I got everything I wanted but my mind is destroyed.

[Chudmaxxer67]

all i wanted was to feel accepted. This started years ago years ago when my brother would bully me every day for being fat. I couldn't go a day without hearing the words fat and ugly. every day I would be tormented with this shit constantly. I had the obbession of starting the gym since i was 11, i finally joined when I turned 14. I never skipped days, even when there we're big events for me i'd always choose the gym. The gym was always there for me at my lowest. I started to lose weight and look much better, at firs tmany people cheered me for it but the further i went they started to almost hate on me. I truly discovered looksmaxxing close to when i turned 15. everything hit me hard look good or you are nothing. I never took it too seriously till one day i realized how much i would get bullied by people and how girls never wanted me or i'd get played every time. I finally lost the fat and looked good for a time. This was the summer of me being 15 i was able to get some girls and be more confident in my self everything was good. Till i quickly got attached to this one girl. she never truly liked me i just thought she did because she showed me some decency. This made me enraged for about 2 months straight because i was so attached. Finally i forgot about her and the grade 10 school year started, new people new school, girls left and right I was finally getting what i wanted. Then I realized how i was small and decided to start my bulk this was from novemeber to february but mainly to december. I Put on fucking 45lbs in 3 months, almost pure fat. I came back from winter break, many girls laughed at me, talked behind my back, unadded me, and completely ignored me. All my "friends" made fun of me and it was hell. I went many nights in a row cryign about my appearance. I finally decided I will start taking steroids. February 23 i started, they did not help me how i thought they would, i became very bloated and kept bulking and had very high e2, this was the ugliest i had ever been. I decided to finally start the cut after weeks/months of being bullied for the bulk. I had put on lots of size from roids, became the biggest and strongest in my grade. Here i am now, as of late june. I have now gotten to a relatively decent body fat %, I am still getting stronger, upgrading looks every day, and overall progressing. Now don't think this is the end and im all happy. I am still that sensitive young boy who cries almost every night from his apperance and small comments. I went to a party last night and it was very shit like no one really there and a bunch of weirdos but this one girl came, she was very very attractive, we kept playing "eye tag" and it was very clear she wanted me to talk to her or something but i am still in that loser mentallity of being fat and ugly. i hate this and everything its the next day after the party and i am regretting so much not talking to her i dont fucking understand why i am so attached, i wish i could've lived a normal healthy life.

 

[s66ee]

DNR

 

[L(oser)ooksmaxxer]

D to the N to the R

 

[wish_iwerehtn]

dnr

 

[Chudmaxxer67]

DNR

replying was optional G

 

[Soy_Beta_Cuckold228]

all i wanted was to feel accepted. This started years ago years ago when my brother would bully me every day for being fat. I couldn't go a day without hearing the words fat and ugly. every day I would be tormented with this shit constantly. I had the obbession of starting the gym since i was 11, i finally joined when I turned 14. I never skipped days, even when there we're big events for me i'd always choose the gym. The gym was always there for me at my lowest. I started to lose weight and look much better, at firs tmany people cheered me for it but the further i went they started to almost hate on me. I truly discovered looksmaxxing close to when i turned 15. everything hit me hard look good or you are nothing. I never took it too seriously till one day i realized how much i would get bullied by people and how girls never wanted me or i'd get played every time. I finally lost the fat and looked good for a time. This was the summer of me being 15 i was able to get some girls and be more confident in my self everything was good. Till i quickly got attached to this one girl. she never truly liked me i just thought she did because she showed me some decency. This made me enraged for about 2 months straight because i was so attached. Finally i forgot about her and the grade 10 school year started, new people new school, girls left and right I was finally getting what i wanted. Then I realized how i was small and decided to start my bulk this was from novemeber to february but mainly to december. I Put on fucking 45lbs in 3 months, almost pure fat. I came back from winter break, many girls laughed at me, talked behind my back, unadded me, and completely ignored me. All my "friends" made fun of me and it was hell. I went many nights in a row cryign about my appearance. I finally decided I will start taking steroids. February 23 i started, they did not help me how i thought they would, i became very bloated and kept bulking and had very high e2, this was the ugliest i had ever been. I decided to finally start the cut after weeks/months of being bullied for the bulk. I had put on lots of size from roids, became the biggest and strongest in my grade. Here i am now, as of late june. I have now gotten to a relatively decent body fat %, I am still getting stronger, upgrading looks every day, and overall progressing. Now don't think this is the end and im all happy. I am still that sensitive young boy who cries almost every night from his apperance and small comments. I went to a party last night and it was very shit like no one really there and a bunch of weirdos but this one girl came, she was very very attractive, we kept playing "eye tag" and it was very clear she wanted me to talk to her or something but i am still in that loser mentallity of being fat and ugly. i hate this and everything its the next day after the party and i am regretting so much not talking to her i dont fucking understand why i am so attached, i wish i could've lived a normal healthy life.

