sibience
Sphinx
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I'm rotting on here and also on r/aznidentity and also I am watching many AMWF channels on youtube, it gives me lifefuel and I pretend that I am the korean guy with the Russian stacy it is cute.
When I am not rotting during the day I am doing programming challenges for fun.
I try not to look in the mirror right now because I because I look very ugly right now because a lot of swelling and I really don't like seeing myself so ugly it makes me want to rope. I am on my bed almost all day with my computer.
I have been very sad a lot. I have no one to talk to, not even my parents, I am scared of them and it is awkward talking to them, when I was younger I couldn't talk to them I hope one day I will but I don't think I can I have to accept the truth (blackpill) and I want the confidence to at least talk to strangers outside. I text my parents and they are supportive.
I have gotten 3 surgeries already and I'm not 18 yet, almost though. I still can't go outside without a mask even after my chin implant, but I hope that after my jowl mound liposuction that I did and after that when I get rhino and paranasal implants I will be able to go outside without mask and especially moving to the west which I am planning to do soon, I already got in good university in West it is cheaper than if I go in my country.
I am just so addicted to white girls. I am doing every looksmax I can do. I don't want any white girl to see my shit nose or shit neck. I don't even know if I will be able to neckmaxx fast enough. Neck is very genetics I can make it more defined and more muscle but the size will be hard to increase because small neck bone. I am training neck right now and eating a lot during my swelling recovery.
I hope it will be worth all of this.
*** I'm not going to post my face right now because swelling makes me ugly and last time I had a lot of swelling after my implant everyone laughed at me and it was too bad for my mental health.
When I am not rotting during the day I am doing programming challenges for fun.
I try not to look in the mirror right now because I because I look very ugly right now because a lot of swelling and I really don't like seeing myself so ugly it makes me want to rope. I am on my bed almost all day with my computer.
I have been very sad a lot. I have no one to talk to, not even my parents, I am scared of them and it is awkward talking to them, when I was younger I couldn't talk to them I hope one day I will but I don't think I can I have to accept the truth (blackpill) and I want the confidence to at least talk to strangers outside. I text my parents and they are supportive.
I have gotten 3 surgeries already and I'm not 18 yet, almost though. I still can't go outside without a mask even after my chin implant, but I hope that after my jowl mound liposuction that I did and after that when I get rhino and paranasal implants I will be able to go outside without mask and especially moving to the west which I am planning to do soon, I already got in good university in West it is cheaper than if I go in my country.
I am just so addicted to white girls. I am doing every looksmax I can do. I don't want any white girl to see my shit nose or shit neck. I don't even know if I will be able to neckmaxx fast enough. Neck is very genetics I can make it more defined and more muscle but the size will be hard to increase because small neck bone. I am training neck right now and eating a lot during my swelling recovery.
I hope it will be worth all of this.
*** I'm not going to post my face right now because swelling makes me ugly and last time I had a lot of swelling after my implant everyone laughed at me and it was too bad for my mental health.
