I had shit attendence at school because of looks

[BigBallsLarry]

Everyone who's close to me knows that my entire school experience was shit and that i ended high school with about ~25% attendence

And this issue wasn't because of laziness or bullying or anything like that

Simply put, i am a perfectionist, and if anything during my morning was out of order i simply wouldn't go out. If my hair wasn't perfectly styled then i'd imagine getting made fun of and just not go, same goes for having any signs of acne or even not having a good outfit ready. If i was bloated i wouldn't go out of my house for multiple days.

This is all just because i always wanted to be seen in the best light possible. I wanted to BE the BEST. I wanted to be the guy who can be the best looking in his class.

It's what allowed me to get girlfriends and friends and i imagined to myself that if they saw me in even a slightly worse version then i'd lose it all and they would no longer look up to me.

In my eyes, i could go from being complimented for my looks, to being made fun of in a single day.

This especially worsened because i had friends who'd take pictures of themselves (including me) at school, and i'd get afraid to be caught in a bad lighting.

And i wasn't aware of looksmaxing or anything along those lines back then, this entire story takes place from 2021-2026, and i joined this forum in 2025, so there's that.

And this entire insecurity about looks is 10x worse now, because i am afraid of even going out to shopping because i am a bloated fat piece of shit, and desperately need to lose weight.

Whenever i go outside for a quick trip like the supermarket, and i don't feel perfectly looking, i wear a hat and sunglasses in hopes that it'll cover my ugliness, as if i was some form of celebrity covering my identity

@Daddy's Home @Orka @iblamexyz

 

[brojackson]

dn

Everyone who's close to me knows that my entire school experience was shit and that i ended high school with about ~25% attendence

And this issue wasn't because of laziness or bullying or anything like that

Simply put, i am a perfectionist, and if anything during my morning was out of order i simply wouldn't go out. If my hair wasn't perfectly styled then i'd imagine getting made fun of and just not go, same goes for having any signs of acne or even not having a good outfit ready. If i was bloated i wouldn't go out of my house for multiple days.

This is all just because i always wanted to be seen in the best light possible. I wanted to BE the BEST. I wanted to be the guy who can be the best looking in his class.

It's what allowed me to get girlfriends and friends and i imagined to myself that if they saw me in even a slightly worse version then i'd lose it all and they would no longer look up to me.

In my eyes, i could go from being complimented for my looks, to being made fun of in a single day.

This especially worsened because i had friends who'd take pictures of themselves (including me) at school, and i'd get afraid to be caught in a bad lighting.

And i wasn't aware of looksmaxing or anything along those lines back then, this entire story takes place from 2021-2026, and i joined this forum in 2025, so there's that.

And this entire insecurity about looks is 10x worse now, because i am afraid of even going out to shopping because i am a bloated fat piece of shit, and desperately need to lose weight.

Whenever i go outside for a quick trip like the supermarket, and i don't feel perfectly looking, i wear a hat and sunglasses in hopes that it'll cover my ugliness, as if i was some form of celebrity covering my identity


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@Daddy's Home @Orka @iblamexyz

Dnr youre nd asf g

 

[BigBallsLarry]

dn

Dnr youre nd asf g

thanks for the amazing input bud

 

[Nyrо]

Nigga I can assure

No nigga would have cared

 

[BleoodyOver]

read it all and yes sometimes i saw myself outside in a car reflection before school and went home cus of how ugly i was

 

[BigBallsLarry]

read it all and yes sometimes i saw myself outside in a car reflection before school and went home cus of how ugly i was

Been there done that, very relatable, although i always mogged in car windows, instead i'd always get depressed when checking how i look on my phone, and sometimes go home because of it

 

[BleoodyOver]

Been there done that, very relatable, although i always mogged in car windows, instead i'd always get depressed when checking how i look on my phone, and sometimes go home because of it

phone camera is the worst thing ever kills all my confidence

 

[horseman.]