 

[Veroa]

all i wanted was to feel accepted. This started years ago years ago when my brother would bully me every day for being fat. I couldn't go a day without hearing the words fat and ugly. every day I would be tormented with this shit constantly. I had the obbession of starting the gym since i was 11, i finally joined when I turned 14. I never skipped days, even when there we're big events for me i'd always choose the gym. The gym was always there for me at my lowest. I started to lose weight and look much better, at firs tmany people cheered me for it but the further i went they started to almost hate on me. I truly discovered looksmaxxing close to when i turned 15. everything hit me hard look good or you are nothing. I never took it too seriously till one day i realized how much i would get bullied by people and how girls never wanted me or i'd get played every time. I finally lost the fat and looked good for a time. This was the summer of me being 15 i was able to get some girls and be more confident in my self everything was good. Till i quickly got attached to this one girl. she never truly liked me i just thought she did because she showed me some decency. This made me enraged for about 2 months straight because i was so attached. Finally i forgot about her and the grade 10 school year started, new people new school, girls left and right I was finally getting what i wanted. Then I realized how i was small and decided to start my bulk this was from novemeber to february but mainly to december. I Put on fucking 45lbs in 3 months, almost pure fat. I came back from winter break, many girls laughed at me, talked behind my back, unadded me, and completely ignored me. All my "friends" made fun of me and it was hell. I went many nights in a row cryign about my appearance. I finally decided I will start taking steroids. February 23 i started, they did not help me how i thought they would, i became very bloated and kept bulking and had very high e2, this was the ugliest i had ever been. I decided to finally start the cut after weeks/months of being bullied for the bulk. I had put on lots of size from roids, became the biggest and strongest in my grade. Here i am now, as of late june. I have now gotten to a relatively decent body fat %, I am still getting stronger, upgrading looks every day, and overall progressing. Now don't think this is the end and im all happy. I am still that sensitive young boy who cries almost every night from his apperance and small comments. I went to a party last night and it was very shit like no one really there and a bunch of weirdos but this one girl came, she was very very attractive, we kept playing "eye tag" and it was very clear she wanted me to talk to her or something but i am still in that loser mentallity of being fat and ugly. i hate this and everything its the next day after the party and i am regretting so much not talking to her i dont fucking understand why i am so attached, i wish i could've lived a normal healthy life.

just enjoy the fruits of the labor stop stressing be confident

 

[alfxze]

dancing abs they said

 

[Chudmaxxer67]

just enjoy the fruits of the labor stop stressing be confident

as i said i still have that voice in my head saying i am fat and ugly, it is so hard to be confident lmfao

 

[Chudmaxxer67]

dancing abs they said

all cuz of tiktok

 

[Veroa]

as i said i still have that voice in my head saying i am fat and ugly, it is so hard to be confident lmfao

drink / pregab / drugs or just chill the fuck out and look in the mirror and remind yourself how far u come

 

[Chudmaxxer67]

drink / pregab / drugs or just chill the fuck out and look in the mirror and remind yourself how far u come

have tried pregab was actually very helpful tbh, just so hard to get shit into canada

 

[accinr]

cool story however please watch the attached video to know my reaction to this information

 

