SMVbender
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first of all, i was not living just in the streets to be honest. i was sleeping in univesity library but mostly in an open pc room of a dorm and it was last winter.
that one time, i was hearing something from in front of women's bathroom, constant brush sound of clothes, a boy and a girl. i thought enough of this and get there, middle of night. I told them here is a MUSLIM COUNTRY, and tell them to fuck off or i am kicking their asses, lowinhib high T sharia moment tbh, blood boiled to my head. low T boy defended, we are doing nothing and bla bla. i kicked them.
whatever i got a girl anyway. she was one of the students that take care of the room, checking if pcs are open or people eating and shit. i was trying to sleep on the pc chairs and she came, told me i was snoring and shit. we start talking and next day she slept with me there, just sleeping. big ass and a little bit tall, some fat. she was way young ang teenage drama, i told her i don't want to talk with her later. but women do approach and they find a way. lol at copers.
there was another one i met in library, wanted help first then came back after a hour. we start talking, study together and shit. in fact i think she was also homeless, at least staying with a family that she work for them as babysitter. but you know what, drugs damage people such an irrevocable way. we fucked in a lecture hall but damn. how can someone be that crazy really? i had no photo but she was ugly as hell and full make up.
to be honest it is just hard for me to keep relationships and i was diagnosed for non organic psychosis years ago. i fall in love with a girl. my ex texted me if i know this girl and stuff, i just found out that in fact she was finalist of miss xcountryx finalist just a couple months ago. I met with her years ago actually. it is just lowinhib of me, saw her and approached, was the first day of semester, but you know, such ego and i couldn't make it... started talking with her again but the thing is it is just hard for me to keep relationships, i was diagnosed for non organic psychosis and being mentalcell is a possible thing. and thats why i couldnt cope more, i lost contract with another one and i don't know why, it was last one to the coffin and then i left the university. i had no friends at all, never had a proper relationship with a NT woman.
well there was one, she left me early because i tried to catfish on tinder with her photos and she somehow figured it out. one of her male friend saw that on tinder most likely. but the real reason was in fact, i slapped her best friend for being drunk in a summer festival. mental illness again, i go from 1 to 100 real quik. thats all because of my parents. they always fighting when i was young and it sparked neurosis. it was mostly because of money, my mother wanted more but father could not provide enough. she was attacking him for not being man enough and shit. in fact he is not tbh. lack of father figure fucked up my life and i was rolling around as a skinny fag weak leftist.
after i left i tried to find a way to rip off money from people, like this:
at some point i was just accepted to be a wagecuck. i need money to keep my physical shape, that was all i only wanted. but corona hit me hard. i was just got a job and then poff. dont think that we dont have money and shit now but for some reason my mom simply dont want me to get bigger. jfl. but gymaxxing and being tall was the only thing help me survive mentally since thats why i get IOIs which gave me hope at least. the thing is they think i am graduating but i am not, i will never it seems. i had a nightmare couple nights ago that they are figuring out whats really happening. and i may get homeless if they learn, legit this time. i think i am going to sell the 2nd car we own and start that selling/buying thing and it is the last shoot.
inb4 didnt read lol, just close the tab.
that one time, i was hearing something from in front of women's bathroom, constant brush sound of clothes, a boy and a girl. i thought enough of this and get there, middle of night. I told them here is a MUSLIM COUNTRY, and tell them to fuck off or i am kicking their asses, lowinhib high T sharia moment tbh, blood boiled to my head. low T boy defended, we are doing nothing and bla bla. i kicked them.
whatever i got a girl anyway. she was one of the students that take care of the room, checking if pcs are open or people eating and shit. i was trying to sleep on the pc chairs and she came, told me i was snoring and shit. we start talking and next day she slept with me there, just sleeping. big ass and a little bit tall, some fat. she was way young ang teenage drama, i told her i don't want to talk with her later. but women do approach and they find a way. lol at copers.
there was another one i met in library, wanted help first then came back after a hour. we start talking, study together and shit. in fact i think she was also homeless, at least staying with a family that she work for them as babysitter. but you know what, drugs damage people such an irrevocable way. we fucked in a lecture hall but damn. how can someone be that crazy really? i had no photo but she was ugly as hell and full make up.
to be honest it is just hard for me to keep relationships and i was diagnosed for non organic psychosis years ago. i fall in love with a girl. my ex texted me if i know this girl and stuff, i just found out that in fact she was finalist of miss xcountryx finalist just a couple months ago. I met with her years ago actually. it is just lowinhib of me, saw her and approached, was the first day of semester, but you know, such ego and i couldn't make it... started talking with her again but the thing is it is just hard for me to keep relationships, i was diagnosed for non organic psychosis and being mentalcell is a possible thing. and thats why i couldnt cope more, i lost contract with another one and i don't know why, it was last one to the coffin and then i left the university. i had no friends at all, never had a proper relationship with a NT woman.
well there was one, she left me early because i tried to catfish on tinder with her photos and she somehow figured it out. one of her male friend saw that on tinder most likely. but the real reason was in fact, i slapped her best friend for being drunk in a summer festival. mental illness again, i go from 1 to 100 real quik. thats all because of my parents. they always fighting when i was young and it sparked neurosis. it was mostly because of money, my mother wanted more but father could not provide enough. she was attacking him for not being man enough and shit. in fact he is not tbh. lack of father figure fucked up my life and i was rolling around as a skinny fag weak leftist.
after i left i tried to find a way to rip off money from people, like this:
at some point i was just accepted to be a wagecuck. i need money to keep my physical shape, that was all i only wanted. but corona hit me hard. i was just got a job and then poff. dont think that we dont have money and shit now but for some reason my mom simply dont want me to get bigger. jfl. but gymaxxing and being tall was the only thing help me survive mentally since thats why i get IOIs which gave me hope at least. the thing is they think i am graduating but i am not, i will never it seems. i had a nightmare couple nights ago that they are figuring out whats really happening. and i may get homeless if they learn, legit this time. i think i am going to sell the 2nd car we own and start that selling/buying thing and it is the last shoot.
inb4 didnt read lol, just close the tab.