Relatable, when I was like 11 used to always be late because I needed my hair and clothes perfect before I left, I’d throw tranums about my hair sometimes. Idk what happened tho I’m pretty normal now but i used be way more autistic about my looks when I was younger

 

[BigBallsLarry]

phone camera is the worst thing ever kills all my confidence

I always see people coping that it's lens distortion, but in reality if you don't look even slightly good in a selfie camera then you're just ugly.

There's no coping to it, it's still you even if slightly distorted. A good looking face would still look good if distorted, just weirder that's all.

 

[filthycurrycel]

Everyone who's close to me knows that my entire school experience was shit and that i ended high school with about ~25% attendence

And this issue wasn't because of laziness or bullying or anything like that

Simply put, i am a perfectionist, and if anything during my morning was out of order i simply wouldn't go out. If my hair wasn't perfectly styled then i'd imagine getting made fun of and just not go, same goes for having any signs of acne or even not having a good outfit ready. If i was bloated i wouldn't go out of my house for multiple days.

This is all just because i always wanted to be seen in the best light possible. I wanted to BE the BEST. I wanted to be the guy who can be the best looking in his class.

It's what allowed me to get girlfriends and friends and i imagined to myself that if they saw me in even a slightly worse version then i'd lose it all and they would no longer look up to me.

In my eyes, i could go from being complimented for my looks, to being made fun of in a single day.

This especially worsened because i had friends who'd take pictures of themselves (including me) at school, and i'd get afraid to be caught in a bad lighting.

And i wasn't aware of looksmaxing or anything along those lines back then, this entire story takes place from 2021-2026, and i joined this forum in 2025, so there's that.

And this entire insecurity about looks is 10x worse now, because i am afraid of even going out to shopping because i am a bloated fat piece of shit, and desperately need to lose weight.

Whenever i go outside for a quick trip like the supermarket, and i don't feel perfectly looking, i wear a hat and sunglasses in hopes that it'll cover my ugliness, as if i was some form of celebrity covering my identity


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@Daddy's Home @Orka @iblamexyz

800 dnp and forget bro

 

[BigBallsLarry]

800 dnp and forget bro

yeah tbh

 

[BigBallsLarry]

@Insomnia @Hernan

 

[pexy]

same with me

i had a 33% attendance back in school

hated my appearance so simply didn’t go in

going uni now and my appearance still sucks so i’ll prob have shit attendance here too

 

[accinr]

i go out my way to avoid interactions and just look down because i know any effort at such would just put me in a worse state ive seen it happen to me
in my 1st year of uni we were working on a project and i got paired with randoms, i dont remember what was said but i remember laughing and everyone looking at me weird like im some sort of creature that snuck on earth-that experience haunts m to this day-2 years later despite ascending i cannot let myself be vulnerable ive fixed almost every flaw i had (still not sub 10% body fat but im just fairly lean) - because what if i get those looks again, what if no one wants to sit next to me? what if people are disgusted by my presence
life is better now i am treated better but the psychological torment for 18 years has left me in ruins because after all i am still the same kid
i dont even know how to talk/pursue a girl i feel like i will never be good enough in any regard i have never had an irl partner despite getting multiple indicators of interest i just cant shake the feeling of being unworthy
dnr me i was just venting

 

[Orka]

dn

Dnr youre nd asf g

Say you swear

 

[killuacel]

same, and its only a never ending cycle

once you start only socialising when you are fully 'looksmaxxed' (debloated perfect skin hair etc) ,then it becomes even more difficult to do so when you aren't, since you feel like people perceive you as attractive

you never want that to stop, you become scared of people seeing you on an off day, and thinking 'oh god what happened'

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Say you swear

Nigga thinks he's columbus discovering america with that shitty ass statement like no shit bro

 

[IndecentEyes]

very reletable
you can’t go a single day not attending here so i have to go no matter what, i don’t really care it just prevents me from being able to cry at night as my eyes will be fucked in the morning

 

[BigBallsLarry]

once you start only socialising when you are fully 'looksmaxxed' (debloated perfect skin hair etc) ,then it becomes even more difficult to do so when you aren't, since you feel like people perceive you as attractive

you never want that to stop, you become scared of people seeing you on an off day, and thinking 'oh god what happened'

Exactly bro, you get it 1:1. I didn't know how to explain it.

