly I wish there was a heaven and even hell so atleast I know where I'm going in the afterlife but once you get old enough you realize all that shit is futile to think about.

Lmao even online I can't make friends online I'm truly alone.

I doubt anyone is gonna read this or if they do maybe get a couple replies which would be nice to see.

This isn't manifesto or anything retarded like that if u ever think of suicide or try to kill yourself you might be below 70 IQ.

I hope this doesn't come across as me being suicidal cause I'm not suicide is a genuine joke to me.

Good night y'all I'll see u guys tmrw or something idfk

you got this bhai

life is hard but it gets better

 

[Zyylllx]

I'm sitting in bed at 1:57 am on a school night. I just jerked off twice with a vape next to me.

This will probably get ignored and this isn't post but clarity talking I've been past that point.

I feel like a genuinely deplorable human being like if shit

My face is disgusting, my body is disgusting, I don't know what to do with my life.

I don't know what I wanna do when I grow up either I end up homeless or just off myself.

I wish I could just be like a kid again all innocent and happy, miss those times.

Idek why I'm here venting about myself I'm a pile of shit

My own family doesn't even like me, I was always in my brother's shadow I can't even hold up a proper conversation with them, my dad thinks I'm a disappointment, and my mom...I do feel bad for her it feels like she's the only one that somewhat thinks I have potential in life but even that I'm starting to see it's going away. Im a horrible son.

My friends, if you can even call them that, you know it's funny thinking back to elementary I thought I had so many friends how naive I was fuck me. When you get older you really realize how many people actually care about you and that number is probably 0, I don't have friends, I don't have a social life, I don't play sports, I'm shit at school, I take drugs, I'm shit at school, I'm a real fuck up.

The real world is really fucking scary after high school fuck I don't wanna leave I'm gonna be graduating in a year and a half.

Idk what to do with my life honestly I wish there was a heaven and even hell so atleast I know where I'm going in the afterlife but once you get old enough you realize all that shit is futile to think about.

Lmao even online I can't make friends online I'm truly alone.

I doubt anyone is gonna read this or if they do maybe get a couple replies which would be nice to see.

This isn't manifesto or anything retarded like that if u ever think of suicide or try to kill yourself you might be below 70 IQ.

I hope this doesn't come across as me being suicidal cause I'm not suicide is a genuine joke to me.

Good night y'all I'll see u guys tmrw or something idfk

I hope youre alright man, not anything I can change but I hope you get better

 

[Zyylllx]

Relatable this year gonna be OUR year tho trust

Definitely

 

[Rothschild]

I hope youre alright man, not anything I can change but I hope you get better

thanks bro

 

[Rothschild]

you got this bhai

life is hard but it gets better

ty bhai ill pray and vent to my anime waifus

 

[Rothschild]

Relatable this year gonna be OUR year tho trust

deadass bro