idnap
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Not only am I moneycel subject to waking up at 6AM everyday like a true slave because I'm reliant on this slave education system, but im also KHHV at 17, AND I need to fucking forcefully participate in a humilation ritual every fucking day.
I fucking hate walking in the halls knowing that everyones subconciously analyzing my recession, asymmetry, eye to eye at 5'8.
And if they weren't before now with BP being on everyones FYP they definetly are now.
The MTNs who put me down in freshman year are still living better lives than me distractionmaxxing in their nt circles. They're content with their lives while I've been suffering silently all these years. All that's on their mind are random normie drama on their feed and video games.
I don't see the world so natively to what's immediate around me. I don't think about what shits going on in my dead town normie school when I know there's people in Miami living the life that I want to live, somewhere else, a CL is slaying at a club.
No "Haircut" is saving me. I'm already hairmaxxed. Bonesmashing only does so much for me. I need to cut up my whole fucking face and skull and reforge it.
Even though I'm probably non existent to the average foid I hate the fact they don't see me, and that nothing will change if I do nothing about it and will rot wageslaving.
All while my bluepilled parents are retartded and fucking clueless of the hell they've put me in. Won't even bother asking them for anything like simply ALLOWING ME to BUY MY OWN peps when my retartded fucking dad acts like buying the $5 of milk is such a burden I've put on him. Seriously, my life is such a fucking joke. At the Christmas family function my relatives would joke with me bout so have you gotten a girlfriend yet as if I could ever physically even attract one. Fucking cageful everywhere i go.
All I hear everyday is my dad's infinetly long one sided conversation as he's drugged out on perscrptions ricting the same stories everyday to his only friend his ltb ethnic wife.
My grades have gradually declined over the years, so I've backed myself up against a wall where my only way out is to moneymaxx a high income skill or essentially rope.
I fucking hate walking in the halls knowing that everyones subconciously analyzing my recession, asymmetry, eye to eye at 5'8.
And if they weren't before now with BP being on everyones FYP they definetly are now.
The MTNs who put me down in freshman year are still living better lives than me distractionmaxxing in their nt circles. They're content with their lives while I've been suffering silently all these years. All that's on their mind are random normie drama on their feed and video games.
I don't see the world so natively to what's immediate around me. I don't think about what shits going on in my dead town normie school when I know there's people in Miami living the life that I want to live, somewhere else, a CL is slaying at a club.
No "Haircut" is saving me. I'm already hairmaxxed. Bonesmashing only does so much for me. I need to cut up my whole fucking face and skull and reforge it.
Even though I'm probably non existent to the average foid I hate the fact they don't see me, and that nothing will change if I do nothing about it and will rot wageslaving.
All while my bluepilled parents are retartded and fucking clueless of the hell they've put me in. Won't even bother asking them for anything like simply ALLOWING ME to BUY MY OWN peps when my retartded fucking dad acts like buying the $5 of milk is such a burden I've put on him. Seriously, my life is such a fucking joke. At the Christmas family function my relatives would joke with me bout so have you gotten a girlfriend yet as if I could ever physically even attract one. Fucking cageful everywhere i go.
All I hear everyday is my dad's infinetly long one sided conversation as he's drugged out on perscrptions ricting the same stories everyday to his only friend his ltb ethnic wife.
My grades have gradually declined over the years, so I've backed myself up against a wall where my only way out is to moneymaxx a high income skill or essentially rope.