You build up that persona of 'the attractive guy'.. and then have to keep that up.

When eventually you let yourself go, whether it be by laziness, depression, maybe something bad happening in your life -- and you look in the mirror and see that you're no longer the persona you led yourself up to be, then you feel like it's the end of the world and dig yourself into a deeper hole every day.

 

[LXR]

dn

Dnr youre nd asf g

 

[BigBallsLarry]

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I swear he's kirk for 1 frame wtf

 

[LXR]

I swear he's kirk for 1 frame wtf

Dnrd youre nt asf g

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Dnrd nigga you nt as f g

 

[LXR]

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G b spitting fax tho

 

[killuacel]

Exactly bro, you get it 1:1. I didn't know how to explain it.

You build up that persona of 'the attractive guy'.. and then have to keep that up.

When eventually you let yourself go, whether it be by laziness, depression, maybe something bad happening in your life -- and you look in the mirror and see that you're no longer the persona you led yourself up to be, then you feel like it's the end of the world and dig yourself into a deeper hole every day.

its basically ruined all my relationships, both romantic or platonic, since i can never commit to any plans in the future due to the fear something could go wrong in regard to my looks in the days before

 

[BigBallsLarry]

its basically ruined all my relationships, both romantic or platonic, since i can never commit to any plans in the future due to the fear something could go wrong in regard to my looks in the days before

Just wait untill you realise the horror of living with your partner.

You spend months or even years building up that imagine of a perfect looking partner just to live together and that entire illusion vanishes. She probably gets the ick on the spot and leaves for chad.

 

[killuacel]

Just wait untill you realise the horror of living with your partner.

You spend months or even years building up that imagine of a perfect looking partner just to live together and that entire illusion vanishes. She probably gets the ick on the spot and leaves for chad.

its why i have no plans to live with anyone

 

[Scars]

Everyone who's close to me knows that my entire school experience was shit and that i ended high school with about ~25% attendence

And this issue wasn't because of laziness or bullying or anything like that

Simply put, i am a perfectionist, and if anything during my morning was out of order i simply wouldn't go out. If my hair wasn't perfectly styled then i'd imagine getting made fun of and just not go, same goes for having any signs of acne or even not having a good outfit ready. If i was bloated i wouldn't go out of my house for multiple days.

This is all just because i always wanted to be seen in the best light possible. I wanted to BE the BEST. I wanted to be the guy who can be the best looking in his class.

It's what allowed me to get girlfriends and friends and i imagined to myself that if they saw me in even a slightly worse version then i'd lose it all and they would no longer look up to me.

In my eyes, i could go from being complimented for my looks, to being made fun of in a single day.

This especially worsened because i had friends who'd take pictures of themselves (including me) at school, and i'd get afraid to be caught in a bad lighting.

And i wasn't aware of looksmaxing or anything along those lines back then, this entire story takes place from 2021-2026, and i joined this forum in 2025, so there's that.

And this entire insecurity about looks is 10x worse now, because i am afraid of even going out to shopping because i am a bloated fat piece of shit, and desperately need to lose weight.

Whenever i go outside for a quick trip like the supermarket, and i don't feel perfectly looking, i wear a hat and sunglasses in hopes that it'll cover my ugliness, as if i was some form of celebrity covering my identity


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@Daddy's Home @Orka @iblamexyz

very relatable sadly

im surprised you managed to finish high school tho

 

[BigBallsLarry]

im surprised you managed to finish high school tho

 

[Scars]

i misunderstood ended with finished

high school is a shithole regardless if you find a source of income

 

[BigBallsLarry]

if you find a source of income

 

[cortisolman2]

Everyone who's close to me knows that my entire school experience was shit and that i ended high school with about ~25% attendence

And this issue wasn't because of laziness or bullying or anything like that

Simply put, i am a perfectionist, and if anything during my morning was out of order i simply wouldn't go out. If my hair wasn't perfectly styled then i'd imagine getting made fun of and just not go, same goes for having any signs of acne or even not having a good outfit ready. If i was bloated i wouldn't go out of my house for multiple days.