[wretched_paradox]

all i wanted was to feel accepted. This started years ago years ago when my brother would bully me every day for being fat. I couldn't go a day without hearing the words fat and ugly. every day I would be tormented with this shit constantly. I had the obbession of starting the gym since i was 11, i finally joined when I turned 14. I never skipped days, even when there we're big events for me i'd always choose the gym. The gym was always there for me at my lowest. I started to lose weight and look much better, at firs tmany people cheered me for it but the further i went they started to almost hate on me. I truly discovered looksmaxxing close to when i turned 15. everything hit me hard look good or you are nothing. I never took it too seriously till one day i realized how much i would get bullied by people and how girls never wanted me or i'd get played every time. I finally lost the fat and looked good for a time. This was the summer of me being 15 i was able to get some girls and be more confident in my self everything was good. Till i quickly got attached to this one girl. she never truly liked me i just thought she did because she showed me some decency. This made me enraged for about 2 months straight because i was so attached. Finally i forgot about her and the grade 10 school year started, new people new school, girls left and right I was finally getting what i wanted. Then I realized how i was small and decided to start my bulk this was from novemeber to february but mainly to december. I Put on fucking 45lbs in 3 months, almost pure fat. I came back from winter break, many girls laughed at me, talked behind my back, unadded me, and completely ignored me. All my "friends" made fun of me and it was hell. I went many nights in a row cryign about my appearance. I finally decided I will start taking steroids. February 23 i started, they did not help me how i thought they would, i became very bloated and kept bulking and had very high e2, this was the ugliest i had ever been. I decided to finally start the cut after weeks/months of being bullied for the bulk. I had put on lots of size from roids, became the biggest and strongest in my grade. Here i am now, as of late june. I have now gotten to a relatively decent body fat %, I am still getting stronger, upgrading looks every day, and overall progressing. Now don't think this is the end and im all happy. I am still that sensitive young boy who cries almost every night from his apperance and small comments. I went to a party last night and it was very shit like no one really there and a bunch of weirdos but this one girl came, she was very very attractive, we kept playing "eye tag" and it was very clear she wanted me to talk to her or something but i am still in that loser mentallity of being fat and ugly. i hate this and everything its the next day after the party and i am regretting so much not talking to her i dont fucking understand why i am so attached, i wish i could've lived a normal healthy life.

Fuck man. I wish we never had to go through these things. These experiences are so unnatural. The rate of obesity 100 years ago and before were so low, almost no one had to suffer from obesity.

Lookism wasn't so competitive, hypergamy wasn't so high. The average man had a chance.

Now we all live in the most superficial and brutal society. It's a tragic comedy to those of us who have an overactive mind, one that is able to read human nature, not like normies. I was also obese, and I know how brutal life can be. I was also bullied, ridiculed most of my life until I lost a lot of weight. People just don't see me anymore, which, is just as miserable.

I hope you find your people, you still have time. Don't spend too much time on forums or communities unless you want to research about pharmacology and social dynamics. Much love brother, don't let the nihilism consume you.

 

[Chudmaxxer67]

Fuck man. I wish we never had to go through these things. These experiences are so unnatural. The rate of obesity 100 years ago and before were so low, almost no one had to suffer from obesity.

Lookism wasn't so competitive, hypergamy wasn't so high. The average man had a chance.

Now we all live in the most superficial and brutal society. It's a tragic comedy to those of us who have an overactive mind, one that is able to read human nature, not like normies. I was also obese, and I know how brutal life can be. I was also bullied, ridiculed most of my life until I lost a lot of weight. People just don't see me anymore, which, is just as miserable.

I hope you find your people, you still have time. Don't spend too much time on forums or communities unless you want to research about pharmacology and social dynamics. Much love brother, don't let the nihilism consume you.

Yo man, appreciate you taking the time to write that. I'm not trying to let the nihilism eat me alive like it used to, but it's hard some days. I just want to feel normal actually enjoy life instead of obsessing over every little thing. Thanks brother, much love.

 

[Chudmaxxer67]

dnr

i mog u

 

[gskos]

i mog u

SONbrero

 

[Cr™]

.

