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FeelingUgly
Recessed slayer
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Just ranting here, I know logically that I can't be that important to be in the center of attention.
I've always had this egocentric approach not because of narcissistic tendencies but autistic ones, I have problems with looking at the things from different perspective than mine. Wouldn't wish autism (and adhd to boot) to my worst enemy. Ritalin that I take makes me even more paranoid, so I hear they laughing even louder. I always think they laugh at me and not with me. I thought isolation is the solution.. ye maybe but definitely not long term for me. Idk how to cope, everyday I go there I have some false hope in me that maybe today is the day they will start liking me genuinely.
I've always had this egocentric approach not because of narcissistic tendencies but autistic ones, I have problems with looking at the things from different perspective than mine. Wouldn't wish autism (and adhd to boot) to my worst enemy. Ritalin that I take makes me even more paranoid, so I hear they laughing even louder. I always think they laugh at me and not with me. I thought isolation is the solution.. ye maybe but definitely not long term for me. Idk how to cope, everyday I go there I have some false hope in me that maybe today is the day they will start liking me genuinely.