This is all just because i always wanted to be seen in the best light possible. I wanted to BE the BEST. I wanted to be the guy who can be the best looking in his class.

It's what allowed me to get girlfriends and friends and i imagined to myself that if they saw me in even a slightly worse version then i'd lose it all and they would no longer look up to me.

In my eyes, i could go from being complimented for my looks, to being made fun of in a single day.

This especially worsened because i had friends who'd take pictures of themselves (including me) at school, and i'd get afraid to be caught in a bad lighting.

And i wasn't aware of looksmaxing or anything along those lines back then, this entire story takes place from 2021-2026, and i joined this forum in 2025, so there's that.

And this entire insecurity about looks is 10x worse now, because i am afraid of even going out to shopping because i am a bloated fat piece of shit, and desperately need to lose weight.

Whenever i go outside for a quick trip like the supermarket, and i don't feel perfectly looking, i wear a hat and sunglasses in hopes that it'll cover my ugliness, as if i was some form of celebrity covering my identity


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@Daddy's Home @Orka @iblamexyz

honestly i feel the same way if i dont look the best or if smth goes wrong in the morning my confidence just tanks and the rest of the day i feel like shi but i do go to school either way

 

[try2beme]

Used to be me
I would misbehave anyway so they put me in isolation, a room full of ghetto low inhib kids who were as crazy as I used to be

 

[Idontknow-]

You still in school?

 

[BigBallsLarry]

You still in school?

nope

 

[terralsace]

Me too
I ended school with 30% attendance
At one point, i used to walk back home when my school was 20 metres away

 

[BubbsyInnit]

Everyone who's close to me knows that my entire school experience was shit and that i ended high school with about ~25% attendence

And this issue wasn't because of laziness or bullying or anything like that

Simply put, i am a perfectionist, and if anything during my morning was out of order i simply wouldn't go out. If my hair wasn't perfectly styled then i'd imagine getting made fun of and just not go, same goes for having any signs of acne or even not having a good outfit ready. If i was bloated i wouldn't go out of my house for multiple days.

This is all just because i always wanted to be seen in the best light possible. I wanted to BE the BEST. I wanted to be the guy who can be the best looking in his class.

It's what allowed me to get girlfriends and friends and i imagined to myself that if they saw me in even a slightly worse version then i'd lose it all and they would no longer look up to me.

In my eyes, i could go from being complimented for my looks, to being made fun of in a single day.

This especially worsened because i had friends who'd take pictures of themselves (including me) at school, and i'd get afraid to be caught in a bad lighting.

And i wasn't aware of looksmaxing or anything along those lines back then, this entire story takes place from 2021-2026, and i joined this forum in 2025, so there's that.

And this entire insecurity about looks is 10x worse now, because i am afraid of even going out to shopping because i am a bloated fat piece of shit, and desperately need to lose weight.

Whenever i go outside for a quick trip like the supermarket, and i don't feel perfectly looking, i wear a hat and sunglasses in hopes that it'll cover my ugliness, as if i was some form of celebrity covering my identity


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@Daddy's Home @Orka @iblamexyz

Living life as a perfectionist is a flaw itself, the concept of being one means to set extremely high standards of yourself with little to no flaws which is considered impossible. The best way to face this problem is to help understand where it comes from because only then you can find solutions to manage it or even eliminate it from your personal life.

 

[foidrepeller271]

Everyone who's close to me knows that my entire school experience was shit and that i ended high school with about ~25% attendence

And this issue wasn't because of laziness or bullying or anything like that

Simply put, i am a perfectionist, and if anything during my morning was out of order i simply wouldn't go out. If my hair wasn't perfectly styled then i'd imagine getting made fun of and just not go, same goes for having any signs of acne or even not having a good outfit ready. If i was bloated i wouldn't go out of my house for multiple days.

This is all just because i always wanted to be seen in the best light possible. I wanted to BE the BEST. I wanted to be the guy who can be the best looking in his class.

It's what allowed me to get girlfriends and friends and i imagined to myself that if they saw me in even a slightly worse version then i'd lose it all and they would no longer look up to me.

