I fucking hate myself so fucking much

[NormieWithBigPP]

I can't stop thinking about this. A few months ago (beginning of school year) I had no feelings for my current oneitis but I was crushing on her friend. The friend didn't like me but my now-oneitis so obviously wanted me and I'm so fucking stupid for not seeing it. Time after time she would give me IOI's and be nice to me and look at me and laugh at my retarded jokes and ask for my opinion on things and take pictures of me when I wasn't looking (I know this because she would show them to me afterwards) and even fucking ask me to dance with her and her friends at homecoming, and I didn't even fucking know this chick before the beginning of the year. I barely even gave her any attention back. I thought she was just giving me pity because she knew I was kind of an outcast because I'm a total sperg and kind of an asshole IRL. Year went on and she really started to see why I have so few friends because, again, I'm a sperg and an asshole. Also started getting really bad acne a few months into the year, which dropped me at least a PSL point (am on accutane so this will be fixed and I am also finishing puberty so I'll look even better this coming year). Anyway, she started getting really pissed at me and didn't talk to me as much. I think that's cooling down and she's alright with me again but idk if she'll ever feel the same way she did for me before and I do for her now

I doubt she gives a shit about me anymore, but I'm going to message her soon and tell her and see what happens. I just want her to love me again Any suggestions on how to tell someone you like her over text?
inb4 "brag thread"

TL;DR ONEITIS WANTED TO FUCK ME A WHILE AGO AND NOW I WANT TO FUCK HER AND SHE PROBABLY DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME ANYMORE

 

[Deleted member 7917]

inb4 "brag thread"

Not a brag thread, more a cry for help thread

 

[Deleted member 5859]

Yeah, same thing happened to me, a girl liked me a few years ago and I was dumb to not make a move, now I have a huge crush on her mut she has moved on now.

 

[hebbewem]

Dn rd . If you dont like yourself just end it