 

[Chudmaxxer67]

i read every part of this , you seem like a very interesting person can you pm me?

send ur dc

 

[Cr™]

send ur dc

private messaged u it

 

[ØUROBOROS]

Dnr nigger

 

[Thief]

cool story however please watch the attached video to know my reaction to this information

 

[rsj]

all i wanted was to feel accepted. This started years ago years ago when my brother would bully me every day for being fat. I couldn't go a day without hearing the words fat and ugly. every day I would be tormented with this shit constantly. I had the obbession of starting the gym since i was 11, i finally joined when I turned 14. I never skipped days, even when there we're big events for me i'd always choose the gym. The gym was always there for me at my lowest. I started to lose weight and look much better, at firs tmany people cheered me for it but the further i went they started to almost hate on me. I truly discovered looksmaxxing close to when i turned 15. everything hit me hard look good or you are nothing. I never took it too seriously till one day i realized how much i would get bullied by people and how girls never wanted me or i'd get played every time. I finally lost the fat and looked good for a time. This was the summer of me being 15 i was able to get some girls and be more confident in my self everything was good. Till i quickly got attached to this one girl. she never truly liked me i just thought she did because she showed me some decency. This made me enraged for about 2 months straight because i was so attached. Finally i forgot about her and the grade 10 school year started, new people new school, girls left and right I was finally getting what i wanted. Then I realized how i was small and decided to start my bulk this was from novemeber to february but mainly to december. I Put on fucking 45lbs in 3 months, almost pure fat. I came back from winter break, many girls laughed at me, talked behind my back, unadded me, and completely ignored me. All my "friends" made fun of me and it was hell. I went many nights in a row cryign about my appearance. I finally decided I will start taking steroids. February 23 i started, they did not help me how i thought they would, i became very bloated and kept bulking and had very high e2, this was the ugliest i had ever been. I decided to finally start the cut after weeks/months of being bullied for the bulk. I had put on lots of size from roids, became the biggest and strongest in my grade. Here i am now, as of late june. I have now gotten to a relatively decent body fat %, I am still getting stronger, upgrading looks every day, and overall progressing. Now don't think this is the end and im all happy. I am still that sensitive young boy who cries almost every night from his apperance and small comments. I went to a party last night and it was very shit like no one really there and a bunch of weirdos but this one girl came, she was very very attractive, we kept playing "eye tag" and it was very clear she wanted me to talk to her or something but i am still in that loser mentallity of being fat and ugly. i hate this and everything its the next day after the party and i am regretting so much not talking to her i dont fucking understand why i am so attached, i wish i could've lived a normal healthy life.

if you were able to lose the weight normally and go to the gym alot i dont see why you decided to hope on roids so you could be dependent on them until you die and have all the side effects. you could've used something for weightloss like reta but you decided to take roids and be a gymcell? just odd as fuck. and 45lbs in three months? you weren't worried like half-way through?

 

[ase]

Lol chill out. Nothing is destroyed.

 

[ivan.kuk]

I just want a virgin mang

 

[Youiayri]

all i wanted was to feel accepted. This started years ago years ago when my brother would bully me every day for being fat. I couldn't go a day without hearing the words fat and ugly. every day I would be tormented with this shit constantly. I had the obbession of starting the gym since i was 11, i finally joined when I turned 14. I never skipped days, even when there we're big events for me i'd always choose the gym. The gym was always there for me at my lowest. I started to lose weight and look much better, at firs tmany people cheered me for it but the further i went they started to almost hate on me. I truly discovered looksmaxxing close to when i turned 15. everything hit me hard look good or you are nothing. I never took it too seriously till one day i realized how much i would get bullied by people and how girls never wanted me or i'd get played every time. I finally lost the fat and looked good for a time. This was the summer of me being 15 i was able to get some girls and be more confident in my self everything was good. Till i quickly got attached to this one girl. she never truly liked me i just thought she did because she showed me some decency. This made me enraged for about 2 months straight because i was so attached. Finally i forgot about her and the grade 10 school year started, new people new school, girls left and right I was finally getting what i wanted. Then I realized how i was small and decided to start my bulk this was from novemeber to february but mainly to december. I Put on fucking 45lbs in 3 months, almost pure fat. I came back from winter break, many girls laughed at me, talked behind my back, unadded me, and completely ignored me. All my "friends" made fun of me and it was hell. I went many nights in a row cryign about my appearance. I finally decided I will start taking steroids. February 23 i started, they did not help me how i thought they would, i became very bloated and kept bulking and had very high e2, this was the ugliest i had ever been. I decided to finally start the cut after weeks/months of being bullied for the bulk. I had put on lots of size from roids, became the biggest and strongest in my grade. Here i am now, as of late june. I have now gotten to a relatively decent body fat %, I am still getting stronger, upgrading looks every day, and overall progressing. Now don't think this is the end and im all happy. I am still that sensitive young boy who cries almost every night from his apperance and small comments. I went to a party last night and it was very shit like no one really there and a bunch of weirdos but this one girl came, she was very very attractive, we kept playing "eye tag" and it was very clear she wanted me to talk to her or something but i am still in that loser mentallity of being fat and ugly. i hate this and everything its the next day after the party and i am regretting so much not talking to her i dont fucking understand why i am so attached, i wish i could've lived a normal healthy life.

