i finally figured out what my problem is

[swt]

i dont actually love anyone, i love the idea of people

thats why after a couple months i completely lack love for people, after a couple months of dating someone i just start cheating
i go to meet someone new so i can obsess over them for a couple months and then go to obsess over someone else after, its a loop im forever stuck in

i came to my conclusion, i dont feel real love, ill never be able to, im just really obsessive and mentally ill, what i want isnt a life with someone i love, i want someone to turn me and give me attention for a couple months until i get bored and cheat with someone else and do the same thing with that 'someone else' a couple months later. ill never be happy and its my own fault

 

[swt]

the bigger problem is the fact that i cant leave people after im bored, i still feel emotionally attached yet im disgusted by them, so i have no other option but to cheat

 

[swt]

i need to just kill myself, thats the reality, thats the only way i can save not only myself but a bunch of other innocent girls who are just looking for something real

 

[swt]

im a slave to my own flaws

 

[swt]

i need to just kill myself

i wonder how long this all will last until i do

 

[gookcelriceR]

About time my goat posted a thread

 

[kazama]

my god man Im really AMAZED u use this here as a diary??? I LITERALLY READ UR NAME AND ALREADY SAW IT WOULDN'T BE SOMETHING NORMAL, I CONTINUED FOR TWO SENTENCES AND ONLY FINISHED
Cuidado mano, se eu te achar vou te dar um apavoro

 

[swt]

my god man Im really AMAZED u use this here as a diary??? I LITERALLY READ UR NAME AND ALREADY SAW IT WOULDN'T BE SOMETHING NORMAL, I CONTINUED FOR TWO SENTENCES AND ONLY FINISHED
Cuidado mano, se eu te achar vou te dar um apavoro

nonetheless, i like your title, rip wifi

 

[swt]

About time my goat posted a thread

love you bro

 

[kazama]

nonetheless, i like your title, rip wifi

rip wifi não te darei mais um apavoro nas ruas

 

[gookcelriceR]

love you bro

Same bro. I come back and your threads never lost their essence

 

[batman1997]

Hmmm