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Now disclaimer I do not hate Indians at all themselves, I just hate being Indian and the stereotypes that come with it. I can feel my pure inferiority as I type it. I amount to nothing and what's the point of carrying on if I have to keep living like this. If reincarnation is real as I have been taught my entire life, then please let me born as black or white, just anything other than Indian. Even Pakistani would be fine with me. Bangladeshi, Nepali, Sri Lakan whatever
I was born and raised in the west from an Indian family. They showed me little to no love growing up, abused me mentally, emotionally and physically, brainwashed me, denied me anything I wanted and kicked me out of the house at a young age. I couldn't even count the amount of times my father has told me to jump off a terrace in my life. My brother on the other hand was pampered and loved beyond anything else.
The racial bullying got so bad at one point and they did nothing about it. i can remember it like it was yesterday. Every time I would go anywhere it was always "ew whats that smell", "it stinks here" despite me having showered and wore cologne that day, for those who don't know they were targeted jokes making fun of how Indians smell. "Go back to your shithole, we shower in this country". Among other things
Kids would come up to me outta nowhere slap me in the face and say "hit back Gandhi", and they were always in groups. too. They would tell me "I'm not Indian, I'm not stupid". "he's stupid, he's indian." Couldn't go to the bathroom, as I would always get jumped and ganged up on, the kids would make jokes about how Indians shit ont he floor and how I'm "not allowed in the bathrooms". Now none of them would do it 1 on 1, I actually sent a kid to a hospital once, shattered his orbital cause I couldn't take after he had shoved me down in the bathroom and called me "curry boy" it but all his friends jumped in and I also ended up in the hospital as well. I always fought back when I was jumped, but to no avail. Admins didn't take it seriously so I'm on my own.
And the worst part? This shit is not only condoned but encouraged. Racism against us Indians/Asians in general always flies. Even mongoloid asians r defended more than us. Imagine if it were a black, or hispanic person getting bullied like this, all races would have a issue and it'd make headlines. Even other South Asians would bully me. For some reason pakistanis don't get half the negative stereotypes we do by others, so they would always tell me about how backwards I am because I "worship cows" and everyone else would also make fun of me for that. A group of boys threw lemonade in my face and said "drink this cow piss, hindu". And the thing is, they defend it by bringing up these stereotypes are based in truth.
Drinking cow piss is a part of hinduism, and almost half of India does shit in the streets, they'd say. Always in class they would say "do u shit on the floor?" "does ur mom shit on the floor?" and I'd be called currymuncher and dothead all the time too. Another thing was when they'd make all the 7/11 slurpee jokes and Indian scammer things.
Ik what sum of u may be thinking. "it's those alt right trumpie white people" right? No. Surprisingly almost every single incident I had was racism from black people. I don't hate black people at all, and I have some black friends, but 99% of the racism I have faced here is from black people, and they get away with it perfectly fine cause it's just this country's logic that only racism towards them won't be tolerated.
Also not to mention being Indian is a turn off for most girls as well. Even pakistanis have better luck here than we do. I been rejected time after time cause I'm Indian, for no other reason, ladies even tell me to my face that's why.
God I can't tell you how much school I've missed trying to avoid it too. I'd get beat up and called racial slurs almost every day. The streetshitter jokes got so annoying ad it took a toll on my mental health. I may have been wasting my life staying home and playing video games instead, but it was better than going to school
The last straw was when I was in a public bathroom not too long ago. I saw one of my old classmates from before the virus struck, he immediately recognized me and said "I thought i smelled curry" and then he caught me by surprise, took my neck and locked me in a rear naked choke while yelling all kinds of slurs.
I felt so fucking pathetic, how'd I let that happen to me? I cried myself to sleep for nights after that and just decided I'm gonna end my life. I'm going to wait till after christmas, but I know where my dad keeps his pistol. I'm going to take it, put it in my mouth and point upwards before pulling the trigger and ending it all. I hope if reincarnation is real that I will never EVER be born in this ethnicity again ever.
I was born and raised in the west from an Indian family. They showed me little to no love growing up, abused me mentally, emotionally and physically, brainwashed me, denied me anything I wanted and kicked me out of the house at a young age. I couldn't even count the amount of times my father has told me to jump off a terrace in my life. My brother on the other hand was pampered and loved beyond anything else.
The racial bullying got so bad at one point and they did nothing about it. i can remember it like it was yesterday. Every time I would go anywhere it was always "ew whats that smell", "it stinks here" despite me having showered and wore cologne that day, for those who don't know they were targeted jokes making fun of how Indians smell. "Go back to your shithole, we shower in this country". Among other things
Kids would come up to me outta nowhere slap me in the face and say "hit back Gandhi", and they were always in groups. too. They would tell me "I'm not Indian, I'm not stupid". "he's stupid, he's indian." Couldn't go to the bathroom, as I would always get jumped and ganged up on, the kids would make jokes about how Indians shit ont he floor and how I'm "not allowed in the bathrooms". Now none of them would do it 1 on 1, I actually sent a kid to a hospital once, shattered his orbital cause I couldn't take after he had shoved me down in the bathroom and called me "curry boy" it but all his friends jumped in and I also ended up in the hospital as well. I always fought back when I was jumped, but to no avail. Admins didn't take it seriously so I'm on my own.
And the worst part? This shit is not only condoned but encouraged. Racism against us Indians/Asians in general always flies. Even mongoloid asians r defended more than us. Imagine if it were a black, or hispanic person getting bullied like this, all races would have a issue and it'd make headlines. Even other South Asians would bully me. For some reason pakistanis don't get half the negative stereotypes we do by others, so they would always tell me about how backwards I am because I "worship cows" and everyone else would also make fun of me for that. A group of boys threw lemonade in my face and said "drink this cow piss, hindu". And the thing is, they defend it by bringing up these stereotypes are based in truth.
Drinking cow piss is a part of hinduism, and almost half of India does shit in the streets, they'd say. Always in class they would say "do u shit on the floor?" "does ur mom shit on the floor?" and I'd be called currymuncher and dothead all the time too. Another thing was when they'd make all the 7/11 slurpee jokes and Indian scammer things.
Ik what sum of u may be thinking. "it's those alt right trumpie white people" right? No. Surprisingly almost every single incident I had was racism from black people. I don't hate black people at all, and I have some black friends, but 99% of the racism I have faced here is from black people, and they get away with it perfectly fine cause it's just this country's logic that only racism towards them won't be tolerated.
Also not to mention being Indian is a turn off for most girls as well. Even pakistanis have better luck here than we do. I been rejected time after time cause I'm Indian, for no other reason, ladies even tell me to my face that's why.
God I can't tell you how much school I've missed trying to avoid it too. I'd get beat up and called racial slurs almost every day. The streetshitter jokes got so annoying ad it took a toll on my mental health. I may have been wasting my life staying home and playing video games instead, but it was better than going to school
The last straw was when I was in a public bathroom not too long ago. I saw one of my old classmates from before the virus struck, he immediately recognized me and said "I thought i smelled curry" and then he caught me by surprise, took my neck and locked me in a rear naked choke while yelling all kinds of slurs.
I felt so fucking pathetic, how'd I let that happen to me? I cried myself to sleep for nights after that and just decided I'm gonna end my life. I'm going to wait till after christmas, but I know where my dad keeps his pistol. I'm going to take it, put it in my mouth and point upwards before pulling the trigger and ending it all. I hope if reincarnation is real that I will never EVER be born in this ethnicity again ever.
