I hardened myself

[Blackout.xl]

I used to be the stereotypical nice guy. Tried to do good, help others when I wouldn’t benefit, didn’t even care about validation. Just did it for free and got no validation. I was given this worldview from the bible and my mum.

What did I get throughout my life?

- people lying to me
- people slandering against me
- people fighting against me
- people only approaching me when they want something
- heavy dislike Of my character
- ppl launching personal attacks for self validation

I could go on. Now I hardened myself. I don’t do any of these things now. Because what’s the point? Every time I tried to do good, people found reasons to attack me or hate me. So why do good? If no one wants to allow you to be a decent men then obviously being one is useless.

All I wanted to be was respected, truly. Not even liked. Just not seen as a shit stain on the toilet. But that was too much for people. So I hardened my heart. Because there is no good left to be done, because no one wants to accept good from me.

It is what it is. If I was chad ppl would call me a nice guy and treat me accordingly. But rn I’m ugly and have been for as long as I could remember so I don’t get that privilege. I remember ppl calling me nice and then attacking me after. Almost like second nature

 

[Deleted member 6997]

Good. Stay hard

 

[Deleted member 1476]

Thought this was going to be about viagra

 

[lookismfugee]

what if u only noticed bad things no bs. no joke its like we dont notice good and then something bad happens and we melt. befriend spergs from here if there are any nearby ngl. everyone acting hard here is probably nice dude irl and u get to be more honest etc with each other because thats what psl shitholes are about anyway. no way there arent any from canada.
psl rotters would make better friends than everyone thinks

 

[Deleted member 5683]

go er

 

[Blackout.xl]

go er

I refuse to take a life under any circumstances

 

[Blackout.xl]

what if u only noticed bad things no bs. no joke its like we dont notice good and then something bad happens and we melt. befriend spergs from here if there are any nearby ngl. everyone acting hard here is probably nice dude irl and u get to be more honest etc with each other because thats what psl shitholes are about anyway. no way there arent any from canada.
psl rotters would make better friends than everyone thinks

Every time I tried to notice good I ended up also noticing these ppl wanting something from me or doing things behind my back and lying

 

[lookismfugee]

Every time I tried to notice good I ended up also noticing these ppl wanting something from me or doing things behind my back and lying

psl rotters will never do that but honestly only gl ones would be up to meet irl no bs. we all know why

 

[Blackout.xl]

psl rotters will never do that but honestly only gl ones would be up to meet irl no bs. we all know why

Indeed

 

[Deleted member 6095]

I think yesterday I went full soy and thought helping everyone would make me happier. It honestly wouldn't change shit bc they wouldn't care if I'm not Chad.

Chad self serves and everyone loves him DESPITE THAT. Then when he does a normal human nice thing, they love him more.

Life is a joke below 6PSL

 

[lookismfugee]

I think yesterday I went full soy and thought helping everyone would make me happier. It honestly wouldn't change shit bc they wouldn't care if I'm not Chad.

Chad self serves and everyone loves him DESPITE THAT. Then when he does a normal human nice thing, they love him more.

Life is a joke below 6PSL

tbh if friendships arent free they arent friendships. anything past autistic jokes and having good times/emotional connections or whatever jfl is bs. idk how to explain but i only ever had 5 legit friends. maybe 6. one was girl relative. actually is if u are spergy weirdo and everyone is on psl dont try to be normal because u will never be and will torture urself even worse imo. befriend weirdos because normies arent relatable. just beee urself is real advice and good way to filer out normies too

 

[Deleted member 6089]

how did you harden yourself then?

 

[Deleted member 5859]

how did you harden yourself then?

Porn

 

[Blackout.xl]

how did you harden yourself then?

Stopped caring about helping others

 

[Deleted member 3990]

Thought this was going to be about viagra

I legit read vasodilation instead of validation

 

[Deleted member 6089]

Stopped caring about helping others

but what if someone asks for help? i mean someone thats your friend. should u deny it ? Asumming he would help me if I asked

 

[Deleted member 6497]

Exacltly what i went throught . People like the meanies not good hearted people