i did read, glad i did, relates to me sm. hope it gets better for us dude

 

[Chudmaxxer67]

i did read, glad i did, relates to me sm. hope it gets better for us dude

yes bro i hope so too thx

 

[orwoemt]

i wish i could've lived a normal healthy life.

Everybody here on org wished that too buddy.

 

[Rylie]

she was very very attractive, we kept playing "eye tag" and it was very clear she wanted me to talk to her or something

Tales from the Indian insane asylum

 

[bluebandz]

all i wanted was to feel accepted. This started years ago years ago when my brother would bully me every day for being fat. I couldn't go a day without hearing the words fat and ugly. every day I would be tormented with this shit constantly. I had the obbession of starting the gym since i was 11, i finally joined when I turned 14. I never skipped days, even when there we're big events for me i'd always choose the gym. The gym was always there for me at my lowest. I started to lose weight and look much better, at firs tmany people cheered me for it but the further i went they started to almost hate on me. I truly discovered looksmaxxing close to when i turned 15. everything hit me hard look good or you are nothing. I never took it too seriously till one day i realized how much i would get bullied by people and how girls never wanted me or i'd get played every time. I finally lost the fat and looked good for a time. This was the summer of me being 15 i was able to get some girls and be more confident in my self everything was good. Till i quickly got attached to this one girl. she never truly liked me i just thought she did because she showed me some decency. This made me enraged for about 2 months straight because i was so attached. Finally i forgot about her and the grade 10 school year started, new people new school, girls left and right I was finally getting what i wanted. Then I realized how i was small and decided to start my bulk this was from novemeber to february but mainly to december. I Put on fucking 45lbs in 3 months, almost pure fat. I came back from winter break, many girls laughed at me, talked behind my back, unadded me, and completely ignored me. All my "friends" made fun of me and it was hell. I went many nights in a row cryign about my appearance. I finally decided I will start taking steroids. February 23 i started, they did not help me how i thought they would, i became very bloated and kept bulking and had very high e2, this was the ugliest i had ever been. I decided to finally start the cut after weeks/months of being bullied for the bulk. I had put on lots of size from roids, became the biggest and strongest in my grade. Here i am now, as of late june. I have now gotten to a relatively decent body fat %, I am still getting stronger, upgrading looks every day, and overall progressing. Now don't think this is the end and im all happy. I am still that sensitive young boy who cries almost every night from his apperance and small comments. I went to a party last night and it was very shit like no one really there and a bunch of weirdos but this one girl came, she was very very attractive, we kept playing "eye tag" and it was very clear she wanted me to talk to her or something but i am still in that loser mentallity of being fat and ugly. i hate this and everything its the next day after the party and i am regretting so much not talking to her i dont fucking understand why i am so attached, i wish i could've lived a normal healthy life.

joined march 11 2026
dnr

 

[jesseg123]

yes bro i hope so too thx

12 posts 5 rep d n r

 

[htinker725]

Bub joined 3 months ago and has 12 posts tall bout sum "BP ruined me"

 

[Chudmaxxer67]

Bub joined 3 months ago and has 12 posts tall bout sum "BP ruined me"

new account nigga

 

[htinker725]

new account nigga

Yeah I bet it is