mijih
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there is this group i chilled with at my friends house for the past week. like there are 2 pairs alr. then there is this girl who isn’t even just good looking but we really vibed had a lot of fun and even cuddled. she is one of the best friends of my good friend where we stayed. it all worked well, but only under one condition i had to be a little drunk.
(side story, only read if you are into detail)
i used to drink a lot, like drinking my
problems away till i blacked out when i was also like really mentally ill. i was know clean for 11months.
the first days i drank with her and i drank enough to overcome my mentally ill nd mind.
i always have this feeling of not being able to participate, have fun and wanting to rot away in my room. but when i’m drunk it feels like i can forget this shit.
so to come to the point. we met like 3 times in this group. today was the last time. i knew she wanted me to make a move, i knew she told my friend that she liked me and for once my looks weren’t the biggest problem. it was just me….
i couldn’t.
why can’t i be normal. my nd mind doesn’t let me have fun, i always feel like i would be some nasty dude when i even think abt making a move. it’s so bad i think i fked up hard. the only chance i ever got to have someone truly nice. she is just a normal funny, nice and loyal girl. no hoe, no cheating, no having exaggerated expectations.
i wished i has drank so much i would have made a moved or atleast asked her abt meeting. but i didn’t and i could see at the end how she was disappointed.
like my looks aren’t disappointing enough
but she left so early and we didn’t even spend one second…
also the alcohol i consumed gave me extreme nostalgic mental problems. i relapsed 5min into going home…
(side story, only read if you are into detail)
i used to drink a lot, like drinking my
problems away till i blacked out when i was also like really mentally ill. i was know clean for 11months.
the first days i drank with her and i drank enough to overcome my mentally ill nd mind.
i always have this feeling of not being able to participate, have fun and wanting to rot away in my room. but when i’m drunk it feels like i can forget this shit.
so to come to the point. we met like 3 times in this group. today was the last time. i knew she wanted me to make a move, i knew she told my friend that she liked me and for once my looks weren’t the biggest problem. it was just me….
i couldn’t.
why can’t i be normal. my nd mind doesn’t let me have fun, i always feel like i would be some nasty dude when i even think abt making a move. it’s so bad i think i fked up hard. the only chance i ever got to have someone truly nice. she is just a normal funny, nice and loyal girl. no hoe, no cheating, no having exaggerated expectations.
i wished i has drank so much i would have made a moved or atleast asked her abt meeting. but i didn’t and i could see at the end how she was disappointed.
like my looks aren’t disappointing enough
but she left so early and we didn’t even spend one second…
also the alcohol i consumed gave me extreme nostalgic mental problems. i relapsed 5min into going home…
sad son