In my eyes, i could go from being complimented for my looks, to being made fun of in a single day.

This especially worsened because i had friends who'd take pictures of themselves (including me) at school, and i'd get afraid to be caught in a bad lighting.

And i wasn't aware of looksmaxing or anything along those lines back then, this entire story takes place from 2021-2026, and i joined this forum in 2025, so there's that.

And this entire insecurity about looks is 10x worse now, because i am afraid of even going out to shopping because i am a bloated fat piece of shit, and desperately need to lose weight.

Whenever i go outside for a quick trip like the supermarket, and i don't feel perfectly looking, i wear a hat and sunglasses in hopes that it'll cover my ugliness, as if i was some form of celebrity covering my identity


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@Daddy's Home @Orka @iblamexyz

Holy crap I’m literally at home right now I think exactly like this

 

[iblamexyz]

Everyone who's close to me knows that my entire school experience was shit and that i ended high school with about ~25% attendence

And this issue wasn't because of laziness or bullying or anything like that

Simply put, i am a perfectionist, and if anything during my morning was out of order i simply wouldn't go out. If my hair wasn't perfectly styled then i'd imagine getting made fun of and just not go, same goes for having any signs of acne or even not having a good outfit ready. If i was bloated i wouldn't go out of my house for multiple days.

This is all just because i always wanted to be seen in the best light possible. I wanted to BE the BEST. I wanted to be the guy who can be the best looking in his class.

It's what allowed me to get girlfriends and friends and i imagined to myself that if they saw me in even a slightly worse version then i'd lose it all and they would no longer look up to me.

In my eyes, i could go from being complimented for my looks, to being made fun of in a single day.

This especially worsened because i had friends who'd take pictures of themselves (including me) at school, and i'd get afraid to be caught in a bad lighting.

And i wasn't aware of looksmaxing or anything along those lines back then, this entire story takes place from 2021-2026, and i joined this forum in 2025, so there's that.

And this entire insecurity about looks is 10x worse now, because i am afraid of even going out to shopping because i am a bloated fat piece of shit, and desperately need to lose weight.

Whenever i go outside for a quick trip like the supermarket, and i don't feel perfectly looking, i wear a hat and sunglasses in hopes that it'll cover my ugliness, as if i was some form of celebrity covering my identity


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@Daddy's Home @Orka @iblamexyz

Bro it must of just been your confidence

If you had a good personality you’d wouldn’t have shit attendance

@Tesarossa

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Bro it must of just been your confidence

If you had a good personality you’d wouldn’t have shit attendance

@Tesarossa

truth nuke.

 

[iblamexyz]

Nigga I can assure

No nigga would have cared

Normie Trvth is everyone cares

This is something normies have done to convince themselves people aren’t looking but they are even if it’s subconscious

 

[Daddy's Home]

If you’re a perfectionist, you need to know how to adapt

If you have a smt on your face, you can wear a surgical mask or use a little makeup on that spot. If your hair looks bad, just put on a cap. You don’t have to look perfect every day, sometimes you can just be more laid-back

The important thing is to go to the restroom frequently to check how your face and hair look

When it comes to living with someone else, all you can do is shower daily, make sure you always have clean clothes and bedding, always wear antiperspirant and cologne, and, whenever you go to the bathroom to urinate or do anything else, check the mirror to see if there’s anything on your face or nose and fix your hair. That is literally all you can do..

 

[Hernan]

Everyone who's close to me knows that my entire school experience was shit and that i ended high school with about ~25% attendence

And this issue wasn't because of laziness or bullying or anything like that

Simply put, i am a perfectionist, and if anything during my morning was out of order i simply wouldn't go out. If my hair wasn't perfectly styled then i'd imagine getting made fun of and just not go, same goes for having any signs of acne or even not having a good outfit ready. If i was bloated i wouldn't go out of my house for multiple days.

This is all just because i always wanted to be seen in the best light possible. I wanted to BE the BEST. I wanted to be the guy who can be the best looking in his class.

It's what allowed me to get girlfriends and friends and i imagined to myself that if they saw me in even a slightly worse version then i'd lose it all and they would no longer look up to me.

In my eyes, i could go from being complimented for my looks, to being made fun of in a single day.

This especially worsened because i had friends who'd take pictures of themselves (including me) at school, and i'd get afraid to be caught in a bad lighting.

And i wasn't aware of looksmaxing or anything along those lines back then, this entire story takes place from 2021-2026, and i joined this forum in 2025, so there's that.

And this entire insecurity about looks is 10x worse now, because i am afraid of even going out to shopping because i am a bloated fat piece of shit, and desperately need to lose weight.

Whenever i go outside for a quick trip like the supermarket, and i don't feel perfectly looking, i wear a hat and sunglasses in hopes that it'll cover my ugliness, as if i was some form of celebrity covering my identity


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@Daddy's Home @Orka @iblamexyz

.

 

[smartfoiddestroyer2]

Everyone who's close to me knows that my entire school experience was shit and that i ended high school with about ~25% attendence

And this issue wasn't because of laziness or bullying or anything like that

Simply put, i am a perfectionist, and if anything during my morning was out of order i simply wouldn't go out. If my hair wasn't perfectly styled then i'd imagine getting made fun of and just not go, same goes for having any signs of acne or even not having a good outfit ready. If i was bloated i wouldn't go out of my house for multiple days.

This is all just because i always wanted to be seen in the best light possible. I wanted to BE the BEST. I wanted to be the guy who can be the best looking in his class.

It's what allowed me to get girlfriends and friends and i imagined to myself that if they saw me in even a slightly worse version then i'd lose it all and they would no longer look up to me.

In my eyes, i could go from being complimented for my looks, to being made fun of in a single day.

This especially worsened because i had friends who'd take pictures of themselves (including me) at school, and i'd get afraid to be caught in a bad lighting.

And i wasn't aware of looksmaxing or anything along those lines back then, this entire story takes place from 2021-2026, and i joined this forum in 2025, so there's that.

And this entire insecurity about looks is 10x worse now, because i am afraid of even going out to shopping because i am a bloated fat piece of shit, and desperately need to lose weight.

Whenever i go outside for a quick trip like the supermarket, and i don't feel perfectly looking, i wear a hat and sunglasses in hopes that it'll cover my ugliness, as if i was some form of celebrity covering my identity


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@Daddy's Home @Orka @iblamexyz

my attendance is 29% and i got a warning from my hs

 

[Oscaridk]

Everyone who's close to me knows that my entire school experience was shit and that i ended high school with about ~25% attendence

And this issue wasn't because of laziness or bullying or anything like that

Simply put, i am a perfectionist, and if anything during my morning was out of order i simply wouldn't go out. If my hair wasn't perfectly styled then i'd imagine getting made fun of and just not go, same goes for having any signs of acne or even not having a good outfit ready. If i was bloated i wouldn't go out of my house for multiple days.

This is all just because i always wanted to be seen in the best light possible. I wanted to BE the BEST. I wanted to be the guy who can be the best looking in his class.

It's what allowed me to get girlfriends and friends and i imagined to myself that if they saw me in even a slightly worse version then i'd lose it all and they would no longer look up to me.

In my eyes, i could go from being complimented for my looks, to being made fun of in a single day.

This especially worsened because i had friends who'd take pictures of themselves (including me) at school, and i'd get afraid to be caught in a bad lighting.

And i wasn't aware of looksmaxing or anything along those lines back then, this entire story takes place from 2021-2026, and i joined this forum in 2025, so there's that.

And this entire insecurity about looks is 10x worse now, because i am afraid of even going out to shopping because i am a bloated fat piece of shit, and desperately need to lose weight.

Whenever i go outside for a quick trip like the supermarket, and i don't feel perfectly looking, i wear a hat and sunglasses in hopes that it'll cover my ugliness, as if i was some form of celebrity covering my identity


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@Daddy's Home @Orka @iblamexyz

Is that you in the image? You look 28-30 Icl thought you were an 18 year old 6'3 balding Polish dude with a deep voice for some reason.

Also Nice new pfp